I fear the dark
yet i live within it
struggling to find my way
with the scene of life long decay
do they know
that i can not see
do they plot against me
mentally abused
It's always been used
it shall make me loose control
wanting a way out
but none shall prevail
to this never ending hell.

Her stare pierces through me
like a gun shot
wounded
startled
scared
not sure of her plots
wanting to read her thoughts
but a void keeps me out
or is it a struggle to keep sane
her soul won't stay in vain
lost
cold
frightened
to be scares in the rain
to fall down to an awaiting train
as it comes
the screech but of not the train
but of the wounded
like a deer staring into head lights
started
frozen
dead
the train goes on
like it felt nothing
yet the deer felt it all
agony
relentless pain
and it was all in vain.

Sometimes
I feel as if a wave has crashed
down upon my body
breathes become rapid
heartbeat slows
the feeling takes my place
with calming whisper
into my ear
I become something else
not in control
I found it
or rather him
with nothing but a gesture
day becomes night
unaware of actions
he'll react
but yet
he's laying on the ground
in a pool of blood
eyes fixed on me
... I'll play this game more than twice.

She was different
she was scared
people knew
she was weird
filled with shame
as well as pain
she took a knife
to her vein
she blames the cat
but with that
came a lie
and a never ending tie
beaten and betrayed
she set the world ablaze
when the rat
said she has no cat
filled with shame
as well as pain
people talking
of her in vain
she was different
she was scared
she took her life
then and there.

People gawk,
point and stare
wondering if
its really there.
Kids laugh,
giggle and bite
to see if she'll
put up a fight.
when she does,
they're not scared
she'll be treated
so unfair.
Kicked and beaten
struck and hazed,
happened almost every day.

One day I'm nice,
the next i'll bite.
Till I draw blood
and make you scream,
From all the hateful things
inside of me.
The next i'll bite,
One day I'm nice.
But it wont last,
then I'll kick and punch,
while i scream your name.
You'll wish you were dead
and no longer sane,
I'll cut your vein,
as i watch you bleed
so i'll know
you can no longer leave.

Mother's weakness is all too high,
leaving her wallet almost dry'
mother's weakness is all to important to her,
which causes one daughter into leaving her,
a boy and a girl still left in her arms, while
her weakness not left in the air,
a father left in destraught, wonders how
a mother could leave her babies to rot.

let me be who I am
let me show you who I am
oh, you don't care
cause if I remember
you said you loved me
but when people found out
you hid and you lied
... you made me cry,
but I guess it is strange
since we're both girls.

we're together again,
like many times before,
and I'm left wondering,
how I messed things up,
So I can keep you,
from no longer wanting me...
like before.

she gone again,
leaving me alone.
like a trained dog,
I wait for her...
with my tail between my legs.