I can smell your Cologne lingering in the air around me.
But I can't touch you.
I can feel  the sweet touch of your lips against mine.
But I can't respond back.
I can picture you smiling at me, with the twinkle of happiness in your eyes.
But I can't open mine.
I'm here in the darkness but you're my light that keeps my memory going of you.
I can feel myself growing closer to the darkness.
Your scent slowly disappearing.
I hear you calling my name, for me not to leave you.
I can't do anything, I'm floating away, choking on the darkness that surrounds me.


Its been a year now
I visit you often
You've gotten pale from the lack of sunlight
I sit at the edge of your bed
Biting my nails
The tale of us is no more
You lay there motionless
Stale
I kiss your cheek always
Your presence is fading
I whisper in your ear
Waiting for confirmation that your still there
That you haven't left  me
Tell me you still love me
That you'll be home soon
But I can see your deteriorating
I can see your not coming back to me
Can you hear me!
Dont go
Stay with me
But I can see now
Your will is to live on is floating away
I can see you giving up on me

I treated you like trash
Crumbled you up like a *** of paper
Folded you
And stuffed you in my back pocket
Just in case I needed you for later
Your skin was like paper
My personal sheet
That I wrote on
In pen
And permanent marker
Wrote hate you's in cursive
On your forehead
Stained you with footprints
From when you fell and I stepped on you
Tore you in half
When I was frustrated and mad
Then tapped you back
Left you soggy
Black ink
Dripped from your eyes
When you cried
Doodle on you when I was bored
And you wore the markings with pride
Even when I threw you away
You ended up back in my lap
Like a gust of wind blew you back on my path
I'm ashamed I treated you like crap
And you couldn't tame my attention seeking ways

I'm tired of this love conquers all *******
Sorry I might just curse a little bit
Is love gonna stop a fight
Will it stop you from yelling at her all night
Will it stop me from buying this bike?
The answer is no
Love dims quicker then the sunlight
Its glow run out before the moonlight
It was created by someone who got weak in the knees
Thinking he can give her the world
Only to find out she could not be easliy pleased
This is for those who loved lied too
It cut you so deep
Now you cutting yourself too
Well you've been heard
We all know love is an oxymoron
Cause it means way more then one word
They told us look for that person
There's one person in this world for u
That's a lie  you can love more then
One or two
But the heart wants what it wants
We were born to believe
Love conquers all
It can change like the season tho
Like a leaf that's falls in fall

She says she loves me
But the meaning is artificial
Like a prosthetic leg
To help her walk again
She clears her throat ready to talk again
But the I love you doesn't reach me
I'm to busy shooting harpoons at the moon
Trying to reel it in
With the recycled words she gave me
Fishing for her love
Only to have the bait stolen
By the hate I harbor within
It trickles to the surface
Leaving behind evaporated acid in the air
I wear her I love you
But it cracks easily like cheap leather
Turns brittle in the cold weather
Flacks off and disintegrates before touching the ground  
But I still love it when she says I love you

Your soul is in clothes
Fine Lenin to cover your ligaments
It was your God on Sunday
Prayed to it on Monday
Emotions could be felt in your denim
In the stitches of the fabric pumped life like they were your veins  
Heartbrokenness comforted in your tight boyfriend jeans
In your back pocket sat your heart
Where it couldn't be seen
The expensive products you powered yourself in made you feel like a queen
Inside these clothes you were royalty
It gave you power
Smirked at those who looked in awe
A sin if you didn't look good
You were strong in your religion
Curses those who didn't dress like you
This was your life
An you would sacrifice it all to look this nice

This is getting harder then before
Putting words together
Like cutting hide from a boar
When I was with you
Ink flowed out of my pen
Each stroke undoubtedly written by you
But now writing is getting harder to do
Who knew
Everything I wrote was inspired by you
But now my well runs dry
Everything I start gets casted into a fired
Caught up in the flames
Before it can see the light of day
Trapped behind a wall of shame
I lost the will to write When I lost you
Now the ink in my pen is empty

