I like you.
Or at least I like who I am when I'm with you.
When I look into your eyes,
I'm on a different planet.
I've always liked you...
Even before everyone else did.
I still do...
And I don't know if its worse if you know,
Or worse if you don't.

I'm broken
over the words you have spoken
you have shut my lights off tonight
but now your trying to make things right

I'll never ever forget
all the secrets you have kept
now just stay away from me
if you're going to lie than this just isn't meant to be

I'd rather be homeless
and be told im useless
than to be lied right to my face by someone who i thought was my friend
our friendship i refuse to defend

so tonight the night i say goodbye
claiming that you're the good guy
id rather die
than to keep hearing all these lies

You knew her.
You knew him.
They at one time was your closest of friends.

You heard a rumor.
Which they confirmed.
Then instantly you turned upon them your friendship they earned.

Is it the news you learned.
Or you too weak to stand firm?
That once they came out.
You decided to do a turnabout.

If they had stayed in the closet.
Would you be secured?
Remember until they confirmed it.
You just wasn't sure.

What you fear?
Is it your other friends views?
They might decide to turn upon you.
Remember it's a choice we can do.

Don't ever tell someone.
You'll be their through thick and thin.
But select the time to say goodbye.

Does it really matter?
The choice they like.
Remember we still have bigots that don't like blacks to date whites.
And the other way around.

The apartment still smells new
It’s all new
Save for my dad’s recliner
That no one sits in
Not even my dad
But in that corner
It smells like our old place

It feels *****
When I sit in it

At the dinner table
It is in the second thing I open
In a birthday card
A note from my sister

“I know your a grown up and your still here. I just don’t want you to hold back on your dreams because of us. I want you to write books and people read them. I want one day for you to walk down the street and for someone to stop you and say hey you wrote my favorite book. I don’t want you to think you are leaving us behind because you are not. I don’t want you to stay because you think you are gunna miss is us growing up like when I go to prom or if you need to beat up a boy who hurt me cause you can do that from a distance while living out your dreams. I want you to travel the world and for your hand to break from signing books. So live your life with no regrets.
Happy Birthday Jon
Emily”

It doesn’t matter now
That mom is gone
Or if dad dies soon

I can leave

No regrets

I do not ask you to
talk to me,
call me,
follow me,
give me your time or money.
I just want you to remember me by
when I die.
I do not want to be
loved like a child,
or a man of means,
a creator or a destroyer,
or a world changer.
I just want to live by
as a memory.

A heart only beats
nothing less, nothing more.

Fake smiles, fake tears
no sorrow, no joy
no love I can feel
There's nothing but emptiness inside.

I’m a grain of sand floating in the ocean.
You are everything to me,
and I am nothing to you,
yet we exist as one,
and will always be together.

I only hope that one day,
your waves will fall upon my shores,
and you’ll realise there is much more to me,
much more than that single grain.

Erode away,
consume me,
let me be one with you.