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704 · Oct 2010
I Beg My Pardon
deanena tierney Oct 2010
I pardoned thy self a burning hour,

And languished in the heat,

Conjectured an undeniable power,

That reality failed to cheat.


Until the time it suffered whole,

And claimed back what was due.

Extinguishing flames in my soul,

By tempering thoughts of you.
704 · Oct 2010
Before It Is Too Late
deanena tierney Oct 2010
If I remained right here with you,
I know I'd be okay.
But okay is not enough for me,
So I just cannot stay.
It's time for me to wander far,
Alone in search of more,
But with an understanding,
That I did not have before.

You showed me how to believe again,
In others and also in me.
Please don't cry for too long, dear,
We just weren't meant to be.
And if I stay here any longer,
You'll miss your true soulmate,
So I'll kiss you goodbye for both our sake,
Before it is too late.
701 · Aug 2016
A Funeral in the Rain
deanena tierney Aug 2016
Closest to the memory
Heartaches holding fast
Imagination feeding on
What never was or passed.
Who is it that does not enjoy
Crying all alone at night
Over make-believe scenarios
That never end in right.
Tragedy has always kept
such company for the brain
Illiciting pleasure quite akin to
A funeral in the rain.
697 · Sep 2010
Passions Melt
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Oh! Time surrender me to the bliss!
Of passions melt by true love's kiss.
And pardon thee with an even tone.
Fan only the fires that are my own.
And count all thy hours with resolve.
To same- way journey.. we all evolve.
Ration thy share of joy and of woes;
Careful deliverance of careless throes.
And I in turn will grant my mind care.
And equally pledge to be just and fair.
With only exception? Reflection to see!
My soul mirrored back by lover to thee.
Oh! Time surrender me to the bliss!
Of passions melt by true love's kiss.
696 · Dec 2011
I think I see your face
deanena tierney Dec 2011
You are in every shadow,
And every dim lit place.
And in every dusk filled crevice,
I think I see your face.
You are in every sunbeam,
And shine too bright to see.
But whenever I feel warm,
It's 'cos you are with me.
You're in every single smile,
That my lips ever make.
And in every single thought,
And in every chance I take.
You are every single beat,
In my ever-hopeful heart,
And the only source of comfort,
When my whole world falls apart.
May our whispers be uplifted,
To the angels on the wind.
So by GOD's grace we can be,
Together, my dear friend.
I have now done just what I said,
Done what I said I'd do.
And now I'll just wait impatiently,
For you to do it too!!!!
692 · Sep 2010
An Old Book
deanena tierney Sep 2010
In a tiny, old, used bookstore,
In a quaint town in Tennessee,
There's a book that's in a stack,
That I wished belonged to me.

I happened upon that bookstore,
By accident, or it would seem so.
While on a very long road trip,
Searching for a cup of joe.

The boy that worked at the diner,
Where I stopped to get a bite,
Said there would be a coffee shop,
Just up the road on the right.

So I drove just a little bit farther,
Until the street turned into one-way,
And I saw that little coffee shop,
With a sign that said, "Closed Today."

But suddenly I felt a strong desire,
To park my car and get out.
To look closer at a very aged steeple,
And antiques that were scattered about.

And right next door to that coffee house,
Was the bookstore I mentioned before.
And the smell of dust and dry paper,
Engulfed me when I opened the door.

From somewhere in the very back,
A woman's voice said, " I'll be right out."
And I replied, "It's ok,  take your time,"
"I'm just gonna take a look about."

And starting at the very left front wall,
I made my way slowly around.
Moving from "Fiction" to "Philosophy,"
My footsteps, the only sound.

I may have missed a book or two,
Along the very back wall,
For fear that if I moved even one,
The entire shelf would fall.

Just when I decided that I should go,
That it was late, and I must leave,
I saw a book that beckoned me,
That had "Old Poems," on it's sleeve.

It was in a rack at the counter,
Where now sat the woman with a smile.
And because I love "Old" and "Poetry,"
I read through it for a little while.

Most of the pages inside that book,
Were so faded, that I could not see,
But the words on the inside cover,
Made quite an impression on me.

The child-like script was in pencil,
And the little girl went on to say,
That grandma had given the book to her,
In 1890, on the twelfth of May.

She went a little further to remark,
It was a present for the day of her birth,
And then I spied a little orange sticker,
That was to indicate it's worth.

The sticker, it said ten dollars,
But I noticed it was marked down.
The woman behind the counter said,
"That family still lives in this town."

And I knew I had to have that book,
And take it back home with me.
Because of all the memories it held,
And all of it's history.

Suddenly I remembered I had no cash,
No money with which to buy,
And, yes, I could have found a way,
But I really didn't even try.

