It really reeks
Like decaying flesh
It stinks
I try to cover my face
But it still gets through the crevices in my fingers
And fill up my nose
The smell stains my clothes
I even tried to air out
Opened up a few windows
But nothing works
Love stinks so bad
It's starting to hurt

Even when my whatch stops my love keeps ticking on

We were like woven fabric
That got ripped
Unable to be stitch back together
Split at its ends
To badly destroyed to be fixed
This love is broken
But it feels like it's whole
We flourished in its youth
As time passed it got old
An In its dying days it couldn't be saved

Using words so viscous there almost seen
Like a fist aimed at breakable things
Blows cushioned by anger  
Trying to knock out your false words
I'm far from perfect
You accidentally hurt me
But the spitefulness in me makes me hurt you
You mean well
But I cut deep
You say you love me
But my anger makes those words numb
I lash out like whips with metal tips
Hoping to catch a grip of your skin
The sound of it ripping is refreshing
Now you know what I feel
I'm far from perfect
Un patient then most
I think about ways to hurt you the most
I always threaten you to leave
Then laugh like its a joke
Who's knows why you stay
If my imperfections was a salary
You'd get paid less then minimal wage
I'm a curtain that's already closed on a stage
I applaud you for staying in this scene so long
But all things must end

I'm sorry to say
Me an love have parted ways
It now lays dead in the street
Still sizzling from the cars heat
It tried to stop me from leaving
But I stepped on the acceleration
And all I could hear
Were the gears snapping, bending and breaking
I just sped on by
Not looking in the rear view mirror

It crackles and whips against the darken sky
Disguise by the clouds
It makes itself noticed
Then gone in a flash like lightening
The sound of it rolling through the sky is not what worries me
It's what comes after
What follows
The disaster that it brings
As I look to the sky
The darken clouds looks full
And ready to bring hell
I wonder what kind of precipitation will fall
It booms in again and again
But it's hard to pinpoint its location
I don't not know from where it comes
But it's a warning
A beacon
But I'm use to this kind of storm
And they say nothing is promised tomorrow
But I promise you what happens today
Will spill off into the next day

Speeding on the freeway
Spamming her with texts
Calling her fake
Steady calling
I know you just didn't ignore me
This is the sixth time
You've dismissed my line
She has me so ****** up
But second thoughts plagued me
Going 80
Is racing to her house going to far
It's 12:30am
Maybe I should do a u turn in this car
But I'm already halfway there
Heart pounding
Hands shaking
Running red lights
To angry think right
Just left the gym
Stinky and sweaty
But this has just become an interesting night
Pull up
Crap
This apartment gate is locked
**** it
I'm going to have to jump it
Like the black guy I am
There goes a stereotype
Lucky someone's leaving
Quickly
Jump in the car
I got to get this four door scion through the gate
Running on adrenaline
Didn't even switched gears
I'm so mad
And nervous
Surprised these emotions didn't draw tears
Creeping up the stairs
Being cautious even though
There's no way anyone can hear me
Here I am
At her door
Not knowing what to do
Dude you must be crazy
Doing all this for an ungrateful lady
Ear to the door
Wait is that a t.v
What am I going to do
**** it
You're a man
Knock
And find out
What you suspected
Has already come true

My minds to cloudy for me to see what I think the future may hold for me

I never walked away
Because I didn’t want you to see the knives in my back
I couldn’t understand your pain?
Maybe you just didn’t know mine

She's late
And the look on your face
Tells her your state
So you hide in you mind
And a congratulations doesn't take place
Or a that's great
All you can think is
I knew dating her was a mistake
But it's to late
You already know your *******
The only thing now
Is think of what to do
There's no way you can take care of a kid
Your not ready
It's a big commitment that you just can't commit to
Thoughts of leaving her
Shoots through you
But you know that's something you shouldn't do
There's love there that she feels for you
This mistake
She'd take head on
As long as she's with you
A flawed choice
Now you realized
There's no love for her in you
So what to do
There's only two options
Keep it or **** it
A choice she leaves up to you
Undoubtedly hers
But she's blinded by love
So she follows you
But your not God
Only he can take a life
Not you

