‪I’m no good, ‬
‪too far from being a saint‬
‪but,‬

‪atleast I’m trying,‬
‪to be there for everyone else‬
‪atleast I’m trying,‬
‪to not find faults from others‬
‪atleast I’m trying,‬
‪hard to control my triggers‬
‪atleast Im trying,‬
‪to make some little things right.‬

I’m no good,
but I’m here trying
to make a point in this life.

Be good
your whole life,
then do a single thing as
you were done

Trust me
they’ll all judge you,
for the only time you decided to
put your halo down

—live as you please anyway.

You think stepping on other woman's relationship,
makes you badass?
Oh dear think twice,
Karma will make you realize.

Look how lowly you are,
Staying a committed man's sidechick.
Stop kidding yourself,
You ain't gonna be the one.

The mites in your head,
keeps eating all your tiny brain cells.
Don't fool yourself,
You can never get my man.

On your 26th year,
i'd like to greet you happy new year!

Love, you are now older and very wise,
I am assured you will have a good life.

I've seen the changes you promised to make,
and this happiness inside I just couldn't take.

Know that I will still be your jealous baby,
but now wiser and ready to be your queen.

Oh just make sure I'll be your only lady,
and we'll be living happily than we seem.

I met you at church,
you we're the ultimate guy

I couldn't even mumble a word,
but I tried even I'm shy

You were a snob,
and I was a bit dissappointed

And not too later,
You approached me instead.

Oh how funny life goes,
that was almost 9 years ago

Still I find you my ultimate boy,
and I'm proud how you have forego.

Tell me how to do it,
To forget everything and run towards you

Tell me which way,
To just start anew and give this a chance

Tell me if you want to,
to give this a shot and make it last

Tell me.

I was a great mess
and you were a solace

You comforted me in a way
Like you felt the same misery

We were on the same boat
But can never go far

A familiar face and a brief gaiety
That will only remain bizarre

A moment of silence with invisible swords,
that is how we burst out,
we speak with no words.

We knew our tongues can make us suffer,
Froze us with the truth behind our cold shoulders,
Wish we need not to utter any anger.

Just like an ice made to melt in our hand,
Let our prides be gone!
Whispered a little prayer, "Please let us both understand."

This is me, trying not to cry.
This is me, writing without disguise.

Somewhere along these situations,
I agree I am so good at choosing wrong decisions.

I gravitate to the worst,
I initiate compassion to men without remorse.

Every now and then, I would think
Maybe I was born to give out my self.

I was raised with too much love,
And so I should get my heart torn apart.

Maybe that's my reality, maybe that's my truth.
But then again, No! I must change and enjoy my youth.

Inside its rib cage,the heart pounds wildly.
Seems like one is about to erupt violently!

This **** situation is making her insane,
*Yes! On the verge at the worst way it can.

He begged her on his knees to take him back,
but when she gave him the chance, he twist the scenes,oh good luck!

She don't even know if she ever really know him,
He's so good with words, he can turn lies into his truths, that's how it seems.

And her reality crushed before her eyes,
She gave this fake human another try.

Now she's doomed, ranging in anger,
*Already consumed and harshly torn, she'll never be the old her.

In my head, I wished to have killed you countless times
Or choked you with a rope made of your lustful desires
You are lucky I chose to be a good woman.

I have spoke to you in righteous ways and told you "back off!"
But you don't seem to understand the word, you really wanna **** me off
You are still lucky I chose to be a good woman.

Yes, I could have dealt with the devil and trade your soul
Good thing this so called "conscience" carves deep to my core
You are so lucky I chose to be a good woman.

You are such a good manipulator.
You could twist things easily at your favor.
I have tried so hard to keep myself away,
But it seems like my hard work won't pay.

I know I've matured a bit.
I can now create happiness without depending on you.
Made my self busy,
even thought somebody new could replace you.

But my walls came down when you gave me that sad stare,
Made me think "Am I really ready to leave this boy?"
My heart got me so scared,
'coz I thought I was really that sure.

Oh boy why you do this to me? Why now? Why today?
I hate myself so much for being weak.
No matter what I do,
you seemed to always have this part on me that no one else can take.

Few months ago, I feel like I couldn't make it,
and now I'm here, feeling so giddy on this new life.

One day, you thought t'was the end of the world,
on the next day, you feel so alive.

Life is funny that way.

It felt like forever to get over you
or maybe I won't ever loose feelings for you
but I have decided to give my self a chance
Be someone to explore my universe that you just peeked in
Be that someone to love myself whom I wished was you
I don't know If I'll ever love like I did to you
But I will surely give myself time to trully know what I deserve
And to the boy I once loved,
May your dreams come true.
Honestly, I will never forget you.

"The most important career decision of a woman
is choosing her man",
they uttered it to my face too many times,
heard it thru movies and series,
if I could judge, it's their favorite line.

"Choose your husband wisely,
or you only have yourself to blame"
every line makes me think, how will I know?
How will I know if they're true or just wearing a mask?
How will I know if it's me they would want to last?

How will I know If I chose the right man?
How will I know if he's a good one?
Then my mama said,
"We'll never figure all of that,
but baby, follow your instinct instead of your heart."

It's bittersweet,
lying next to you but not knowing your real intentions.
Is it love or is it lust?
maybe this is just one of your games, you don't want to last.

But i'll take it anyway.
Just to be with you even just a single day.
Heaven knows how I'd love to be taken back,
but you never said the magic word, and so it's all blur & black.

This pain is self-inflicted
Seeing you happy as expected
Ofcourse you'll never suffer
Too many girls would want to offer

Offer you a kiss,
offer you a hug
Offer their everything,
you're like their drug

And as you lay under their sheets,
Would you even remember?

I was your first heat,
And you were mine
we made high fever,
we intertwined.

It's amazing how a single flower could mean so much.

I don't know,  maybe she's just that shallow.
Kalachuchi was just as ordinary as her,
not until she received his first flower.

She kept a notebook only for those.
Every pages well versed with a side note,
stating the date and a mad love quote.

And as each flower wilted,
every memory of them she knitted.
Side to side, ring to ring, there, she made it.

Never ever will be forgotten.
Never ever will she bargain.
Each of those were all special,

Because for her, his love lies on every petals.

Today, she saw old pictures
some old emotions slowly creaping beneath her eyes
She thought she could use some liquor
'coz it still hurts her seeing his old levis

She said,"Old souls can never forget"
and she meant everything she wrote
It's sad how every pieces could mean regret
but she stands firm and realize,

self love could never be bought.