Frog legs and boiled eggs
Hair from an ogre
A bone from a rats shoulder
Rabbits feet and a 1000 year old dragons teeth
I can smell the odor of what's brewing on the stove
Oozing from the crock ***
A potent potion
Made to bewitched with one sip
A touch of it on your lips
And you slip under its spell
Thoughts of your own expelled
As you fall deeper
From the concoction
Your world turned upside down
As your bound from this liquid drug
That gave you the case of the love bug  
Once you consumed the cursed beverage
You found love but not In the right way
And from the drink I took a sip
That you slipped infront of me

My eyes burn
Like smoldering ashes have been thrown on my chest
I now know it's time for me to rest
But thoughts mock me when I try to sleep
They bear down hard
Like a car moving downhill
There's a turtle in its way
Then I awake
And I realize that I mistake
What I thought was reality
Was just a dream
But it frightens me because I don't know what it means
And as I think
It stops me from going to sleep
But I still remain sleepy

I feel at home
Laying in nothingness is where I belong
No Ray of light to call my own
This darkness comforts me
It subdue me when I'm alone
There's no hiding from it
No begging it to leave
This darkness if apart of me
It's the knife that cut me when I bleed
The dead leaves that fall from there stripped trees
It's the anger that needs to feed
The void that filled an empty heart
It's the stitches that kept it apart
Now I owe it
Cause it owns me
This darkness
This darkness
Is me

It's the simplest words
That's the hardest to say
I try to portray it
But don't know how to say it  
These three words have me tongue tied
I hide behind slick words
Spitting out metaphors hoping you understand
They say timing is everything
I have a broken watch
Should I say it now
What if you don't feel the same
I'd surely be in pain
This back and forth affair
Is like a game
But there's not quit or restart
Once I say it, it's out
It's on the tip of my tongue
These words are like trying to chop down a tree
With an antique ax
I hack and hack almost there
Afraid which way it would land
I'll say it then have a quick escape plan
I hope it leaves you speechless
That way you don't engage
When I look at you
I have stage fright all over again
Quick look away
How am I suppose to tell you
I love you

You don't even know how hard it was to let you go
The feeling of it was like I was being chocked
Like someone put a noose around my throat
And tried to push me over the edge
Now I'm standing at ledge
But I step away
I won't jump for you
My soul I save
If you only knew
I'm already over you
Cast away the thought of you
To an island
Ship wrecked
Hope it befriends a ball
An talks to the wall
You don't even know
How hard it was to let you go

Putrid flesh
Walking
More like stumbling
Down the street
Groaning
And moaning
Searching for live meat
As it drags its half decomposed feet
Leaving a trail of rotted blood
That ooze from the gaps in its teeth
Splashing on the concrete
I watch it walk on by
Passing me
No life in its dead eyes
No breath taking from its exposed lungs
Hanging from its rib cage
But why didn't it try to eat me alive
I am alive
Aren't I?

Only when I slumber I find peace
A way to escape this world when I sleep
My soul at ease
Finally
As I lay there meditated
And my heart beats in serenity
And while I dream the stars phase through the clouds
Comforting the ground
But when I shift
The stars spark and turn into flames
Then nightmare creeps around
Like a ghoul
Breath from its nose flashes like lightening
Devastation In my hibernation awake  
Like a grumbling grizzly
When I sleep
But only in its hibernation is a grizzly at peace

You said you love me
But you're a liar
Wrote the three words on a blank piece of paper
Then set it on fire
I gave you everything I had
Put my heart in your hand
All I ever ask was for your love
And in return
I'd give you all mine
Said I would never love you
But I change my mind
I'd do anything for you
But you wouldn't do the same
If I was on fire
You'd pour gasoline on the flames
If I had a gun in my mouth
You'd pull the trigger
Blowing out my brains
If I was drowning
You wouldn't reach out
To grab my hand
But I'd take that bullet for you
If we were in a crashing plane
Here you take the parachute
I'd step in the way of a stabbing knife
Give you my coat in a freezing night
Push you out the way
Of a car running a red light
I'd die for you
But I'm not sure if you would do the same