It’s weird
Almost poetic
That’s listening to a song in a language I don’t understand
Is what sparks thoughts of you
And now
I’m about to say things I’ve been trying to avoid
I’ve locked up the memories in a vault
Deep within me
But bits and pieces still seep through
So here goes

I don’t want anyone else loving you
Because no one else knows
How much she hates her nose
And how terrified she is of taking pictures of her toes
No one will appreciate the beauty In her imperfections like I do

I don want another’s lips touching hers
Because it’s where mine should be
I don’t want his hands playing in her hair until its messy and covers her face
I don’t want another guy staring into her green eyes in my place

No one knows the things she told me
So when she has multiple finished cigarettes at her feet
Or when she’s getting high in the evening
And drinking alcohol when she should be sleep
They’ll never know what she’s hiding
He’ll never know when you’re hurting
Not like I do

You’ll think it’s weird she draws a unicorn smoking ****
While I find it funny and cute
You won’t know what she goes to Mc Donald’s for
He won’t know her favorite drink

You wouldn’t know how stupid she feels
When she pronounces a word wrong
You won’t laugh out of love like I do
You wouldn’t tell her to say it again
Because you just loved the way she talks

There’s so much more
That he wouldn’t know
He favorite color, he favorite show
I don’t want any other guy knowing her like I do
Because even if she’s gone, she’s still belongs with me

Away from the beach
Couldn't stand the stickiness of the sand
Beneath the waves
Lost between the tides
When the ocean waves rise
A step out to sea
Hoping to walk upon the water
Trying to break the borders of this world
But instead of gliding
You sinked
Like you had concrete on your feet
And as you looked down
It was your hands pulling you
Helping you drown
As the water filled your lungs
You finally felt full
The weight of emptiness
Heavier then you predicted
Frustrated cause you wasn't blessed with the gift of being optimistic
So you just sit there
Floating
Sinking deeper in the ocean
Not waiting on a savior
That would mean you've been hoping
Cursed with this feeling that you have to do everything alone
And the lack of cure for this curse
Has made this curse strong
It Imbedded itself in your bones
Suspended in animation
Carried by the ocean

How close to this line can I get
One more stop and that's it
So close to hating you
I can taste it when I sweat
The thought of leaving you Is so tempting
I lust for it
Like a pervert
Imagining breast
But what's holding me back
My feelings for you are at rest
My heart doesn't beat for you in my chest
How far from this line can i get
It's to late I've already stepped over

I can't remember you being around for my birthdays
Then again you were absent on my birth day Since the beginning you were a no show
If you wanted to be a dad that's never seen
You did it so well
If you wanted to be around
I couldn't tell
There's no wish in a well
That's could wish this well
You can't fix a broken relationship that was never there
There's no love for you that can be found
Shot dead
Then hung underground just to be sure
What I feel for you
There is no cure
Your empty promises held a lot of weight
But only a child holds on to hate
Hope you don't think your a good father
Even if you tried its to late
You were a dad but in the worst way

She thinks she knows everything yet hides a fake diploma

I don’t want you to leave
But forcing someone to stay
Was never my way
So if you must leave
Don’t be afraid to go
It’ll hurt
Inside I might cry
My heart my ache
But I won’t stop you

Last night the memory of you visited me
As I was chasing sleep
I'm not going to lie
I almost cried
Not sure why
You've been gone for awhile now
I'm sorry I didn't visit you as you laid in that hospital bed
Fight sickness in a coma
Your stronger then me
Doctors said you can hear
Just can't speak or respond
So it would've be useless right?
Like throwing a rock in a dried up pond
I'm sorry I we didnt stop by once in awhile like we did when we were kids
The visits stop **** I don't know why
But I remember when we did come around
You always cracked jokes
Guess I'm not the only clown
You made us laugh like you always do
**** tears are coming just at the thought of you
You couldn't walk
So we never heard your feet
You got around in that wheel chair like a pro
I remember playing foot ball on your ps2
And now that you gone I don't have much to say
But I remember that funeral like it was yesterday
Sitting there as everyone shared there stories of you
An I'm ashamed I didn't have one to say
But the pastor said we should celebrate your going away
So these memories of you you are happy
But it was my job to carry you away
And I feel honored I was picked
But you were heavy that first lift
Body empty as you were towed
An as we carried you to that truck
Thought my job was over I had enough
And as we got to that grave site I thought **** not again
Had my suit jacket off an everything
I'm such a ****
But let me make it clear it's not you I didn't want to lift
The sun was unforgiving that day
Shooting rays at my face
And as we pick you up once more
You were much lighter
You must have given me extra strength
Or the others just organized better
And as we laid you over your grave site
The man in charge said a everlasting prayer
And I would recite it if I could remember
He gave us flower petals to lay over your grave
And I kept one in my wallet for a rainy day
Your memory will never fade
Never die
And I can't wait till I see you again
Some day in the sky
I don't know when but I know it's only a matter of time
Love you uncle bunny
Forever your memory in my mind

