You are such a good manipulator.
You could twist things easily at your favor.
I have tried so hard to keep myself away,
But it seems like my hard work won't pay.

I know I've matured a bit.
I can now create happiness without depending on you.
Made my self busy,
even thought somebody new could replace you.

But my walls came down when you gave me that sad stare,
Made me think "Am I really ready to leave this boy?"
My heart got me so scared,
'coz I thought I was really that sure.

Oh boy why you do this to me? Why now? Why today?
I hate myself so much for being weak.
No matter what I do,
you seemed to always have this part on me that no one else can take.

Few months ago, I feel like I couldn't make it,
and now I'm here, feeling so giddy on this new life.

One day, you thought t'was the end of the world,
on the next day, you feel so alive.

Life is funny that way.

It felt like forever to get over you
or maybe I won't ever loose feelings for you
but I have decided to give my self a chance
Be someone to explore my universe that you just peeked in
Be that someone to love myself whom I wished was you
I don't know If I'll ever love like I did to you
But I will surely give myself time to trully know what I deserve
And to the boy I once loved,
May your dreams come true.
Honestly, I will never forget you.

"The most important career decision of a woman
is choosing her man",
they uttered it to my face too many times,
heard it thru movies and series,
if I could judge, it's their favorite line.

"Choose your husband wisely,
or you only have yourself to blame"
every line makes me think, how will I know?
How will I know if they're true or just wearing a mask?
How will I know if it's me they would want to last?

How will I know If I chose the right man?
How will I know if he's a good one?
Then my mama said,
"We'll never figure all of that,
but baby, follow your instinct instead of your heart."

It's bittersweet,
lying next to you but not knowing your real intentions.
Is it love or is it lust?
maybe this is just one of your games, you don't want to last.

But i'll take it anyway.
Just to be with you even just a single day.
Heaven knows how I'd love to be taken back,
but you never said the magic word, and so it's all blur & black.

This pain is self-inflicted
Seeing you happy as expected
Ofcourse you'll never suffer
Too many girls would want to offer

Offer you a kiss,
offer you a hug
Offer their everything,
you're like their drug

And as you lay under their sheets,
Would you even remember?

I was your first heat,
And you were mine
we made high fever,
we intertwined.

It's amazing how a single flower could mean so much.

I don't know,  maybe she's just that shallow.
Kalachuchi was just as ordinary as her,
not until she received his first flower.

She kept a notebook only for those.
Every pages well versed with a side note,
stating the date and a mad love quote.

And as each flower wilted,
every memory of them she knitted.
Side to side, ring to ring, there, she made it.

Never ever will be forgotten.
Never ever will she bargain.
Each of those were all special,

Because for her, his love lies on every petals.