You’re a man
Taught you must be strong
Dig some more
Are you feeling sad ?
No that’s wrong
So dig some more
That better be sweat
Or are you crying
I don’t want to see a drop
So dig some more
You’re hurting
Missing her bad
So dig some more
You’re winching In pain
Is that from the splinters
Are the blisters
So dig some more
I don’t want you to feel anything
Not anymore
There’s no time to be sore
Become numb to it all
So dig more
You’re only 6 feet down
But we’re not done now
So dig some more

Fires rages, roars above the ground never extinguish by life

How much do you think about me
Does it come frequent as the wind blows through the tress
Or does it pack up like a dad in the silent of the night an leaves
What will it take for you to be gone
Does doubt creep in the back of your mind
Is your love really true
Or does it crack like cheap Instant glue
Does 21 Questions bother you
How deep is our bond
Lately you an I haven't gotten along fondly
How far would you go
What do you have to prove
Is your trust weak like mine
Or do you know I don't trust you
Does your past hold you in cuffs
Does it affect me an you
I wonder how would you feel if I left
Would you be asthmatic and lose your breath
Or would the first breath you take without me set you free  
What do you feel when you like my way
Does your heart scream for you to stay
Or is it empty like mine

300 violins play in the background
As words flow out of me like a punctured ink pin
Drowning the paper like a flash flood
They play a symphony to the written sins  
300 orchestrated violins plays their strings
The music
Out weighs the strange annotations on the pages
My words they use as their music sheet
Sounds emanate as they guide there bow over the strings
Following along the music sheets
Penned by me
300 violins play a soft soothing tune in the beginning
But they all start to scratch as they follow the path of the words
Playing erratic and panic
What verbs must I have use
They all seemed to play confused
300 violinist playing off key
Composed by me

It's 6:52 am and I still can't sleep
Counting the shadows on the walls like kids count sheep
Thinking out loud
my voice echo's
So it seems like some else is talking to me
But I don't mind I'm not alone
Even if I'm my own company
Am I crazy ?
No just sleepy but I can't sleep
The sun rising
But not as bright as it should be
I can tell
It's gonna be a gloomy day

I heard my barber say today

You think your situation is bad until you hear someone else’s story.
That’s when you realize your problems ain’t ****.

Why did that make me feel better?

Abracadabra I fell for your tricks
Believed in what you told me
Carelessly
Definitely caught in your illusionary words
Every thought you talked away
Failed to see the sway in this battle
Giving you my all, my
Heartbeats to please you
I gave a lot to prove to you
Jostle against the other side of me
Killed my pride  
Lost in the affections
Molded by love
Never losing the thought of you
Obligated to make you mine
Promised I'd fight for you always
Quitting, no never
Regardless of the struggle, I
Sold my soul for this
Today your still my goal even though we're
Unable to touch, I
Valiantly try
Willing to give up anything but,
Xen in this kind of world
You say you love me and I'm
Zealously chasing that dream of us

He's lost in the wilderness
This world taught him not to depend on others
He couldn't trust anyone
So he turned his back on everyone
He couldn't even trust the trees
Thought the leaves would abandon him
Cursed the breeze
Because it whispered through the hollow bark
His trust issues run deep like the underground spring he drank from
An even though it was fresh
He boiled it to get rid of any contaminated mess
Chose the life of solitude
Conclude that trust was just a ruse
To paranoid
Lead him to even mistrust himself

You’re nothing more then a temptation
That twist and turn my stomach  
Almost sickening
One look in your eyes
And my heart convinced me this is meant to be
Ignoring my mind
Constantly screaming
True love is fiction
It’s the same as a drunk man trying prove he knows karate
Someone is going to end up hurt
But any man who kissed your lips
His virginity would cease to exist
I got insnared in your musk
And I would’ve walk through the fire
Kicked down the doors of hell
If you were trapped behind them
I would’ve packed my bags and flown to any destination
If you were there
So Entangled I didn’t think clear
But now my flesh can touch yours
Without me getting lost
I paid the price
It wasn’t money
What I paid with
Will be more costly then I thought

Twitching like a fein
Scratching repeatedly
I can feel my blood itching
I need another fix
Got to feed this habit, my need
My addiction
I've tried to become clean
But the rush
The adrenalin it gives me
I can't stay away I like the feeling
So I keep coming back for more
Didn't know I could get hooked
If it ever went away
I'd follow it like a lost puppy
There's no way I'd last a day
As I take another hit from this addiction
I stop an look at the sky
And there it is her face
My addiction
The affect of her is already kicking in

