I think of you
So intensely and
Thoroughly that
I think my
Heart might
Explode.

I bet you must be liked
By everyone you meet
I bet people get weak
When they hear you speak
Surely you must captivate them all
I mean, look at you, eyes of an angel
Lips look so soft, can I kiss them?
Your eyes are so beautiful
I could get lost in them
Like I'm in Heaven
In Paradise even

there was no chalk outline
there was no accident
                  no wheels screeching before impact
     but i think
there would have been tears
                          in your eyes
                    under the water
or you held them
so tight
to block out light
                    i'd think
the water wasn't too cold
it was summer over there
                                        this wasn't an accident
          a suicide
           planed
and executed
by you
                        at least
                 there's no one hurting you
                      and no more pain
                              no life
i love you baby
rest in peace
forever
with my love x

I couldn't look at him cause
Of the thoughts running through
My mind of how I
Just want to get on top of him and
Make out with him so fiercely and
To just unbutton his shirt and
Unzip his pants and
Never get my math
Work done because
We're to busy
On his
Desk.

i've started shaking
                                     hot and cold shivers
                                          control me
      a sinking feeling
                                                    in my torso
                     shortened breaths
      i cant breathe
                                         choking on nothing
  heart or stomach
         sink
                             the small amounts of food
    that i ate not long ago
                   i begin to feel ill
nothing is settled in me
                                      back aches
                        become headaches
                                                       ­  i'm still shaking
    hot and cold
                   shivering
                                                 combining into pain
        i'm not handling anything well
                    panic attacks
                            anxiety
    not eating
    not sleeping
                                  no i'm not handling this well
         i'm not dealing
               i cant cope

I past by you in the hallway and
You tried so hard to
Look away but
Something told you to
Keep watching
Me.

I tried to keep looking f o  r w   a   r          d
But every time I looked there
It didn't feel right.
I mean, you felt like
My forward, like
Where I
belong.

As I kept on walking,
My heart slowed down and
So did the pace of my stride.
Was it my heart trying to
Tell me to go back?
Or
That I'm better off
Without him?

Maybe it was trying to tell me to
Grow a pair and
Go say
'Hello'.

everything
everything
everything
everything
everything
in my head
  goes back
           back
           back
   and back
to you
                                      every
                                       time
you're
hurting
me
i
cant
write
any
good
poetry
go
away
pleas­e
and
let
me
write