Feeling lethargic
Forgetting how to breath
Or simply forgetting
That breath is entering me
Slipping into oblivion
Yet still functioning somehow
Hypocritical *******
Flowing out of my mouth
I'm just saying what you wanna hear
I'm just hearing what you have to say
Slipping in and out on the floor
Dreaming the day away
Facing turning blue
Unaware of the threat
Looming over me
That is sudden death

I don't care what anyone says
Even if the words get locked in my head
Without you I'd rather be dead
Even if you're what I'm fighting against
Don't give a **** we're like partners in crime
Least we have the ***** to own up to our lies
Around at night it's like ride or die
**** being a coward behind petty disguise
You're the only one that knows what's real
Only you know how I feel
If someone ***** with you I'll ****
Even through the ******* still
Middle fingers up I'm gone
Getting faded to our song
Like nothing was ever wrong
Things were fine all along
Everyone hates our generation
But right now I'm a sensation
Cause we're our own number one fans
And ******* if you don't understand
Youth is simply in the mind
So when you start to ***** and whine
Remember all the good old times
Young, free, dope, wild
Being obnoxious just because
In the moment we're so ****** up
Forget tomorrow it's worlds away
**** tomorrow let's live for today

Slipping back into bad habits
I'm worthless again
This stupid **** always happens
I lost all my "friends"
I'm drinking up the sadness
It stays with me till the end
I'm lost in all this madness
Feeling worthless once again
Never knew how much you meant
You'll be back but it hurts till then
A few days and I'm falling apart
Just a while ago we weren't too far
Now we're separated by a million stars
Just think of me please
Wherever you are
I'm lost in the galaxy
No air to breath
So lonely
I miss when it was you and me
What we had was perfect
So lovely
I pushed everyone away
So I could be
Absorbed in you
And live in peace
Your absence is silent
Yet so loud it screams

I chased after you
In lustful sin
And many other things
Love's hidden in
I was a pawn
In your foolish game
You spun me 'round
Again and again
'Till I was so I dizzy
I could only speak your name
So many nights
Tears were shed
I hid my agony
In love instead
I chased after you
Blinded by stupidity
How were you able
To make me believe?
With a swift kick
To the backs of my knees
Falling
Falling
In love so deep

I found them there
Like diamonds in a mine
A pearl in an oyster
To a beggar, a dime
Nothing else
Was on my mind
Except the anticipation
Of release they'd bring in time

And all the gifts you gave
Couldn't mend my broken heart
You took me all over the place
Yet my head stayed at the start
You spoiled me with sweets
And I rotted to my feet
Flesh falling off my bones
For vultures to swoop down and eat
I don't care about wrapping paper
Or hundred dollar receipts
I wish you'd see
That all these things
Could never replace
Having you next to me

A month and a day
A hop, skip and jump away
Everything feels the same
But the clouds are threatening rain
Kissing the inside of my lungs
In the air moisture hangs
Clouds hiding behind the sun
Painting my veins in gray
The grass bows beneath
The water droplet's weight
Clouds shrouding, hiding fate
If we knew, we'd hide and wait
But we run, and blindly chase
Something better than disgrace
Tired of lying and being fake
Unraveling spiders and whispering snakes
Feeling free, sun on my face

I've got these ****** things in my brain
No one really knows that I'm insane
Cause they don't really listen to what I'm saying
But it gets worse
Day by day
As the ******* I spew
Becomes more concerning
And those around me
More discerning
I just can't
Keep it in
Cover your eyes
Don't listen

Waiting for time that simply won’t pass
Stuck inside your hourglass
You’ve got me on your pocket watch chain
There’s no way out
There’s no escape
Surrounded by clocks
Sickened by their sway
Waiting for the pain
To go away

I peel the skin away from my bones
Blood on my fingers, the smell in my nose
You trace the ribs and it feels like home
A feeling I've never ever known
I bite off my fingers and wrap them in lace
Your eyes are rotting out of your face
Your hair has fallen like autumn leaves
But now you're most beautiful, at least to me
If you break a bone I'll mend it back
I'll press my fingers to your skull when you're sad
And when you begin to fall apart
I'll put you back together from the start

I'm so lonely
I want to cry
Tired of living
But scared to die
Everyone's got someone
So do I
But it feels so distant
Just teeth for miles
In the waving, dying grass
There'll only be nails
In the coffin at last
I'm so lonely
And sometimes I cry
Everything feels so distant
Teeth in the grass for miles