Her feelings are sore
Like they've been lifting weights
Because I won't open up more

Well all I have to say is
I was raised to be this way
unintentionally

By a dad who wasn't around to know
And mom was to busy fighting drinking "joe"

You could see the dread in her eyes
She loved him she really did
But now the I Do
Made her realize she lied
Holding the regret back
She tells it to hide
She wants to behead this amalgamation
For its crimes
Like they did in the old times
The ring chocked her finger
She felt shackled
A prisoner, who hated her inmate
Baffled how quickly her feelings  changed
Not knowing if it was her or he at fault
They fought
An words flew out of her mouth like salt to his wounds
Not knowing how to tell it to the groom
Soon she cried at night
She hated she no longer loved him
She feels so alone
Even when he's here he often isn't home
Hopefully it's a faze she tries to stay strong
This Isn't how it suppose to be after the wedding
Divorce is something she begets
But out of respect
She swallows the threat
And hope
That after the wedding life will be better then this

It pumps just like yours
But Insides an empty shell
Deserted by its workers
Who complained the job didn't pay well
The environment gloomy
With no windows to keep it well lit  
And no vents to keep the air circulated
So they gasped and choked
On the oxygen that grew heavy like smoke
The ceilings and walls peeling
Draped in a stale red  
Empty desk where the employees slaved
White papers slathered on the floor
Decorated with knocked over chairs
Hallways once active
Now empty
Filled with the sound of flickering lights breathing
A heart like mine shut down
From the lack productivity
Everyone left in a panic rush
Like the stock market crash
I have a heart just like yours
But inside its empty
And the doors still remain chained shut

Dragons breath
Nothing left

Cheap wine
Quick death

Lonely man
Bad rep

Rumor mills
Loved spilled

Broken hearts
Empty chest

6 long years
Disappeared

Now he's alone
Wishing she'd come back home

Until then

He sips dragons breath
Hoping it'll light a fire

Deep in his belly

All he did was try
But all it lead him to do was cry
He wanted to just hang himself with a tie
At Least he would go out looking like a well dressed guy
He stop looking at the sky
Because it just reminded him of her eyes
This would imply
He distant himself of any ocean view that was blue
All he did was try to smile off the pain
But the undeveloped muscles in his face made him look like he had a weird taste in his mouth
He always tried to think north
But the pain made him angry so it always went south
But he didn't pout
All he did was try and forget you
But you was stuck in his head like super glue
And it drove him to do something he didn't want to
All he did was try and make you happy
But he failed
So he hung himself with the tie I mentioned earlier
All he did was try but he failed
So he hung there until he died

I wake up just before the alarm
Before the crack of dawn
Usually the sun is peaking from under the horizon
Waiting for me
It's cold today, and I needed it's radiant light more then ever
I look over my shoulder and she gone
Even her indention has faded
We cuddle last night
Did I do it wrong
Was my body no warm enough
That's what happens when you sleep
With someone cold hearted
She left a note on the pillow with smeared lipstick streaked across it
I dare no open it
I pick it up an exhale deeply
Steam pouring from my mouth
I look out the window the sun still hasn't rising for me
It's already 12 o'clock
I rub my hands over the lipstick
Trying to remember the feel of your lips
**** it, I open it
And smirk two words
She never met my infatuation with detail
My predetermine guess was met
The End
Was all she wrote

To much of a wild card to be in a pack
I wonder through the woods
While the other wolves wants to attack
I bay at the moon during the day
While the others wait for the sun to go away
If you look at my paw prints you'd see a difference
My fur coat darker then most
A solo hunter
Can't be detected when I prowl
When threatened
You can hear the viciousness in my growl
Blood swarming in the air
From a mutt challenging the alpha
They don't see him fit to rule
Killing each other over a bone
So they fight hoping he can be dethroned
Stronger on my own
A lone wolf
Walking the dirt paths I choose
Not following behind someones own

