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deanena tierney Aug 2010
I see you there in the shadows,
Behind the curtain where you stand,
You left the play at intermission,
And the show can not go on as planned.
Is it cold there in the shadows too?
Because I'm freezing in the light?
I don't feel myself without you here,
Nothing feels quite right.
I can't take the stage without you, friend,
You said you would hold my hand.
And despite you telling me why you left,
I still don't understand.
458 · Jul 2010
Wires Crossed
deanena tierney Jul 2010
If all the feelings within my heart,
Did not have be channeled through,
My brain before I could share them,
They would make more sense to you.
458 · Feb 2011
Lady In Waiting
deanena tierney Feb 2011
I still feel..... you.
You are still here.
Absence, even prolonged, doesn't remove you.
You have become visceral.
Attached to the inner parts of me.
The vital parts of me.
I still see..... you.
In my peripheral.
Throughout different moments of the day.
When I see something I also want you to see.
And on my inward eye every time I shut my eyes.
You are my vision.
I still hear..... you.
I hear that voice.
When I read, your voice narrates all the words.
I can even hear you smile.
It's as clear as if you were next to me.
It whispers everything I need to hear.
I still dream..... you.
We do it together.
Sharing a narrow path in a wide world.
Believing destiny and faith will guide us right.
To our imagined paradise.
Beneath a tree.
Where our pens, passion, and souls converge.
Where everything will be made clear.

   Spirit.
   Truth.
              Inspiration.
Life.
  Love.
deanena tierney Nov 2012
My last breath was a punishment
Might my next just never be.
For I am so very very tired,
Of waiting so patiently.
For the better days to come,
The storm to pass on by,
And I can conjure ne'r a smile,
And barely yet a sigh.
A weak hand here and there has tried,
To hold but can't sustain,
Unending days of misery,
Relentless years of pain.
This demon has pursued me,
To it I'm but a slave.
That has mastered from the womb,
And will unto my grave.
454 · Aug 2010
Just Imagine
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I'm waiting for you in a field of green,
On a blanket spread out so smooth.
Positioned underneath a lone oak tree,
Patiently, and not wanting to move.

From my vantage point, on this hill,
I can spot you heading my way.
My hearts does a quick little flutter,
And I wonder just what we will say.

Hi, my friend, so glad to meet you!
In person after all these years.
We hug for what seems likes days,
And our eyes fill up with tears.

And my chest feels as if it may burst,
And my throat is getting so dry.
And I realize it was as real as I hoped,
And now all is as clear as the sky.

And now we sit upon this blanket,
And all we can do is stare.
Everything else just passes away,
With this new love we share.

There is comfort in your arms,
A "rightness" with you and me.
I know that when we meet for real,
This is exactly how it will be.
454 · Jul 2010
Day One
deanena tierney Jul 2010
Today may be the day...
That I give up the fight.
Forgive myself for all the wrongs,
That I never made quite right.

Today may be the day...
I find a sought release.
Remove all blame from my past,
And my soul will fill with peace.

Today may be the day...
I finally, "Breach the dam,"
Let purging tears just fall right down,
And love just who I am.

Today may be the day...
My world begins anew.
And I will call today... "Day One",
With an entirely new view.