Maybe I'm just antisocial
Or too withdrawn
But being with family
Feels so wrong
Thanksgiving
Christmas
New Years Eve
All these events
These dreadful things
I love them all
I most confess
They're my family
More or less
But when I'm
Surrounded by them
I feel like
An alien

Seeking them out so adamantly
Driven by the midnights heat
Each foolish time she dares to believe
That they’ll wait on her hands
And bow to her feet
She’ll give them a little
They’ll give her a lot
She’ll take up occupation
In their hearts and thoughts
She’ll talk to them in a way
They haven’t talked in a while
She’ll tell them some things
That make them smile
And show their ***** teeth
As they rush to reply
Chasing ***** images
In their disgusting minds
It’s not the money
It’s not the bags
It’s the fact that she pleases them
Like no one else can
All of them
Like the rings on her hands
Like the manicured tips
Like the golden china fans
One by one
They drop like flies
As she becomes bored
How annoyingly dry
Their humor is awful
Misogynst and objective
And so she moves on
Identity protected
A silent killer
A thief in the night
She's not his lover
She's not his wife

Creeping silently out the front door
Inhaling the hazy summer night's air
Looking for excitement, maybe more
Shuffling down old porch stairs
Underneath the lamp post's light
The exhilaration hidden in the night
Like a swift wind we stole away
Looking for trouble masked by day

For all the wounds that just won't close
All the sorrows they'll never know
For all the tears behind closed doors
We'll drink just a little more

The more I watch
The more appear
Hooting softly
Far and near
Eyes unblinking
Wide and scared
Watching motionlessly
Waiting there
Time occurs
In a sequence so strange
I see them calling
Before I here my name
Constant foreshadowing
Yet it never sinks in
I could have stopped it
I never did

Sweet, calm, fear
Stinging in my wounds
I'm safe here
In these well lit rooms
Surrounded by people
Who care that I'm alive
Everyone's my equal
Just trying to survive
Morning routine
Laughter so sweet
Peace and harmony
Enveloped in winter's dream
I couldn't feel my heart
Glowing underneath my skin
Beating rays of light
Illuminating my ribs

We only took a few hits
Didn't know I would slump like this
All wrapped up in lovers bliss
Hanging in the heat amidst
A million particles sent a drift
You always make me feel like this
Sitting low relaxed in a chair
Legs outstretched just hanging there
Eyes barely open suspended in air
Rolling backwards behind hair
Your hand hanging by your side
Melting in the moment, dripping into time
I feel the heat of the afternoon sun
Beating into me like a cicada's drum
Locking me into a lucid dream
Your eye meets mine, lazily
A single strand of hair swept down your brow
You're ******* me with your gaze, slowly now
My lips are still against your neck
Trailing down your woven web
You're creeping softly across these nerves
Knowing so easily you can make it hurt
In the haze of summer afternoons
I find the embrace under late summer moons
Sitting wordlessly by the pond
We slip away into cricket songs
Leaving only a bottle and a half bent top
Fireflies burning secret paths for the lost
Even now I close my eyes and can taste you on my tongue
I'm all wrapped up in hopeless love

I keep licking this tree
But the sap is gone
It's all dried up
We're moving on
We're getting old
Both you and I
In lots of ways
We both can fly
But also too scared
To flirt with the sky
I felt a little bold
And punched you goodbye
Now all I want
Is to kiss your black eye
I can't tell if what I did
Was wrong or right
I ripped you away
Attached at my side
Burst open the veins
That kept us alive
Tore open wounds
Stretched the lies
Our love was an ocean
But it's overtime gone dry

The light can't find us
Where we're headed
It cries out softly
Spilling into a shallow crevice
Light can't reach us
Where we're going
Abandoning everything
We spent our whole lives knowing
Unsure if we'll ever feel it's rays again
Beaming down on golden, suntanned skin
Where we're going
Light dares not to dwell
So to it's warmth
We say farewell
Hiding from the light
We abandoned our masks
And sink into darkness
Free at last

Everyone's doing something
But it's all the same
I don't want people
To know my name
For the things that others
Think is brave
I want to run
And live far away
I'm so foolish
That's what they say
These years determine my future
Permanent stains
But maybe my future
Will be different from yours
Maybe I'll find
The farthest door
And find myself
In a universe so strange
So oddly different
From these monotonous days
Maybe I'll find
A life untouched
Where I can live and let live
And take just enough
And leave the rest
For whatever's there
Living upon nothing
Only to share
If a life is lived alone
Is it really lived at all ?
A life of my own
Abandoning the call