She wanted him to want her
She had plans to **** the kindness in his heart with her wickedness
That was her evil deed
Said she would do anything to please
Whatever the request she would meet his needs

His lust of the flesh kept him trapped here
Intertwined in her arms
He's not a drinker
But his head rushed from the beers
Falling for her seduction one of his fear
But heard giving in was sweet from his peers
He was weak anyway
When it came to sin
It soaked in his skin
Became an ink stain within
Hard to remove
*** is what he wanted
But for that he would have to give up his soul

No love would be involved
She assured him
Let's keep this simple
Know one would ever know
That girl your dating wouldn't discover this ***** secret
What we do hidden
Between me and you
Give in like you did with the photos
Baiting him
Worlds silky smooth
Sweet like honey
Convinced him to set his innocence aside
He was angry inside
As much as he didn't want to do it
He finally gave in to her seduction

I don't know if I can see this through
Lately I've been having seconds thoughts
Never had any regrets
But maybe this was a mistake
I don't know how many disappointments I can take

What if I never said I love you
Where would we be?
Would you be with someone different
Would you even love me
What if that day I did let you go
Would you have came back
Would you say you couldn't live without me
What if I left you
How would you react
Would you tell me to stay
What if we never met
How happy would you be
What if that break I took lasted more then three days
How long would you have waited
What if I never said I like you
Where would you be
Would you still be with him
Would you have ever admitted your feelings for me
What if I chose her over you
Where would I be
What if we never met
How happy with you be
What if I never said I love you

Face gruesome
some shade of green
Snakes as her hair
Venom in her split ends
But a bite to your skin
Should be your least concern
Beware her glare
Avoid her stare
Or stone you will become
Frozen in time
Forever a mime
A statue for the world to behold
A soul not at rest
To become the runway lane for pigeons
And a landmark by those amazed
You were turned this way by a monster
Who was cursed by Athena
Medusa is her name
Don't look in her dagger eyes
Or be cursed to stone

Out of thin air comes your tune
It radiates through the room
Slowly it conquers the halls
It seems to put the house in a trance
A state of peace
But to me it brings haunting memories
This use to be our song
Now It sends the house into a frenzy
It awakes a dark beauty
Doors creep open
Curtains sway in the breeze that's not there
Floors creak like someone's walking
Footsteps echo through the hall
The windows vibrate
Soft voices turn into words
The temperature changes cold
And as I lay awake
steam pours out of my mouth
From heavy breathing
Shadows on the wall dance to the rhythm
There the mistakes I made that pushed you away
Emotionally shut off
Love switch broken
The music gets louder And louder
Its ringing in my ears
I can't hear
The words are scrambled
And explosions of notes that don't go together
Blows up in my head
Then it stops
The music box stops
And as the tune fades
The house dies down and sleeps again

They get lost in each other's hugs
Skin soft like a fluffed rug
Sink into each other like a sat in bean bag
Others get jealous from their over bragging
How much in love they are
They don't see the ripples in each other skin when they walk
Or there over bearing movements on the surface of their face when they talk
Their love more sweeter then the cupcakes they bake
Rich like the chocolate they consume
They huger for each other's affection
A bigger appetite for it more then food
They see each other as equals
Not a health risk or a person who can't control there weight  
No love is bigger then obese love

He doesn't quit
Until his knuckles are numb
Or his arms become to heavy to lift
Bruised and swollen
He stands over her, panting  
Like a predator
After a long chase of its prey
His fist are Bone breakers
And he keeps her in place with these
To afraid she doesn't leave
He hit so she will behave
Harder just in case she becomes to brave
When he's drunk his fist cascade down upon her
Until her ribs sing
She ***** up and take blow for blow
Until finally
She's gifted unconsciousness
From the transactions of his fist

Behind the dress
Is a lost girl
Confused about the world she was born in
She tried to hide her emotions In its attractive style
High above her knees
Her matching underwear you can see
When her dress catches a breeze
Drowned herself in pills
Plague by insomnia
It's hard for her to sleep
Not wanting to die in solitude
A man she met tonight keeps her company
Made sure he saw her
Drew him in with her sweet dress
He asked about her cuts while they lay
They're just inflictions of her past she would say