And ever since that very day,
When I left that book behind,
I find myself checking inside covers,
Just to see what I might find.
687 · Jan 2011
The Invocation
deanena tierney Jan 2011
I have never seen a snow bank,
Nor have I ever flown,
To any distant place or time,
I have not always known.
Upon my inner eye I find,
Images in repeat,
Filled of where I long to be,
Yet can not move thy feet.
Every lonely meager wind,
Invokes impatient will,
Toward all I can't envision,
Yet my heart does thrill.
Soul will not be silent,
No rest at all abound,
Until it follow's distant call,
And it's home is found.
Why must every journey begin with a single step...rather than a giant leap?   Misunderstood yet again.
686 · Nov 2010
The Moment Of Truth
deanena tierney Nov 2010
When all the church bells cease to toll,
And the ocean tides no longer roll,
When not one beast utters mere a sound,
And no compassion can be found,
When the marching drummer fails to play,
And no beacon remains to show the way,
When every breeze becomes right still,
And each soul relents to his Master's will,
When the whole of man stops in place,
And stares out into empty space,
When earth meets sky;  no in-between,
Will be the moment all truth is seen.
683 · Oct 2010
Wings
deanena tierney Oct 2010
The greyness is quite soothing,
While at dusk you fly so low,
The pools below are moving,
And leaving ripples as you go.

What limitless freedom you know,
To feel the wind upon your face.
No borders to where you can't go,
Boundless of time and of space.

Oh! What pow'r to rise, and rise again,
And plunge upon your every whim,
Burdenless ever from where you've been,
Clear vision while my own grows dim.

Thank you, my dear sweet wing-ed friend,
For my mind has soared with your flight,
And though this day has come to an end,
I will be flying with you tonight.
683 · May 2010
Change
deanena tierney May 2010
All at once change arrives and swiftly,deftly...  alters all.
Unprepared and caught off guard we struggle not to fall.

And facing the unfamiliar instills us all with fear.
Not knowing to expect a smile or to expect a tear.

And the things we held so close to heart and believed would never go,
Are now nowhere in our sight or reach, for change has made it so.

Yet we are still expected by society and nature in kind,
To plod ahead courageously, uncertain what we'll find.

And so the sun rises yet again, another morn, another day.
And we must rise right along with it, and head about our way.

Grasping out so carefully, for things, which we believe,
Time itself can never change, and things that will not leave.

And we hold them tight with iron grip, as close as close can be.
But once again change arrives and rips them away.... so easily.

And once our years have wisened us, we learn to take this heed:
Change can alter any moment and truly nothing is guaranteed.
682 · Dec 2011
For a Moment I Had Love
deanena tierney Dec 2011
I packed a little box today.
The one of you and I.
And with every item that I placed.
I could not help but cry.
The box was full of memories,
Of all the times we shared.
Times before I had to question,
Whether you even cared.
Some pictures of the two of us,
Somes poems wrote long ago,
Some movie stubs and jewelry,
Are all thats left to show....
That for a moment I had loved,
And that I was loved by you,
But if forever has now ended,
Then there's nothing left to do...
But pack our little box away,
To store momentos of our years,
I held it close up to my heart,
Then sealed it with my tears.
deanena tierney May 2010
Don't be alarmed!
I have something to say.
Was wanting to inquire,
What you're doing Saturday?

Doesn't have to be this one,
Could be a week or two or so,
But I want to take you with me,
To a place I love to go.

It is a little bit out of the way,
And we may be out a bit late,
But I will drive while you relax,
I'm asking you out on a date.

I know "dork" is what you're thinking,
And I have to say I agree,
I promise you will make it to church,
We will have fun you will see.

It's one of my favorite places,
And I know you will like it too,
If you have sandals... wear em',
Let me know if it's good for you.
675 · Jan 2011
Traveling Light
deanena tierney Jan 2011
I guess I'll just wait in baggage claim forever,
But you know what? That's okay.
I've been guessing which bag belongs to who,
For the better part of the day.
And I am matching them most effortlessly,
Most people are easily read,
"The khaki bag with the khaki pants",
Goes the dialogue in my head.
It's a game I have found, helps pass the time,
Makes my mood a bit more light,
While I stand with my thumb, you know where,
Expecting a cancelled flight.
Baggage claim is more lonely than I expected..
673 · Aug 2010
God Willing
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Could we disappear just you and I?
Or make the whole world go away?
Like a magnet I am so drawn to you.
I don't know why I feel this way.

All I know is your in my head,
At any given time of day.
And I love having you there,
And I just want to say...

You have so impressed me,
With everything that's you.
And I easily let you see inside,
Like I usually never do.

It really doesn't matter,
That I can't touch your face.
You are here, right beside me,
As I sit in my favorite place.