Today may be the day...
That I know "carefree" again.
And my smiles will be genuine.
Please let the day begin.
453 · Apr 2023
The fog
deanena tierney Apr 2023
In the very early mornings
My self will question me
And still I will lie
As if there is a listener
As if truth and fallacy
Will get so entangled
By the shared utterance
That neither will be distinguished
And so I lie to myself
As many do
Until the sun rises on the lawn.
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I am made to feel ashamed,
Because of love I feel.
How does loving more than one,
Make that love not real?
There are so many faces here,
With wisdom, for which I long,
And I've fallen in love with many,
But I'm told that it is wrong.
And I just can not understand,
Why I'm taught I must not care,
For more than one soul at a time,
It just seems so **** unfair.
452 · Feb 2011
Days That Went
deanena tierney Feb 2011
Oh! Childhood days, so bright and fair,
When thought did flit without a care,
Every heart I loved , just as my own,
Long before any ill was known.
Spent so reckless, so did enthrall,
Innocence, ignorance, defeated all.
When the spirit knew no atmosphere,
No fence, no range;  and conscience clear.
Fulfilled alone by effort spent,
And outcome was it's own content.
Unaware that time would slow the pace,
Of the hastened soul to present place.
Or that the path of life, and circumstance,
Would steal away the certain chance.
But sometimes, when the rush is done,
And nature and I - we sit as one,
Memory, on haunches, will return,
Of passion's youth for which I yearn.
Whether wind, a glimpse, or forgotten scent,
I feel again the stir of days that went.
452 · Jul 2010
The Little Black Kitten
deanena tierney Jul 2010
My heart dropped quickly to my feet,
When I saw your post tonight.
I could not reach you fast enough,
To make sure you were alright.

I know there's something on your mind,
And when you're ready I am here.
If you choose to spill your heart out,
Or bite your tongue , my dear.

Either way I will be present,
And fully prepared to bear,
The heartache right along with you,
Because I truly care.

And though I can't be with you,
To try to bring you smiles,
You were sent a little black kitten,
Across many, many miles.

Try to remember when times seem bleak,
That we are connected in heart.
And what you feel I will also feel.
Even though we are far apart.
452 · Nov 2013
Untitled
deanena tierney Nov 2013
That novel you read some years ago?
Well my friend I read it too.
The one that spoke of forever love:
Of someone for me and you.
There's a reason it's called Fiction.
451 · Sep 2012
Fruition
deanena tierney Sep 2012
From birth we ceaselessly toil,
To fill our empty hole,
With another..to discover,
We've an undeveloped soul.
That there is no "piece" for finding,
'Tis hindsight once it's grown;
That it profits from no other,
None other than it's own.
448 · Feb 2011
Thanks... to you.
deanena tierney Feb 2011
There within my prison cell,
Your words found their way to me.
Bringing with them inspiration,
Of how incredible life could be.
I wonder if when you wrote them,
You knew they held the key,
That would unlock this soul of mine,
And somehow set me free.
447 · Nov 2010
How can you doubt?
deanena tierney Nov 2010
The sunshine which I saw today,
Seemed a brighter shade than yesterday.
The sky was a much deeper blue,
Then I have ever recalled within my view.
The grass, at full attention, stood,
Much more rigid than I thought it could.
The clouds painted feathers white,
And together it all was a majestic sight.
And I just wanted to stand and shout!
GOD is real! How can you doubt?
447 · Jul 2010
One
deanena tierney Jul 2010
One
How did I let it go this far again?
Knowing it could never last.
I was born for only solitude.
This lesson learned in past.

You made me feel more beautiful
Than I ever had before,
But somehow it still wasn't enough
To open my locked door.

The kisses have grown colder,
And I have backed away.
Not fully sure if fear or indifference,
Has made me feel this way.

Selfishly I just continued on,
It's as unforgivable as a lie.
Partly not wanting to be alone,
Partly because I hate "goodbye."

How will I be able to tell you,
I don't love you the way I should.
After I have spoken the words.
Right now I just wish I could.

I hope your pain is less by far,
Than mine; I'll suffer by shame.
I'd rather be hurt than hurt another,
Slander me, I'll take the blame.

I won't ask you for your pardon,
Or for you to understand.
That I am meant to wander alone,
With no one to hold my hand.

I will never be able to sacrifice,
My defenses,  just on a whim.
And since there are no certainties,
My chance for love is looking grim.
446 · Sep 2010
When all is quiet
deanena tierney Sep 2010
When all is quiet, I breathe out,
And can almost hear my heart,
As it beats in metered rhyme.