Couldn't wait for you to get it right
With each passing day
Disappointment came at night
Chances you ate like candy
But you get no more
And I can take no more
Like a hurt puppy I will lick my sores
Your number in my phone no longer exists
And as we split
Deleted images won't be missed
Or the times our lips touched when we kissed
I can't get far enough away from you
I want you out of my life
Sight
And mind
And once the memories of us burn
Then I'll be fine

How could he know he would fall for her
Love was but a joke he would tell to her
She had him aim so high
She was a star to him
So he tried to kiss the sky
How could he know she would capture his heart
She put it on a pedestal
For him to see
In her hand she held the key
How could he know she would be a trickster and deceitful
How could he know she would toy with his ventricles
All it did was beat for her
Her eyes gave him nightmares
Fire rages behind them
But hidden amongst the blue
Drove by her insecurities
Made her feel full of impurities
She used him as a cure
Told him things so he would stay
Swayed his emotions with a kiss
Had him under her thumbs
She was good at what she did
And if he ever did leave her
She would have another guy to comfort her

Wish regret would take effect
It would be more easier to predict what I would say next
Because words run from my mouth
Like dashing from a dinner check
Who regrets that
Not regretting has lead me into mess
But I clean up faster then a butler wearing a shirt, tie and a sweater vest
Left it hanging in a tree
With a noose around its neck
It's sits at the side of the street with a sign asking for me
Wanting another job like a war vet
My regret wants marriage counseling
But I divorced her before that step
I sent regret away
Like an unwanted guess
Who knows what will happen next
Guess not having regrets is something I might regret

You were my motivation
You gave me reasons to grin
You were why I smiled
You touched my heart
And flipped it on
It’s been off for awhile
Kinda embarrassing to admit
You swept me off my feet
I felt comfort in your arms
But then
You dropped me
Left me laying on the floor
Now every night I have to fight these dark thoughts
And painful emotions
On top of that
Misery has came creeping back
She sits outside my window
Tapping on the glass
I can hear her foots steps looking for ways in
The breaths she take are heavy
Mimicking my own
Her whispers seem to trickle in
Invading my ears
Her laugh disrupts my sleep
I can almost feel her touch sliding down my sheets
I can’t fight her anymore
Hand on the door ****
As I stand at the front door
Staring into her piercing green eyes
She smiles
And it melts me
I’m on the edge of relapse
And she knows I’ll let her In

I walked up to the edge an you pushed me

Light me up
Or set me ablaze
I spread quickly
Taking each and every direction
I move rapidly you give me time there's no way you going to stop me
My goal is to reach the heavens
You try to put me out
Turn me against myself
Either way your going to get burned
Think you can control me?
My rage will leave you amazed
Fueled by the air around me
Get in my way  
I'll burn you and your past away
My path is undetermined
But destructive all the same
I wont stop still the ground beneath my feet is scorched
Till every tree is charred
Once done ill slowly creep, sink into the ground
Hide underneath the ashes and sleep
Until its time
To show my flames once more