And if God be willing,
And Lady Luck is fair,
One day I'll cross the distance,
And you'll be {waiting, sitting} there.
670 · Jul 2010
House Rules
deanena tierney Jul 2010
1.  Be thankful for your blessings.

2.  Treat everyone with care.

3.  Offer help to those in need and
      remember them in prayer.

4.  Live each day to its' fullest.

5.  Always try your best.

6.  Take your troubles to the Lord,
      then let him do the rest.
669 · Jun 2010
I Still Miss You
deanena tierney Jun 2010
There's a hole within my heart,
Growing deeper every day.
And widening by the second,
Since you went away.

And there's no replacement,
No way to fill the space,
I fear my heart will disappear,
If I can't see your face.

I had you right here with me,
For so many, many, years,
Without you I 'm completely lost,
Too numb for even tears.

And I think about you always,
With every single breath.
This loss is more than painful,
And final..just like death.

And I'm scared that I won't make it.
That I'll give up the fight.
That with the guilt of all the wrongs,
I'll never be quite right.

I am praying every single day,
For God to get me through,
To lay his grace upon me,
And take good care of you.

And to help me just have faith,
So the hurt will go away.
Because I am so afraid that I,
Won't last another day.
669 · Sep 2010
My Soul's Become a Statue
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I see the storm clouds rolling in.
From afar; approaching fast.
On every side, hard pressing.
The slivered beam won't last.

Surprisingly, so swiftly,
The beam is plucked away.
And I'm in the eye of the chaos,
With no choice but to stay.

So, I brace myself for impact,
And the cold, hard freezing rain.
And mind-drift into numbness,
To avoid unavoidable pain.

And sturdy, fixed and riveted,
I will stand strong in the wake.
For my soul's become a statue.
That no storm will ever break.
668 · Apr 2010
For My Angel
deanena tierney Apr 2010
I now believe in angels, sent from God, you see,
It became supremely evident the day you came to me.
All of your great qualities, they make you rise above,
Posessing only goodness,... faith -and hope -and love.

And I have never known before, a spirit that's so true.
And seeing your souls'  inner beauty, I long to be like you.
And though you are not "perfect", as no one here can be,
The mere fact that you WANT to be, is inspiring to me.

And when I am around you, my heart aspires to be,
Faithful and pure and genuine for all the world to see.
And I began to change myself, and look for a nobler way,
To live my life with conscience clear, "better" every day.

I wish to be a reflection of all your strength and truth,
And I can finally believe in life, as you are living proof.
And I am truly honored that God blessed me with you,
That he thought that I deserved to know a heart so true.

And I hope that you realize the purpose that you hold,
As I hear true angels in disguise, are seldom ever told.
But, I know, without a doubt, look close, you too will see,
A higher powers' infinite  plan brought you right to me.

I now believe in angels, since I have held your hand.
A gift from God sent just for me to help me understand.
And since I know it may be meant for our paths to turn,
I felt a need to thank you for what you 've helped me learn.
deanena tierney May 2010
Here I sit again regretting,
Another disheartening day,
Where my untrusting nature.
Has pushed yet another away.

And I am nothing but a coward,
I have come to realize,
Bartering courage for a safety,
That I have come to despise.

I always hold back a certain something,
and grip it quite close inside,
Some part of me, and sometimes many,
Historically.. all of my pride.

So when I hear the words goodbye,
My salvation, though ever so small,
Is being able to convince myself,
That they never really knew me at all.

My own personal defense mechanism,
That has kept me right out of harms' way.
That no one has tried to break through,
No one thought I was worth it..... anyway.

At times I am sure that my logic,
Has caused me pain that is double,
And wish I could just be naive again,
Instead of just too much **** trouble.
666 · May 2012
A Collection of Nothings
deanena tierney May 2012
I like wildflowers. Just not the ones you picked for me.
And placed in that vase on the table.
They died within 4 hours and left the water cloudy
and putrid smelling.

I like playing games. I'm actually very good at them.
I'm very competitive, you know.
And smart...did you know that?
Smart and intuitive.

I like freedom, too. I'ts like the first breath of air,
After coming up from the shallow end.
It makes me new somehow,
New and alive, very alive.

I don't like promises. I don't make them.
And neither should you.
They just make liars out of otherwise,
Honest people.
deanena tierney Jul 2010
born contrary to common man
turned internal forevermore
no deviation from the stoics plan
each day is the same as before
no highs no lows ever shone
temperate consistent with mean
mind is numb body is drone
no hint joy has ever been seen
also no sadness just infinite plain
thoughts discussed only inside
no elation and yet no pain
nothing to show hence nothing to hide
surrounded by unaltering vision
sight is flat and color free
precise with no need of precision
only methodical rigidity
hope knows not of what to entreat
soul knows not of what to contain
already within no place to retreat
removed disconnected insane
662 · Nov 2010
Perspective
deanena tierney Nov 2010
Hearts can often embellish,
A minute thing to grand,
Perhaps this is why, so often,
Things don't go as we planned.
If you hold every single thing,
In a proper perspective light,
You will not be so surprised,
When things don't go just right.
deanena tierney Aug 2010
From the center of the carousel,
I see it all go by.
All shades of different colors,
Flash before the eye.