And I think of so many things,
Like mortality,God, and reason,
And the quickening of time.

And I find that all my thinking,
Does very little to even no good,
Just wasted hours it seems.

If we are just only heartbeats,
No just cause or purpose here.
Why do we have dreams?
deanena tierney Aug 2017
1.Go out alone. Don't arrive with an obnoxious group of friends that don't get out enough. That's what girls nights out are for.

2. Wear something neutral. Don't put too much time into getting ready. Keep it classy. No ****** heels.

(btw ...these time tested and ***** approved instructions are for when you are in need of company only. If you are looking for a relationship, love, or some serious life partner, these instructions will not be of use to you.  Trust me on that. )

3. Stay away from cheesy dives, go with hotel lounges, (lots of middle aged conference men there away from their wives just waiting to take full advantage of their freedom. It also allows u to avoid driving anywhere with a complete stranger.)

4. Walk in with your eyes down  and not too quickly.

5. Sit at the bar...right in the center.

6. Order whatever you really want.

7. Scan the room only once or twice.

8. Choose your victim ( whatever you fancy) and  make eye contact.

9. Shift your hips slightly in your seat as if u are already turned on , then look away.

10. Wait to be approached.

11. Make the social introductions but keep small talk to a minimum. He doesn't need to know where u were born or what u do for a living or likewise.

12. Ask to go to his room.

13. Let him think he's in charge until you get there.

14. Then just simply undress, take the top position, place his arms over his head and apply full rocking body weight at all times until your finished.

15. Calmly dress and leave. You can offer a simple "thank you," if you must. (I usually do not), however, never give your real name or leave a number...not even a fake one.
Just go.
It's pretty simple really.

(Safe *** of course...always a must :-))

Always interested in hearing other's techniques...please feel free to share.
444 · Jul 2010
Still
deanena tierney Jul 2010
The sun, it shone just briefly,
Til shorted by a cloud.
That hung itself so rightly,
Resembling a shroud.

And there it stayed, suspended,
Without a peer in sight.
Clinging , oh so stubborn,
Playing god with light.

And the sun, on fixed eclipse,
Whose course is set just so,
Fell just but a victim to,
The mocking cloud below.

And after waiting in patient tense,
The sun decided to speak.
How is it you have affected me,
When you appear so weak?

Might you drift just a little,
So I may offer solace from the haze.
The seasons are quickly changing, you know?
And short are becoming my days.

Perhaps we are both just unable,
To alter this state, my friend.
Sometimes we must just wait, helpless;
At the mercy of the wind.
443 · Jan 2014
They Ran Out of Love Today
deanena tierney Jan 2014
They ran out of love today
Just not enough for me.
The line dispersed, I headed home
As lonely as could be

I had some once,  long ago
I threw it all away
Right now I sure could use a bit
But they ran out today
deanena tierney Feb 2017
Just how many movies can a girl watch in a lifetime anyway ?
Funny how I have been most of the characters at some point in my life.
I've actually just recently progressed from the pathetic Bridget Jones
to Fat Amy in "How to be Single."...or perhaps Tom in the same flick.
  
I find it twisted yet somehow quite revolutionary the way my mind works.

Anyway... There are no sleepovers. I have no desire to cuddle strangers.

Another bizarre premiere.
Wth
438 · May 2010
Thank you!
deanena tierney May 2010
It used to be that you bared you soul,
Allowing all to see your delicate side.
But lately I sense a change in you,
A hostility deep inside.

I can't be certain it's really there,
Or if I am mistaken instead.
But by projecting bitterness,
You have rattled my head.

You have left me with no choice at all,
No choice at all ...and I must face,
The always real and rarely pretty,
Pain outside my space.

No, it's not all flowers and candy,
and flashy smiles all of the time.
And thank you for reminding me,
With another astounding rhyme.