Even when my hair turns grey
When I have to wear dentures
Because my teeth no longer want to stay
Even when I need a cane
Because my legs shake when I stand
When the officers confiscate my license
Because I can't stay in one lane
I will love you even when my eye sight fades away
When my ears hangs lower then my face
I will love you forever and a day
Long after my back gives out
Even when deafness forces a hearing aid
When my hands shake uncontrollably
Never would my love go away
I would love you even when my kidneys give
When my brittle bones leave me bed ridden
My love would last when the days of prune juice becomes my friend
Even when clinching my hands Becomes to much to stand  
Old age would only intensify it
Even though my memory fights me
When I think of you it looses its battle today
I will love one thousands years
And tomorrow I will love you one thousand years more
Forever

Who knew I'd ever tell you
The words I like you seemed lost
When thought up
They broke into pieces
Were swept away
Like a bottle out to sea
Couldn't find the words to tell you
So I left hints
Like signs on a trail
Hoping to point you in the right direction
But they failed
Hoping you would catch one like a fish on a hook
But watching them fly over your head
Felt like I was eating nails
But the fear of you going away
Was enough to propel
The words out of me
This change of events scares me
And who knows if we can bend this I enough and form an us
Maybe there's things I still can't tell
So my words stay unspoken

What makes a man stronger, a woman by his side

We are the ones who don't fit in
The ones who don't stick to the rules
Some of us were picked last
Some of us picked on at school
You over look us
Miss treat us
Because we're different from you
You see us as shadows
Something that's not there
Some say it's wrong and not fair
Shunned because of our different views
We came up as errors in the system
Mistakes
That you try to erase
Your always looking out
Were always looking in
Come take a look
See what I see
I see your suffering
Hate that everyone controls you
It's what happens when you try to fit
Your as common as the ocean winds
Predictable like leafs falling in fall
We outsiders don't stick to the script
So it makes us rude
It makes us hard to get along with
Well let me ask you something
If I'm so different
And looked down on
How is it this outsider is happier then you

It's to soon for you to bloom
Not wanting this to sprout up to quick
Happiness in the beginning can be a costly trick
******* up these new found feelings
Swelling like a face full of stings
Fueled by a school girls crush in replace of the sun
Petals already clipped from past pains
Your seed buried in rotten soil
But I can see your roots are strong
I can see life radiating off you
The scent you give hits
But things are different
Your with me
I just hope you don't bloom to soon

Stay in the ravine
Where it's safe and calm

The more you get to the top
The closer you get to the brewing storm

I warn you
Trying to flag you down

It's not safe up here yet
But your willing
Because at the top is me

You'd trek through the soaking rain

Fight through the deafening wind

Hike through the blistering cold

Do whatever it takes
Because my heart is what's at stake

But be careful
Up this high is slick

If you get to close
You just might slip

I woke up hungry again
From the lack of food in the freezer
Sometimes I open it an pretend its full
But the pain in my stomach snaps me back into reality
No breakfast again
We try to conserve but the little we have
Just isn't enough
Mom has two jobs
Ironically to feed the both of us
She's working all day an all night for me and you
I wish we could see her
I know your hungry too
So here take my plate
Dont worry your my little sister its what any big brother would do
Im tired of being poor so here's what I'll do
I'll go sell drugs
Even if it kills me ill do this for you

Many have died during the climb
Some gave up
The reward at the top
Simply wasn't worth the time
Some turned away
Knowing this trek wasn't safe

Then there's you

Started this with an excited looked on your face
But I'm one mountain you shouldn't attempt to climb
My snows to thick
One step and you sunk to your knees
Bundle up tight
I got a wicked breeze
Have a fire lit at night
I'm just waiting for the opportunity to give you frost bite
Kiss you with hypothermia
And when you think you'll all safe and clear
Look out for the blizzard
That will whip you off your camp sight
Hopefully you survive
I have one little thing as a last surprise
A rumble you won't forget
I'd even let you see it peaking over the horizon
Trees, rocks and other debris
Let's see if you keep you faith
After the Avalanche awakes