I don’t smoke
It’s uncool to choke
And it would probably calm me down
But I like being angry
And I like being down
Trying to pick my words carefully
But I have no filter
So it all flows out of me carefree
And steadily like a stream
Whatever pops in my head
I say it
And I meant it
I’m burden with foul language
When someone flips my switch
And I lose my ****
Deep breathes
1.2.3
Can’t let this loneliness get to me
It just might cause insanity
I’m ok
My persona
Is just a loner
I guess this is just me though
But the person who’s talking
Is my alter ego

Humans are suppose to be the most evolved species
Top of the food chain
But there are some animals that mate for life
While us
“Evolved species”
Can creep and cheat
On our so called “soul mate”
Night after night
If you ask me
We are no better then the animals we eat

Born like any normal foal at first sight
Out it came with its four legs in the spring light
Its hair shined in the sunlight
Its first steps weren't good
But soon it got them right
Two days past before anything strange came about
A horn appeared in the center of its head
No longer a normal colt
An anomaly that was thought to be pure bread
But instead It turned into something magical
Its hair turned icy white
It would shimmer under the moonlight
Its horn grew in a spiral with a solid gold tip
Its tail whipped as it walked
Beautiful
But a defect
Stumbled upon human eyesight
An anomaly never seen before
Stolen under the cover of night
Put to sleep to be humane and polite
Then dissected

**** her
She never treated you
How she was suppose to
Her eyes told the truth
But her mouth full of lies
And they poured off it
Like water off a mountain side
You can always find another
She wasn't worth the trouble
She was the ***** puddle
That came after the rain
That you accidentally stepped in
Soaked your shoes
Even though it took some time
You finally shook the water loose

What was one dreamed
Died before it could live
Plans of this
Gone before it could be birth
Back into the depth of the earth
Buried deep down in me
Thought it would happen in this lifetime
Silly me
Love a shadow I could never see
Cast out
Faded right in front of me
Hidden by a blazing rage
Burnt out
Thought it would be she
But not in this lifetime
Not for me
Once a dream
Long died before it could be seen
Love
Not in this lifetime for me
Maybe in another lifetime
She...
We...
Maybe in another lifetime

A poem a day
Keeps the pain away
It keeps these eyes
Drier then a desert sky
A poem a day
Keeps me from dying completely inside
It’s my defibrillator
And keeps my pulse alive
A poem a day
Corrals my faith and keeps it intact
A poem a day
Keeps the demons at bay

Show me the road to her heart
Even if I have to play notes from a harp
For her not to depart
Show me the way
The array of mysteries
She holds in her strands of hair
Leading to her mind
Give me a way to freeze time to get it right
Or give me a machine to fix the poisoning things I've done  
Show me a trail to pick
Show me a way to a woman's heart
Give me some tips to make her forget
The way I've chosen has dug me into a pit
Teach me a conjuring trick to conquer her thoughts
Who knew getting to her heart would be this hard
A man needs help to a women's heart

How much would you pay
If my heart was put out for display
Ready to be sold
What would you give
How much would you bid
How high would you go
Would you give all you owned
What's my heart worth
If you got out bid
Would losing to another hurt

I don't want to talk to you
Just please go away
Leave me alone
I have nothing else to say
As I typed
I'm done were threw
I no longer want to be with you
But somehow on the screen it says
No please stay
Your all I have
And all I need
But in my heart I feel
We're done
I'm drained an have nothing more
Like the blood has been ****** out of me
And as I type these words
Somehow they change

You were more then just a companion
More then just a pet
You're more then a dog
That walked on four legs
You're family
And the memory's you made with us will never fade
From being taught to
Sit
Lay
And stay
Now it's time for you to go away
And we're all happy you're not going in a horrifying way
But in peace  
And writing this is the least
I can do
To show you'll forever be missed
So for one last time
Sit
Lay
And stay

gnorw ti ta gnikool ruoy esuaceb s'ti esnes ekam t'nod sgniht nehw semitemoS

Loaded gun
On the run

Enemies turned friends
Enemies again

Sharpened knife
Ended life

Back stabber
Secret kidnapper

Foul play
Hell to pay

Betrayer
Word molester

Out to ****
Blood spilled

Carpets stained with blood
Eyes stained with tears

Shes been French kissing death
I can smell it on the scent of her breath
It singes my eyelashes
Each time I take a breath
I feel like I'm flirting with death
Kissing death stained her teeth
Turned them brown
Rotten her breath
Killing me
When she smiles I can she hairs
From whatever animal crawled up there and died
Does she know whenever she inhales
The riptide of chemicals that shouldn't be
Is the cause of her putrid breath  
Even when I she's gone away
It lingers
And stays
Polluting the airwaves