So I as spend the rest of my day,
I will try to be much more aware,
That someone, somewhere sits alone,
With nobody else to care.
437 · Mar 2013
Be careful what you ask for
deanena tierney Mar 2013
I prayed the angels would speak to me,
Even just a whisper in a dream,
To enlighten me with wisdom; truth,
As things are rarely as they seem.
And oh how amazing after one single prayer
I would receive just what I pled,
But oh how painful it was to hear,
The words the angels said.
437 · Jul 2010
The Twisted Mind
deanena tierney Jul 2010
Throw me a bone, a little one
It's not a big one that I need.
Don't plant me a whole garden
Just plant me one little seed.

Then me and my mind will make the rest
Become just what I want it to be
I will push it and shove and twist it around
Til it resembles what I want to see.
436 · Dec 2012
The only person broken here
deanena tierney Dec 2012
Do not believe you've broken me.
No pity needed here.
I can't even recall how long it's been,
Since I have shed a tear.
I will get up and move about,
Carry on with this life.
I've no need to be a beggar,
A forgiver or a wife.
I'm just as beautiful as ever,
No eyes be needed here.
And I'll be moving forward,
Forward with no fear.
But learn a lesson if you will,
That is so very true,
The only person broken here,
Sadly, dear, is you.
435 · Jul 2010
I Will Be Free
deanena tierney Jul 2010
One day I hope to take trip,
A trip with only me.
And stop, with pen and paper,
At every inspiring place I see.
And then......I will be free.
434 · Apr 2012
was it you?
deanena tierney Apr 2012
Tell me was it I that changed, my friend,
Or rather was it you?
Perhaps 'twas for time's own amusement,
To show what he could do.
The distance between yesterday,
And where we are right now,
Seems much less longer that it was,
But much more sad somehow.
434 · Jul 2010
Who Is He?
deanena tierney Jul 2010
I wonder if anyone else on here,
Knows whose space they share.
Afraid they may have overlooked,
The Canadian Poet for whom I care.

His words can cut right through you,
Messages aimed straight for the heart,
No it's not chance nor coincidence,
They may soothe you or tear you apart.

No, I can not give you any directions,
I have given hints enough,
You will stumble upon, then quickly know,
As soon as you read his stuff.

And whoever runs across his poems,
Was guided there by a greater force.
Everything happens as it is planned,
Keep reading, you're right on course.
433 · Feb 2011
The You Inside Still Grows
deanena tierney Feb 2011
What has escaped you, my dear friend?
Has your passion left you dry?
Or just discovered the next phase of life,
With so many new things to try?

Do you no longer feel the poet's tug,
Of words you can't ignore?
Or have you lost your inspiration,
That was so grand before?

Have you found yourself a happiness,
In a far more peaceful state?
Or has your life become so very busy,
There's no room on your plate?

Was the interval of you (then and now),
Nurtured by your prose?
No matter if you write more or less,
The you inside still grows.
433 · Aug 2010
You Know What's Eating Me
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I know it hurts you to see me cry
and I'm sure you know the reason why.
So why do you ask me, even though,
The cause of my pain, you already know.

Please stop all this pretending , Dad,
We both know you are also sad.
I wish some tears would fall from you,
So I'd feel like mine are ok too.

And we could sit and sob together,
And not feel so far apart.
Our grief could just be split in half,
We'd share a broken heart.

You don't need to be strong for me,
It's your weaker side I need to see.
So let's mourn Mom together tonight,
So that me and you, Dad can be alright.
432 · Sep 2010
...they will go
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Oh, my dear friend! ...I hear the demons are at play!
And it saddens me that I can not, cast them all away!
While you're turning exhausted, every night in bed,
Demons are also toying with me, deep inside my head.
The draft slips in, as they usher in, yet another friend,
But be patient and be wise, as dawn foretells the end.
Waste not a bit of energy, on a battle vainly fought.
Hold fast; Endure the madness, in time t'wil be forgot.
The demons which do visit, are sent with reason. Know.
That once you learn the game, my friend, the demons?