Hello are you there
I look at you but you stare
It's like you aren't there
Just an empty shell
Are you speaking to me
One words replies
Matches the vagueness in your eyes
Payback for the way I've treated you
Now you treat me like you don't care
When we kiss its emotionless
And cold
Even your hair lost its shade
Why is everything becoming so vague

Tangy when's she's pushed too far
But sweet is what you really are
Bitter when she's missing sugar
Refreshing
But only when I'm dying of thirst
Squeezed the juices out of her
Now I'm just stuck with the seeds
When our lips touch I feel like I'm kissing the outside peel
Lighting up my taste buds in a nasty way
She can be cold like the ice I've added
This drink is madness
But still lemonade is my favorite drink

Rest in peace to those we lost
You might be gone
But your memory still lives on
I'm sorry if you had to pass all alone
Just know we regret you fighting death on your own
Hopefully your in a better place
Looking down on us as we rest
Your always in our thoughts
But I'm happy for you
I hope the life you lived was a full one
I hope you had no regrets
Even though your time on earth has past
Hope death greeted you as a friend
But the journey you on has just stared
Because now your in heaven
Your new life has only just began

No flashing Christmas lights
No Christmas tree
No reds or greens seen
No gifts lovingly wrapped waiting to be opened
The Christmas cheer
Only a fond memory
Darken by the coal drenched in my skin
Matches the atmosphere
This holiday
Only reminds me that your not here
Your the gift I want to unwrap
The song I want to hear a thousand times
But again your not here this year
The only present I want
Is your presence

Who cares if I take and extra sip
I'm not trying to **** myself
I'm just sick
And trying to get rid of the cold quick
So I took more night quil then intended
But I'm not suicidal
I didn't finish the bottle
I just took and extra sip

He was institutionalized
Because he was crazy In their eyes
Guess he shouldn't have talked to himself on the streets
But his argument was he just had a really small Bluetooth piece
But to keep the peace he went
Took all his meds
Ate all the food he was fed
Often he cried in his bed
From the shock therapy he got in his head
Even if he was sane
The nurses played doctor with his brain
Making him insane
So he decided opt out the game
He swiped some keys and made it to the outside world
The wind was whipping
And the sky was weeping
It seems as though he had to changed his fate
He could see the entrance gate
There was just a river that kept him fenced in
So he hurried and dived in
Then he remembered
The shocked therapies made him forget
He couldn't swim

When I wake up
You're the first thing I want to see
I want to wake up
With you laying across from me
Sound asleep in bed
Silently laughing on the inside
At the sight of the crazy hair on your head
Can't wait to greet you with a good morning kiss
And ask how did you sleep
Then make fun of your morning breath after you speak
I want to watch you struggle to get out of bed
I can just imagine myself
Showering you with pillows
Trying to get you not to go back to sleep
I want to wake up next to you
I know I couldn't help but smile
There's nothing more then I want to do
Is wake up
And across from me is you
Fast asleep

I paint it
How I want it
With words
Verbs and synonyms
A masterpiece in the making
But it's delayed by frustration
The lack of patiences
It's so easy to mess up a line
Back to the lab again
Got to fine the right line that rhymes
The colors have to be in synch
Or it'll drive me crazy I'm on the brink of taking the painting an jumping off the edge
The thought of it not looking right makes me lose sleep
Before Its done often I start on another work of art
It's hard to put your heart in it with then ventricles are separated in parts
I want the panting to be remembered
My creativity has no bound
But its bound by me wanting the panting to be better then the last
That doesn't sound right in my head
Delete, Erase
I paint the painting back white
And start all over again
Let's get back to the basic
Sometimes a magnificent work of art
Can be as simple as black and white

Splattered and crushed
Paved the pavement with its guts
Painted the roadway
Stained it with its blood
An unlucky event
Unfortunate at the least
And eyes that fall upon this falls down
The smell turns back anything around
But a leg twitch
There's still a glimmer of hope
That all heartbreaks
Don't die on this side of the rode