I think about the things
That are said to me
In quiet moments
Confided in with the belief
That it's just a simple fact
That it doesn't matter at all
I think about these things
For days and days beyond
Maybe I have
Nothing better to do
Maybe this knowledge
Connects me to you
Exchanges with strangers
Meaningless and brief
Stay on my mind
They never leave

I don't wanna
Feel my face
I can't stand
To feel the pain
The things that haunt me everyday
The things that refuse
To go away
The things embeded
In this rotting brain
Drowning in substance
Escaping down the drain
Into a void
Of thoughtlessness
I never "thought"
It'd end like this

I get so scared when you call
I know the numbers don’t add up at all
I get so nervous talking to you
The same old worries, nothing new
It seems there’s this big fall looming over me
Much more severe than scraping a knee
Maybe the ground will break beneath my feet
Only God knows what’s beneath
I have to keep my mind from these thoughts
Everyday I’ve got no choice but to carry on
There are so many people
Living different lives
Problems much more significant than mine
Real issues, real people
I don’t care if I’m your equal
I don’t care what I am to you
Same old worries, nothing new

I'll pretend to love you
Keep you company for a while
I'll dump your *** on love sick's curb
When you've grown out of style
You come crawling back
On red palms and achy knees
Maybe I'm just unavailable
After the world I've seen
I'll keep you around for a while
'Till she catches on and finds out
I'll keep you around
'Till you've grown out of style

I can't feel my lips
Like they don't even exist
Eyelashes kiss my cheeks
Fluttering little lids
I feel warm and comfy
Like I did when we were kids
I'm addicted to the feeling
I wish it was always like this
When I'm not up I'm down
Like six feed underground
When I'm up I'm through the clouds
Ignoring everyone around
So absorbed in my own mind
Thoughts are tightropes strung in lines
I know the feeling will fade in time
But I feel the glow, warm and bright
I'm just so ******* pretentious
I just wanted to catch your interest
But you're just so hard to impress
You outshine me like an empress
I'll always be second to you
But one day you're gonna feel it too
One day I'll be the end of you
And no one will ever remember you
I hope you feel like a ******* fool
I hope someone uses you like a tool
I hope you fall into endless despair
Cause when you do I'll never be there

I'm just an after thought
Pick up where you left off
Forget about me
Like I came in 16th
Hundreth in a marathon
Running through your mind
Tell me do you think of me
Even just sometimes ?
I'm dying in your memories
A dwindling fire
Till I'm up in smoke
A lost hope
A burnt out desire

When I was a girl
Not too long ago
The hills rolled far
Blanketed in snow
The summer was hot
And full of strange life
Everything was so colorful
Bodies bursting with delight
In a very short time
I grew so old
Wrinkles forming fast
Misery in every fold
Incessant fatigue
Plaguing each and every bone
Sometimes I take the long way back
Yet still avoid our old home

If you're happy one day
And you don't know why
I swear I'll be smiling
Right by your side
If your tears won't stop falling
Like lonely raindrops from the sky
I swear I'll do anything
To make you smile

I'm a broken record dying to be played
Stranded up on a shelf
Lonely and afraid

Who gives a ****
If it makes her sad
You'll come back around
And she'll be glad

I smile at all the wrong things
I hum along while everyone sings
I've got cuts on my fingers and scars on my knees
Lonely aliens trapped amongst human beings

Babies crying
Thrown into the wind
Morality dying
Drowned out by sin
Lawns getting longer
Grass getting greener
Wicked getting stronger
As all life leaves her
Her arms were open to one and all
Washing up following liberty's call
Everyone unwanted, feeling lost and small
Had homes and families, a reason to stand tall
Burning bridges, building walls
Pushing down the helpless, letting them fall
Proclaiming defense and showering bombs
Money hungry men can't admit their wrong
Why not just keep arguing? We have an army strong
Trampling over children in the arms of their moms
And finally when the "peaceful" country is ridden with war
There will be no one to protect our doors
No clean water, nothing to eat
You cannot consume green paper or greed
So let's rush to the hills, out to the empty plains
And try to live simply, blocking out the pain

You want me for one reason
I want you for a few
I make you feel alive
You give me something to do

It won't always be like this
These are the days I swear I'll miss