Raised to hate whites
The memories of what his ancestors went through wired into his head
So he'd never forget
He plots day and night
What can I do to get back a these whites
He's a slave to his own mind
Life lived in hate....
Fast forward no longer a kid now no he's a man
Living in a house where he's the master
And if you step out of line
One quick smack to the face
It's his favorite punch line
He rules over girls who was lost in this word
Now there stuck
Pulled in his web of lies
But he's the big daddy in there eyes
But to him there just slaves
His top girls whites
So he flaunts them
But they don't know there just for show
And they can't pack up an leave
No
There freedom restricted
Serving a life sentence
Even know there papers legit
How could they leave if they don't have a cent
So they sit, no stand
On these corners trying to make a cent
A descent profit to go back home with
Even though they don't get whipped by whips are chained down to the walls like his ancestors did
There shackles
This life style
So they put on there prettiest smile
And stand for awhile
They tract men toward them
Like a bug to light
There lipstick already bright, glistening
What's on the menu, what does that come with
She recites, got it all memorized
Like a waiter use to working nights
So he buys her for the night
But this time is not out if respect
No he neglects how she feels
He just want to touch and feel
After she's done
It's a victory
How could she enjoy it
I don't know it's a mystery
Why does she go back
Who knows
But the master doesn't care
This is his poetic justice
You hung mine from trees
Well I got yours down on both knees
Still working for me
They both lose
He's a slave to the past
And she's a slave until his time on this earth pass

I feel everything
Well only sadness and pain
And it’s wounded so tightly around me
I can barley breathe
It’s so suffocating
And I’m so committed to misery
I found myself proposing on one knee
She laughs and says no
Because she’s been with me before I was a teen

Im finding less ways to cope
Maybe I should feel up a shot glass
And throw a couple back
Until my vision becomes out of focus
And let the brown liquor
Run dangerously free
Like the migration of locus
But even then
Will that take away the hurt
I should knock back a few more
Until my stomach swells
And every sound rings in my skull like a bell
Maybe I shouldn’t stop
Until each step becomes a challenge
And even if I’m standing straight up
I still feel off balance
But you see I don’t drink
It’s hard fighting the demons now
Just one sip and I wouldn’t have the strength to keep them down

Ok forgot the sip
Maybe I should match it up
Would getting high
Help me hide what I feel
Because if it will
Maybe I’ll roll it up
And get lost in the clouds
And chock on the smoke
Forget the cup it always burn my throat
Yes maybe drugs will help
I should smoke until my eyes get low
And until there’s no more left to pull from
It’s a dubbie a roach in my hand
But I have connects
So I’d always have an endless high
How many hits would it take
Until my memories vanish and erase
How many blunts in a day
Until I can’t remember what’s hurting me today
Tell me is smoking the answer
The thing is I don’t smoke
So what should I do
I don’t have a clue

Delete
Delete
Delete
I erase you
Because you erase me
And it’s how it should be
But wait
That’s not how the movie ends
Would you like me to tell you ?

Mine bloomed from the heart
A precious bouquet
That I seem to want to give away
Each pluck leaves an open wound
Eventually stitched closed by the stem that’s been left behind
Once received I watch as the petals are blown away
Like dandelion seeds
Caught up in a strong gust
Once taken, they’re never taken care of
I guess their short lifespan isn’t enough motivation
But that doesn’t stop me from cultivating
I still keep the roses in the sun where the light is
But the shade came violently and turn them violet

How ironic you’re heart shaped too
Left in the winter unattended
To cold for the attraction of on lookers
Thriving when your surroundings have died
A beacon in the silence
Although clouds smear the sunlight
I still see you from afar  
No reds from roses firstly chosen
But blue
Will you now be picked
The many among the few
Or do your silent songs go unnoticed
Until the sun brings the red back into view

Her favorite flower in my hand
Each petal I pull
Is pain I caused
She loves me
She loves me not  
I try to forget
throwing the petals in a fire
Made if her pictures
And letters she wrote like scriptures
The smoke it creates stays
It won't fade away
The smokes dances
Twist an turns its way around the room
Into my eyes it burns
I inhale it
It burns my lungs
The feeling of suffocation
My hearts races
Adrenaline began to set in
For reasons I don't understand
An the flower
2 petals left
She loves me
She loves me not

Unveiled from her weaved basket
Cookies, candy and ice cream cake
Sandwiches, chips and lemonade
All this so my opinion of this failing relationship can be swayed
So far her attempts of saving this affair have all been a bust
But this time it will be a win
It's must
But before this starts off good
There's a gust of wind ripping the sheet from her hands
Dragging it off in the distance
And kicking up stinging dust
Tainting the food
And before it settles the sun is eclipse by darkened clouds
There's a drip on my hand
Her last attempt to save us
Failed again
As it starts to rain

Blood is thicker then water, it's thicker then wine too..

