"who are you" she'll say.
"where are you" she says as she looks into my eyes...
"what are you" she says cause she see's nothing, in my eyes.
"say it again... I might hear you this time" I reply

I'm struggling
to keep my eyes open
making this world
not feel real
losing my grip
on reality
questioning
why I wake up
every day
yearning for eternal slumber
... then I open my eyes
wondering if this is all
just a dream.

I close my eyes once again,
I'll be laying soundly,
in the gypsy field,
with the sun on my skin,
and the smell of the crisp air,
the feel of grass on my bare feet...
but a loud noise brings me back to reality.

don't question me
because you think I have the answers
don't fear me
because I seem strange
don't assume you know me
because of what I choose to tell you.

The time on the clock
has no value
The interest in school
has lost its spark
The love of me
has lost its way
so what do i do now...

She made me cry
because I didn't know
it was all a lie
love is what she said
not knowing
it was all in my head.

without love
I feel empty inside
and over time
it makes me want to die
they'll call the cops
when they find my note
while I'm in the sea of shame
without a life boat

don't tell me
what to do
you don't know me
the lives I've torn apart...
don't act nice to me
you don't know
what I'm capable of...
so don't get so close to me
i'm hostile toward you
cause i will bite.

Love is lost
but at what cost
to my fragile soul
with my mind withering away
why can't it all,
just be a game?

My headphones on,
music as high as it will go.
People staring,
saying things,
I no longer wish to know.
Pointing at my collar,
and the writing on my shoes,
not taking a hint,
or a stupid clue.
I don't want there attention,
or piercing eyes,
not there judgement,
followed by some lies.
So take the hint,
with my headphones on,
no one will notice me,
and life will go on.