I used to think that I was in love with you.
But now I realize you were just a go to.
I told you everything, I trusted you
And I thought you trusted me too.
You truly made me feel like the best
But honestly you treated me just like the rest.
Loving you hurt me more than I could show
This whole game, this whole fiasco-
What was I doing? Was I putting on an act?
For what? Me to hold back?-
That's what I did and I'm sorry I couldn't confess to you, myself, and everyone else that I was such a mess.
It wasn't the right time and you weren't the right guy.
And that's exactly the reason, that's exactly why I had to say bye.
You said you saw this coming, so I felt confident
But I hoped and prayed you would at least try stopping it.
Sadly you didn't and that's not what I wanted
But you knew it was what I needed
When I pleaded for you not to leave me
You said, "you want the best for me but maybe the best for me is what's worst for you"
That's when I knew I had to follow through
You told me that I'm stronger than this and there's someone else out there.
Asking to be friends was the worst thing I could have done
I should have just left it and gone on the run
But I asked to stay friends and little did I know
You would go on to call me a *****, and then say I was a **.
Hearing this I collapsed crying onto my knees
You knew my heart inside and out and decided to break me
Like it was all some big scheme
Your friends say it's jealousy
But the constant torment hasn't stopped, it hurts me
Why can't you just let me be?
It has been months since we have exchanged a word
And all that I hear you talk about me is absolutely absurd.
I have moved on now and I pray you will too
I truly adored you and I know life isn't fair
But why do you have to hurt me, why do I have to care?