She has wounds that time can't heal
An im a fresh knife
Cutting is my skill
Reopen the stitches'
I cut deep
Only doing to her
What she does to me
Time is patient
But im not patient with time
So I skip verses
Cutting in line
Trying to get to her heart
Hoping I can stich
What's been torn apart
Im afraid
Taking out what I can't put in
I dont wanna get stuck
Love is luck
Stitching to close
Getting stabbed by the needle
But with this pain
I gain
More love
Im caught in her stitches
Were to tight
You can never tear us apart
You can try tho good luck

I’m not good enough
That spoiled egg out of the bunch

Joy left me
Sin slept in my bed to much

Too far gone
Pushed off the path

Lost a sense of direction
Can’t find my way back

Faith, dislocated
Broken fingers can’t hold a bible

To embarrass to come to you
I’m not running

How could I face you
Prayer, foreign language

This prayer is my last
If it goes unanswered.....

I feel so low
Didn't think I could get this low
Manage to put myself under the floor
Between the cracks an nooks
And now I'm stuck
With the dust mites
And dead mice
It's been so long
I've raise a pair of dust bunnies
I can describe how the were born the process in which it took
I feel like that last bit of dust you can't sweep up
You think you got it
Until you move the dust pan back
Then sweep until you think it's gone
But no I'm still here
Just been swept thin
So thin if you open the door
Just one gust of wind will be the end of me
It'll ******* away
I've been this way to long
But its my own fault
It's killing me to see me this way
If I could get away from me I would
I'd open that door an let in the wind
At least it would be the end

Love is a trip
A rollercoaster you don't mind getting sick
The feeling of it makes you feel alive
The person you feel it for makes you paralyze
One word makes you memorized
The look in there eyes says 1000 words
Its all love no hate
The feeling of love keeps you up late
Time is infinite
Love defeats pain
But the memory still lives on in her brain
Love is the map to her heart
Whether or not ill make it there
Now that's the scary part
Ok I'm getting off track
Lets get back on the love path
Love is so many things
Yet there's on one word for it
Its funny
It can be cute an cuddly like a bunny
It can be more powerful then any storm
**** u in like a tsunami
If you ain't ready you'll drown
Lost in it never to be found
Love is forever
But nothing is

I don’t want to fight
Or be at war
But you
You drew you sword
Ready to charge
Contempt in your eyes
You rather us shed blood
Just to protect you pathetic lies
And there I stand
Pen in hand
Fueled by anger
Slowing pulling me under
Hate building in my heart
Eye swollen
Because of the inability to cry
You’ll never know how I feel
Unless I put them between the lines
Ive alway hid how I feel
But even faced by your steel
I still
Rather write my truths
Pass them on
Then directly expose my secrets to you
Hypocritical
Blamed you
Like I’ve done no wrong
I could at least commit them to paper
But you chosen to slash
And split my skin
Then expose what you’ve kept within
And even if I die
What I’ve wrote will always be found in between the lines
But your sword will eventually rust and crumble to dust

Then he
Then he
Who could love you better then me
Break the chains on your heart
And set it free
I can see it in your face
The contemplation  
How much you're afraid
Of trusting me
A second chance is all I need
Then he
Then he
Who can love you better then me
Give me the keys
To the doorways you closed
I can love you better then he
Feelings were blind
But over time your love helped me see
Why is it so hard to grasp the concept of my love
If you don't think I can love you better  then he
I hope you find someone who can love you better then me

Everyones scared of death
Because they don’t want life to end
But I welcome it
With a smile on my face
Sometimes I ask why am I alive
Why am I here
Hoping for an early death like it’s some sort of a prize
Or a twisted blessing
What’s wrong with me
Can’t convince myself that I’m good anymore
But if anyone ask
Tell them I’m doing ok

He seen it before
Death
It comes and goes
Taking those he loved
Leaving him behind
Like a used up drug
He's been on this earth
Long before dust
Watch it progressed like dawn
So many things change
But still he remains
Cursed by life
Begging death to take his hand in matrimony
Only to be left at the altar
Him an the years became friends
He's embraced the seasons as cousin
Wrapped winter in summers love
He watch the volcanos give birth to new land
Sat behind the scenes as the Mayans where wiped away
Saw first hands at the Indians demolished by the English diseases
His bitter eyes recorded it all
Each wrinkle holds a tragic story
His head hangs low from the many deaths he seen
He sees the pattern
He knows the ending
He'll be here to watch his premonition come true
The destruction of the earth
Over the decades
He watch it grow  
He witness its first steps
Heard its first words
But until that day comes
He'll watch many more go before him