...they will go.
432 · Nov 2010
Can't You See?
deanena tierney Nov 2010
Do you see that little boy
Who is sitting over there?
The one with the blue eyes,
And the ***** blonde hair?
The one you walked right past,
On your way over to me?
He was holding up his new toy,
Just so you could see?
He tried to get your attention,
He had a quick story to tell,
But you moved away so quickly,
He tried to keep up but fell.
You see that incredible little boy,
Has been overlooked too long,
And I know he often wonders,
Just what he did so wrong.
So please take a second glance,
Try to see just what I see,
A precious special little boy,
Who means the world to me.
432 · Aug 2017
pretend you like me too
deanena tierney Aug 2017
I could speak long on heartbreak.
I've known it pure and known it true.
But what poor converse that would make
I won't do that to you.

Besides you have all of your own ****
That has left you beaten too.
And,"no," I don't want to hear about it
I don't care that much for you.

Let's just leave our pasts in the past
For it's the po-lite thing to do
"My day was fine. I'm glad you asked!"
Now pretend you like me too.
431 · Mar 2013
I was wrong
deanena tierney Mar 2013
In all of her absence you held me,
With arms that were so strong,
I believed you had forgotten her,
It'd been so very long,
But it only took one phone call,
To prove that I was wrong.
With eagerness did you reply,
And her thrill returned again,
And just as quickly I disappeared,
As if we'd never been.
To turn this broken soul away,
From a fight I'll never win.
431 · Jul 2011
Ugh!
deanena tierney Jul 2011
Well it's certainly been an interesting day.
Oh! so many words that I could say!
Explicatives said with zest.
The four letter ones are the best!
431 · Nov 2012
Freedom's only cost
deanena tierney Nov 2012
There isn't a thing a soul can lose
And not beat as before.
A sacrifice to death or love,
Yet still it beats the more.
The learned of this, are those who know,
Freedom's only cost,
Is to place no value on anything,
Which one day will be lost.
431 · Sep 2010
Not So Fast
deanena tierney Sep 2010
New love with its weak knees and nervous touch,
Slowly fades away, and the quivers aren't as much.
And when that day comes and boredom arrives,
I guess we'll both just move on with our lives.
deanena tierney Jan 2013
You've no idea what these hands will do
Once you fall fast asleep.
In the dark they'll slowly feel around,
For with your soul to keep.
Until you fade into another realm,
Breaths become quite deep,
Then with (only dreamed of) precision,
Around your throat they'll creep,
These nails will find their throbbing foe,
Then your blood will start to seep.
For you've sown nothing but a nightmare, baby!
And that's exactly what you'll reap!
430 · Jul 2010
The Only One
deanena tierney Jul 2010
God, please make your presence known,
Let your peace just fill my heart.
And relinquish all the pent up pain,
As I make a brand new start.

Take my weakened faith, O Lord,
And make it strong again.
Renew it and give it back to me,
Deeper than its ever been.

Guide me down the cobbled path,
So that I won't trip and fall.
For you have always been the only one,
Who could save me....after all.
429 · Sep 2010
Words Once Sprung
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Be careful there my little tongue,
Lost forever are words once sprung.

Accept assistance from the mind.
It's so much easier you will find,
To deliver yourself with much regard,
Though at times I know it's very hard.
Careless words can make a foe of friend.
And cause you only heartache in the end.

So be careful there my little tongue,
Lost forever are words once sprung.
428 · Jul 2010
This Is My Day
deanena tierney Jul 2010
Why do we hold so tightly,
To a dying heart?
And to the living oft ignore;
Stay so far apart?
Little time has been granted,
I will waste it not.
Tomorrow is but uncertain,
Past is now forgot.
And I just will not censor,
I will just be free.
And do whatever I so desire;
Because today belongs to me.
428 · Sep 2010
I'm Sure To Go
deanena tierney Sep 2010
How many days will I be granted?
Is it based on how I live?
Will I be given an extra hour,
For every dollar that I give?

