I live in a doorway
Between two rooms.
I hear the chilled hostile voices
wrapped around my shoulders
Live up to your potential
Get your priorities straight.
I hold my head in my hands
I fill up on self-doubt
I see the looks of disdain
written upon their faces
I want to just fade away
My heart beats faster
Frustrated heat fills me,
                  yet
I say nothing.
The right words
never seem to find
their way out.
The sky turns grey
I worry that the rain
will wash away
the colors
rooted in me.

I peep into the other room.
All I ever wanted was to be
free...
Away, on my own.
Happiness is said to be key
The only way I can achieve that
is through my dreams
I wait for my escape
and I stealthily flee
Suddenly I'm in venice
Eating meatballs in my slow
Paced gondola.
Living carefree
Is my true desire
The butterflies fly out
My stomach becomes uplifted
I let relief
wash over me
A smile formulates

I wonder how the story
Unfolds.
I touch
the everlasting thoughts
of my mind.
I've come to terms.
Fate seems inevitable.
All I wanted was to be
free…