A blemish
Purple and red
What went through your mind
At the time
As she ****** on you
And her lips touched your neck  
Was there panic or distress
Or where you so far gone
You didn't care she was attached to your neck
Where was the respect
And now this relationship is a mess
Still in recovery
Unable to move to the next step
How could you betray me
You shattered the trust
Just for one day
But hay  
Enjoy the memory
If that hickey
That wasn't given by me

I wake up just before the alarm
Before the crack of dawn
Usually the sun is peaking from under the horizon
Waiting for me
It's cold today, and I needed it's radiant light more then ever
I look over my shoulder and she gone
Even her indention has faded
We cuddle last night
Did I do it wrong
Was my body no warm enough
That's what happens when you sleep
With someone cold hearted
She left a note on the pillow with smeared lipstick streaked across it
I dare no open it
I pick it up an exhale deeply
Steam pouring from my mouth
I look out the window the sun still hasn't rising for me
It's already 12 o'clock
I rub my hands over the lipstick
Trying to remember the feel of your lips
**** it, I open it
And smirk two words
She never met my infatuation with detail
My predetermine guess was met
The End
Was all she wrote

You’re nothing more then a temptation
That twist and turn my stomach  
Almost sickening
One look in your eyes
And my heart convinced me this is meant to be
Ignoring my mind
Constantly screaming
True love is fiction
It’s the same as a drunk man trying prove he knows karate
Someone is going to end up hurt
But any man who kissed your lips
His virginity would cease to exist
I got insnared in your musk
And I would’ve walk through the fire
Kicked down the doors of hell
If you were trapped behind them
I would’ve packed my bags and flown to any destination
If you were there
So Entangled I didn’t think clear
But now my flesh can touch yours
Without me getting lost
I paid the price
It wasn’t money
What I paid with
Will be more costly then I thought

I was there
Hidden plainly in the open
What you think your the only one who wasn't seen
Think you had it tough?
Yeah I know living in a house with a witch and her three side kicks was tough
I grew up with a dad constantly out of scene
There's no pictures of him in the house
He wasn't around long enough to say cheese
Had a mom bashing me
Thrashing me with words
But you got a fairy god mother
How about throwing me a fairy go papa
No that's just obscene
Doesn't makes sense
So I sat in the back
Wondering if the girl who's never noticed would notice me
Wrong of me to think that
To amazed by the flashing wand
And her circus tricks
I'm not going to lie  
Turning the rats into shinny black horses was kind of slick
There coats glistening under the moon light
Just a snorting and whipping there tails in the air
And two more into coachmen
Wonder if they valet park that pumpink too
Let's not forget that dress an matching shoes
You got until twelve
That's lame could've done a trick to give you some extra time too
It's only 9 old lady come on
Oh well ***** it but I'm coming too
Let me just sneak onto this coach
I might as well just get in you two still ignoring me
But no I'll get in the back where I can't be seen
Your finally in
Onwards your coachmen scream
One shooting his whip in the air
Making a cracking noise
You would think it would be a smooth ride
But nooo
These **** wheels hit every bump and rock on the road
Just tossing me around in the back
This is not how you treat a stowaway
But we're here now thank god
I jump out the back
As you go trotting up the stairs in your fancy clothes
I'm in rags that don't match
And let's not forget about the holes
I'm not dress right I suppose
I hit one of your lil coachmen
With a sneak attack an steal his clothes
Don't worry I'll give them back
I shoot up the stairs still putting on these tight *** shoes
Through the Corridors
Stopping to look at the pictures
Ooh what a fine as queen
Getting to distracted back on root
I make a left then right then another right
Crap I'm lost
I retrace my steps
Oh look a sign that says ball
I bust in like a mad man trying to stop a wedding
No it's not that people I'm just late
But you all fancy rich white folk don't care
Didn't even look me way
And I'm dressed so nice
To busy with your noses stuck in the air like the ceiling is going somewhere
I get a nod from a cute waitress
Looks likes these clothes doing the trick
I make my way to the buffet all you can eat? What that's me
Time flies when you crash a ball an steal there food
It's 11:59
Crap got to beat you to the door
I dash pash you stepping on your shoes
At least it slowed you down
Shoot past the corridor
Reached your coachmen
Gave him his clothes and some cheese
Hopped in the back
And now I'm home free
I had a blast I must say
Looks like being unnoticed has its perks
Let's do it again tomorrow
If your small *** feet don't hurt