When I stop to help a stranger,
Do I gain another week?
Tell me will the inheritance,
Be postponed if I am meek?

Or do I have it backwards?
Does it work the other way?
Does every kind act- shorten,
My earthly length of stay?

Well I must be very honest.
The answers? I don't know.
But one thing is for certain,
In time, I'm sure to go.
427 · Jan 2014
hmm
deanena tierney Jan 2014
hmm
Just how many figure eight ***** does one need?  
More than one ? Perhaps.  
I guess as many as it takes to get the right answer.
424 · Aug 2017
a lover all my own
deanena tierney Aug 2017
Suppose I write these words
For a target yet unknown
Cast them out into the world
Just as if the wind had blown
Like feathers may they travel
Flutter up and all around
Praying that they do not drift
Unnoticed to the ground.
But rather cross my soulmates path
By chance or by hopes might
To bring me a lover all my own
With these words I write.
418 · Jun 2010
One Day....
deanena tierney Jun 2010
When the heart has questions,
With no answers held in store,
There is a certain pain indeed,
A longing to know much more.

You swiftly entered my tiny world,
That was shrinking day by day,
By clicking once just to compliment,
What my heart was trying to say.

And it felt as if there was another,
Whose soul was my souls' friend,
And my world grows ever larger,
With every word you send.

Sometimes when I am all alone,
All the rest of the world dwindles away,
And I allow my silly mind to wander,
And dream of meeting you one day.

Sadly, I know the chance the small,
As our bodies are so far apart,
But my arms still long to hold you close,
As close as I do in my heart.
415 · Jan 2011
The Truth
deanena tierney Jan 2011
I thought that life would be less trying,
If I put an end to lying,
For then there'd be no need for proof,
But it's much harder and that's the truth!
413 · Jul 2010
Where are you?
deanena tierney Jul 2010
Annie Brown, oh Annie Brown?
Tell me, where are you?
I have been looking all around,
But there's no sign of you!

Annie Brown, oh Annie Brown?
Tell me , where are you?
If I don't find you soon, my dear,
I just don't know what I'll do.
413 · Dec 2011
without it
deanena tierney Dec 2011
Deafen my ears, so the words won't ring,
And numb my heart, so the pain won't sting,
Dull my mind, so I'll envision not,
Days of a love that's now forgot.
Blind my eyes so that I won't see,
The indifference when you look at me,
Stiffen my back to carry to my pride,
So you'll never know the pain inside,
And upon my face, please fix a smile,
So that I will appear okay a while,
Awaken me, keep the dreams at bay,
Seal my lips so that they won't say,
"Your love was where all hope was bred,
And without it, all my hope is dead."
412 · Jul 2010
Why?
deanena tierney Jul 2010
The day will be soon be over,
And lead on into night.
A night without any shelter,
He shivers out of fright.
Night eyes they will watch him,
And sleep will just deprive.
His belly, it will be burning.
But no food will arrive.
People will pass and mutter,
Words he never hears.
He knows them all anyway,
He's lived like this for years.
412 · Jul 2015
Now I'm way off Track
deanena tierney Jul 2015
I didn't know your circles
Any more than you knew mine.
But I do know that they overlapped,
And so from time to time...
Our eyes wound meet in frenzied blur,
As our lives lapped on and on,
Then in the matter of a single whir,
So very briskly ...we'd be gone.
And knowing it'd all come round again..
You'd forget me for a score,  
Because up 'til now I'd always been
On my track... just as before.
But today I made a most brave move,
To escape the typic human race,
And now our paths might never cross,
So let these words take my place....
Please don't get dizzy on your course.
There's no need to run too fast.
Remember your only catching up to,
What has already passed.
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