It's my fault again
I'm the wiping wind that blew in
Corroded away your skin
Now your vulnerable
Like a snail that just outgrew it's shell
The world sprinkled salt on you
And watch you fizzled away
It's my fault were doing so bad
I'll take the heat
Like you through me on a bed of flames to sleep
It's me
The water that sips deep
Rotting away our foundations
******* up the plantations
I'm why you can sleep at night
The bed of nails poking at you
But still you ignore the pain
Dancing happily in the rain
While lighting dance along at your feet
The reason your having a bad day
The frustration
The aggravation
It's me
My fault
I'm the bad guy
Fighting the battle of L...
Only constantly
Meeting his defeat
Guess the outdated quote is true
It's not you its me

Let's make this a home run
Hit it out the ball park
Hope we don't strike out
Foul ***** sent to the parking lot
Cars dented , windows shattered
The frustration in my swings
Has me angrily trying to hit everything
Hoping to when this game of love
So many times have I struck out
Walked with my head down to the dug out
Ashamed
Cause with you on my side I thought this was a winnable game  
But I could never get past third base
Home runs stolen from me
What a waste
So much effort in my swing
This game has taken so much of me
Trying to hit it out the ballpark
Will take all of me
But I don't want to lose myself for the sake of the game

You're beautiful
A walking masterpiece
And I can't help but stare
So much
That sometimes
It turns into a creepy glare
But I'm just studying your face
The roundness of your nose
The softness of your cheeks
Your firm lips
The glow in your eyes
I try my hardest to remember it all
So I can dream of your face
When I go to sleep
You're beautiful
I just want you to know
I find not one flaw on your face
Even if it was covered in bumps
Oh how I'd adore
The humps
You're beautiful
I love the seriousness
In your face
Your not the one to always smile
But when you do
My heart
Died, quiet and empty
It comes alive
You're beautiful
And I could never get enough of looking at you

In her eyes this is never going to end
She's confident this will last forever
And we will always be together
But if she was smart
She would look in the mirror
And recite to her reflection
That it's just a beautiful lie

Roll your window up
When you see me near
If I approached
You wouldn't even meet my stare
But glance at the words on my sign
Thoughts about me already declared
I'm someone you don't want here
The **** of this earth
While you inside all warm
I'm fighting to stay dry
You don't know me
But hate the way I'm living
You think of me just a homeless man
Living my life off begging
You don't know what I've been through
How would you feel if you saw me as your reflection
Sleeping under freeways
While you throw unwanted food away
My clothes ripped and torn
While the things in your closet probably never been worn
A homeless man
But I'm just disgusting to you
I'm sorry but put yourself in my shoes I'm more then just a begging man
This is not the way I chose to live

Behind the dress
Is a lost girl
Confused about the world she was born in
She tried to hide her emotions In its attractive style
High above her knees
Her matching underwear you can see
When her dress catches a breeze
Drowned herself in pills
Plague by insomnia
It's hard for her to sleep
Not wanting to die in solitude
A man she met tonight keeps her company
Made sure he saw her
Drew him in with her sweet dress
He asked about her cuts while they lay
They're just inflictions of her past she would say

Behind the vail
Is a girl not wanting to show her face
She hides her emotions from the world
Heart stale
Dried up like an empty well
She's cold like the oceans frigid deep
Love not yet discovered
Like a mysterious new species
She's to cautious to let someone fish for her heart
To afraid to let someone in
Love is her faceless enemy
The one within
She can't bare to meet it face to face
The light in her chest blown out
Buried by the memories drowned in sorries
She suffers slowly
She accepts the reality
Forever alone
This is the way she has to be
Until she meets a man
That would give his life for her
Die for her
Give her a family
And marry her
Only then
Will she lift it up
An come from behind the vail

We been out her thirty minuets already
But you don't seem to care
It's cold out here you know
But you have protective skin wear
Do you have to sniff everything...
Just pick a spot an ***
You do this everyday
Isn't that the same tree from yesterday
You lift your leg at every ledge
Every edge of anything
You even *** on our neighbors trash can
Hay that doesn't bother me
Even when you empty you still lift you leg
At everything
I'm sure you know it doesn't work that way
You try to pull but can't match my strength
Choking yourself still not gaining an inch
We been out her to long
But there you go again
Sniff and lift its the same process
Fine fine but this is the last tree
And after we're passing up everything