He was hung here
Strung up here at this tree
Rope burns imbedded in its branches
From its past memories
So many went before him
Not for a crime
But from a hate crime
And he just wanted to be free
Walk among the streets
Like a normal human being
But instead
He was picked on  
Hit on,kick on and spit on
They didn't care
They gathered around
Laughed an cheered as he hung
Pushed his body an watched as he swung
Still kicking
Eyes blood shot from the lack of breathing
And as the rope tore into his neck
His own kind watch from a distance with respect
Watching the rope stretch his neck  
Hung six feet off the ground
For you an me
But how much has the world changed from he
What's free
Cause I see nooses tied around an tree for you an me

It's me who polluted the air waves
Me who un dug the skeletons of the past
Now there demons run rampant
It's me who ******* this up
I treated this "thing" we had like a rug
And I tore it from the floor up
I ripped this un known relationship from the foundations
Threw rocks and shattered the window
Took a sledge hammer an knocked down the brick walls
I'm the plague that killed us
It's not you its me
And I must build this house alone
It's not you its me
Hopefully you'll like to put the blame on me
It was me

I heard my barber say today

You think your situation is bad until you hear someone else’s story.
That’s when you realize your problems ain’t ****.

Why did that make me feel better?

At first glance
The suggestion of us being friends
I couldn't take
It was met by my hate
I wanted to hit it
And drag it to the side of the road like it was a deer
But in my haste
I made it clear I wanted to date
And now I'm shaken
By the second thoughts that appeared
And I don't know if I should mow it down
And watch it struggle to live in my rear view mirror
Or run with it
I shot down friendship
As it sailed across the sea
And now what's left
Is you starting at me
Trying to put back the pieces from the debris

Now you then ****** up
Confessed your love
To avoid a break up
What happens when she realize
What you said might not be true
I thought you wanted to be free
What the heck is wrong with you
You were wishing to be single
So we could go out an mingle
But instead you renew the relationship that was annoying you
You ******* up
Why didn't you let it die
You were almost there
But you panic
And In your frantic state
You made a huge mistake
Note to self
Next time think
And don't forget
That I'm in this relationship too

Don't shoot me
My hands held high
If I raise them any more they'll touch the sky
Your gun pointed at me
How could you possibly have fear in your eyes
Look in mine
See the will to live
As we both stare down each other
Guess this is what you call a stand still
I dare not move
Wouldn't want you to make a mistake of me charging
Giving you the chance to make your gun breath
Shooting fire and oozing smoke
No I'm not moving one bit
I'd even hold my breath if I thought it posed a threat
But my hands held high can't you see
I'm not a threat
It's you who's threaten me
But you have the gun so your in charge
Does it make you feel more like a man
I'd *** my pants if it helps
To bad I already went
I try to hold back the sweat
But I'm nervous you see
I've never had someone point a gun at me
My arms getting tired
I can't keep this up any longer
But I can see the power in your eyes getting stronger
I don't like the feeling of helplessness
As my arms begin to quiver
You began to smile
I can smell your pride from here
Man it's foul
My arms began to fall
You tighten your grip around the handle
Choking it
But I get a second wind and my arms **** up
POW
as we stare at each other
You lose your smile
Your gun is smoking why is it smoking!
I can feel something
But I'm to afraid to look down
What have you done
I can feel warmness leaving
Why is it fleeing
I'm getting weaker
Your staring in shock
Do something!
Say something!
What have you done!
As I feel my body shift backwards
In the mist of this free fall
I've never seen the sun this beautiful