one day...
out of nowhere, someone told me
"you bring joy to my life".
i was so happy, indeed i was, i guess i still am,
so i continued to make you happy...
making everyone else happy...
since they said i have the power in my hands,
and i feel special.

today...
out of nowhere, a voice deep inside me said
"now they're the happiest they could ever be... why are they not with you right now?"
i don't know what to feel, or how to react...
i am disappointed.. devastated...
turns out I'm just a place for them to heal and recover,
and won't come here again unless they are in pain,
just like how patients come to the hospital in hopes to heal,
and will eventually leave when they no longer feel the pain.

i voiced out sounds,
i displayed some actions,
i portrayed the emotions,

however,

it can’t be heard,
nor it can be seen,
and it will never be accepted.

she wants to be understood,
she wants to be cleared,
as she tries to;

she took in mind of the words said,
the behaviour that was carried,
and to also having recognition of their feelings.

even though hers will never be done
the same way she did for others,

understanding herself,
understanding others,
without others acknowledging her ownself.