Who knew evil girls had the prettiest face

Put a man inside of a bot
Take away his ability to feel
Put a man inside of a bot
Give him a better way to ****
Put him in a suit made of metal
Take a way his will
His ability to make his own decisions
Put a man in a bot
You turn him into a machine
Into a walking zombie
Into a man who's not there
Who's not a man at all
He fails to beat the system in control of him
The hands that made him
Are the hands that betrayed him
Put a man inside a bot
And let a man control it
We all die

Two different shade of colors
One portrays good deeds
a kind heart
Ready to give anything to meet people needs
Sometimes I wish that was me
But it's hard to be happy when black
Is in my company
Happiness isn't a shade I can't see
Only the torturous black comforts me
Hugs me tight like a lost friend you don't want to see
It's uncomfortable like when my dad try's to speak to me
White is the light
It's shine can't reach me through the night
Only in shades of grey
Dulles my heart
Like a knife that's lost its usefulness
It's hard to find white
When I'm so use to black

No flashing Christmas lights
No Christmas tree
No reds or greens seen
No gifts lovingly wrapped waiting to be opened
The Christmas cheer
Only a fond memory
Darken by the coal drenched in my skin
Matches the atmosphere
This holiday
Only reminds me that your not here
Your the gift I want to unwrap
The song I want to hear a thousand times
But again your not here this year
The only present I want
Is your presence

I be the captain of this scurvy crew
We sail under the blue moon
Guided by black skies
The stars gave out on us long ago
Hearts cold
You can see the pain in our eyes
Not from the lack of *****
But the lack of treasure
We were told
It's better to loved and lost than never loved at all
Well we've loved and lost
Never to love again
So casted out to the seas
Bath with the Dolphins
To get rid of these fleas
The clean shaven looked lost in the waves
Crows feet eyes match the crow at my side
Picking the blooding ******* insect
From the crew
I remember the draining feel with you
The lack of civilization has dulled our eyes
Change the interpretation of words
Just blank stares and grunts
We've been drifting for months
But still the flashes of past memories haunts them
They relapse wanting love
So a plank I've built
Threaten them with it
Like a sword on my hilt
But the feeling of love was to great
Soon they staged a coup d'état
Set the ship on fire
And took shelter in the sea
All except me
As the black flags fall in flames around me
The captain and his ship both meet the sea

The heavens unleashed a storm
Lights bathed the night sky and seeped through my window
And with a boom
I could feel everything around me die

It's that time of the month
That makes your emotions run amuck
They seem to be like a stick shift in a truck
Never staying in one gear
Your mood is like spoiled food
As you explain how much your in pain
Lying in anguish
As each ache corse through your veins
Blame eve
For the invisible sledge hammer being lodged into your back
Crippling cramps riddle your body
Violent pain
Like your abdomens are being flirted with
Tiny incisions foreplay
Caressed by shards of glass  
Temptations of sleep a figment of the past
Blame eve
For the hormones that sprout like weeds
Appetite expand and recedes
Like the moonlight tides
The pain come in strides
Punches in its time card
Each month
And you can blame eve

Not here to be like or adored
If you don't like what I write
I don't mind being ignored
There's a reason I have a blank profile picture
In my words you will find me
All my ****** features
Between each line
Each string of my bushy hair is defined
The darkness of my eyes
While your reading
You meet my glare
My poems are a like portrait
And inside the painting is me
A depiction
An inscription
On the pages
And as you climb down the ladder of sentences you'll step on my nose
Only to reach the curve of my lips
While I recite out loud
Finally my chin
Where hair hangs like clothes
What I look like doesn't define me
If you trying to find me
You already have

One roach
Now two
Crunch beneath my feet
I don’t know who’s better off
Them or me
They’re antennas still wriggle
Feet still twitch
The second one crawls on the floor
Struggling to get away
But soon it’ll be dead
And I just sit an stare
Tears filling up In my eyes
But I won’t dare weep
And I’m not sad because it’s about to die
At least it’ll be free
But not me
I still have to deal with this pain
Of feeling like the crushed roach

Blood is thicker then water, it's thicker then wine too..