I lay wanting to have you in my arms
I lay wondering what we would’ve have
I lay in distress
I lay
I wanted to meet you

“Idk how your new boyfriend stands you”

From what you know I would hate a long distance relationship

From what you know I’m still “toxic as ****”

From what you know “I haven’t changed at all”

But you never new me at all

If that was true why would I be in the most loving relationship I’ve experienced?

If it was true why was I the one blessed by a new loving relationship?

If you knew me at all, you would be happy that I’m happy.


I broke up with him for having an obsession with my sister. Illegally taking pictures of her at my family Christmas..


You never knew me at all

depressed, drunk and disgusting
you inserted yourself to my life with no judgement

you saw the broken pieces that he left me

blessed by you placed into my life. You took out the knife.

I’m worthy of the love you give me. As you are the love I give you. I miss you.

Anti- anti- social I cry,
Don’t even try,
Scream my nights by

Bring me down never feels like you want me around.
Remember when i would kiss your head?
On my own again. You were always my best friend.
Keep me where you want me. I hold no value.
Every day relive the pain.
Never will be the same again.