Even the most prettiest girl can be the most ugliest

She wants to know how much I love her
But baby my love can be scaled
Trying to count the array of numbers
Would be like damning yourself to hell
A number between one and ten just doesn't compare
My love would disfigure the scale
Twisting it like molten metal
Turning it inside out
I would break it like a glass coffee ***
I love you to the point it hurts
Like I stepped on a rusted nail
My love has me chasing you like a dog after its tail
A infinite number
The back trail of it gets lost like colors we can't see
So if your looking for a number  
Sorry but my love can't be put on a scale

Loaded gun
On the run

Enemies turned friends
Enemies again

Sharpened knife
Ended life

Back stabber
Secret kidnapper

Foul play
Hell to pay

Betrayer
Word molester

Out to ****
Blood spilled

Carpets stained with blood
Eyes stained with tears

MTry as I might
I can't fight the temptation
Fueled by rage
I can feel the transformation
The bloodlust to strong to control
And I can feel the beast from within taking hold
Subdued by wrath
I can tell the metamorphosis is taking place
The joints in my jaw start to separate
Making room for the bone crushing  canines to escape
My whole body takes a new shape
Pulsating
My eyes turn a fiery red  
Vision enhanced making it easier to see you
Ears morphed
Now I can hear you from miles away
Nose more sensitive then ever
I can smell you as my prey
Thick furry hairs tear through my skin, consuming my arms
My once human nails
Shed like scales
Leaving a ****** trail
Replaced with claws sharp like fangs
To separate body from its true frame
The sound of my muscle fibers snapping whips through the air
Under this full moon
I become something different
And let the anger overrun me

Leaving the past behind is hard when it scorched your path
The future covered in ashes
A steady breeze blowing it back in your face
Choking on memorizes that can't be erased
Making it hard to forgot
Polluted airwaves
From a tragic event
Now the trek you on has been permanently marked
Each step taken
The ground gives at your feet
Beaten to a pummel in advance
Now every advance you take makes you think it will all end the same
The future, today's past
Makes moving on impossible
When you have a scorched past

Born in hate
Plagued by it if you had darken skin
It was the shackles around there feet
When they were forced to walk down dirt roads
It was the word at the end of whips
As is carved through the skin
Laughed as blood dripped
Mixing with the mud
And splashing on the leaves
When they misbehaved
It was the noose tying word as they hung from trees
Made to keep them from being free
An to keep them stained with fear
Made to punish
As they were sprayed
Whispered in the ear of canines
As they were sicked on them
Created to ******* as they were beaten
Back then the word was made to abuse
Theses days it's stamped as just a word
But it's more then that

These eyes see all
There's nothing you can hide from me
I see the pain in your words
The frustrating In your eyes
I can see the way you bite your tongue when you talk
Why don't you let the words you holding back free
I can see the hurt in your smile
The suffering in your tears
Some things you can't hide
These eyes see all except one thing
Your love for me

What are we
I can't put this in a title
Technically this we
Isn't as solid as we'd like it to be
My dreams are more real then you and me
At times I'm confused
Abusing my brain
Tidal waves of rushing emotions flood in
I often think this is just a ruse
Faking each other out
The I love you doesn't out weigh the conflicts
It's just another counterfeit  
This we is just a contorted painting
Of a gremlin trying to scratch it's blind spot with a rubber stick
It just don't make sense  
How it will end just adds up the suspense
But it's predictable like a stencil
This we has already been drawn In
Written In pen
By the holy man
Maybe it is he who can tell me
What is the we,
We like to call you and me
I just don't see how it's been 5 months sense you last called me
And expect me just not to up and leave
But I guess it's the dream of we that keeps me
Now I see why people name there daughters hope
But I have a knife to hopes throat
Threatening it not to go
But another 365 days of this
And this we that we conjured up
Just can't be
Because I still don't know what we are