From the center of life's carousel,
The view, alike, as such,
Changes travel just as fast,
It's shades are just as much.

And with each rotation,
And every unfocused sight,
By motion we are blinded,
As if stunned by a bright light.

And still here in the center,
Anchored, remaining still,
The carousel keeps circling,
Despite the strongest will.
deanena tierney Dec 2010
Is it just coincidence,
That our paths crossed long ago?
So many others have entered here,
So many seem to come and go.

Tell me why you seem to stay,
And I just can't let go,
Is it because I stunted it?
Is it because I do not know...

Just what truly you are to me,
I'm so afraid to try and see,
Yet with every thought of never knowing,
Something dies inside of me.

I long to hear your genuine laugh,
And to see just how you smile,
And feel a certain thrill inside,
I haven't felt in quite a while.

So, selfishly I will make this plea,
"Please don't give up on me just yet."
Cos' I don't want to remember you as,
"The Greatest Love I Never Met."
deanena tierney Feb 2010
I will not call, I will not call,
Not call on him again!
I do not lie within his heart.
I lie in place of sin!

He calls me there, He calls me there,
I hasten to the call!
I do not lie within his heart.
Not partly, not at all!

I call for him, I call for him,
I wait with no reply!
I do not lie within his heart.
I dim the lights and sigh!

He calls me there, He calls me there,
I should not go but I...
Hurry into loveless arms ,
Then hurry home to cry!
660 · Mar 2011
Be Unworldly
deanena tierney Mar 2011
Oh! to have wasted so many long years,
Bargaining pleasure for pain,
Finding ill solace from evil-made tears,
With nothing to shield the rain.
Begging the world for a peace I so needed,
Only to find it a lie.
Failing to follow; the good book unheeded,
Year after year went by.
Why struggle did I? to accept the truth,
That patiently waited for me,
That Faith, alone, (belief before proof),
Would easily set me free.
deanena tierney Jan 2012
Words of love that have long since past,
As the breathless state just could not last,
Just as a pardon, by the sinner, is forgot,
Or as a winner's waste of a lifetime's lot,
Just as seasons do come and seasons do go,
And the truth disturbs all we used to know,
Just as an instant can blemish many years,
Or simple joy is replaced by mixed up tears,
Just as a lie makes the worst foe of a friend,
All things do hurry to their own end.
deanena tierney Jul 2011
Where will thy spirit settle,
For it has known...
Beauty in the reeds,
Peace upon the shore,
Sanctity of an empty horizon.
Yet returns to the helm restless every time.
Unsatisfied yet unweary.
Unanchored yet still tied.
Riding whims waves,
At its own mercy.
Seeking a harbor to find one,
and yet another...
Only to turn its sail away,
And return to the helm once again.
Will the current ever breach the captain's will?
657 · Apr 2013
More or less of time.
deanena tierney Apr 2013
With just a heartbeat's pause,
Every prior object sought,
And all the toiling up til now;
That mattered; now does not.
Who are we to yearn for more,
Then but delight of day?
Be it burden or a privilege,
To remember yesterday?
And lo, if it calls out to you!
Just a single backward glance,
Might just forgo tomorrow,
From destiny ....to chance.
So within the pause; just...be,
At peace and hold thy breath.
Unknown how many lie between,
The next until thy death.
You may not breathe as deeply,
As you did breathe a year ago,
But do not preempt this moment,
Nor mourn the ones that go.
The heartbeat's pause is timely.
Perfected, proper, prime.
Each second unassuming,
More or less of time.
655 · Aug 2010
Indecision
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Just what exactly is being sacrificed here,
And tell me just how long the pain will last.
How unfair it is that I must choose to hurt,
And leave someone very special in the past.

Good vs. Great, what an evil salvation,
****** upon me without an invite.
What a weight to carry, a choice to make,
Between.." maybe right" and "maybe right."

There is a freedom which comes with choice,
But also a prisoners' wage is paid.
As you lock yourself in just as you escape,
With every single choice that is made.
653 · Dec 2010
Why Doesn't GOD?
deanena tierney Dec 2010
Why doesn't GOD take all the pain,
That we feel so much of here,
And make it just a useless word,
Make it all just disappear?
And why doesn't GOD take sickness,
And all the ills of day to day,
Children's hospitals and chemo,
Make them all just go away?
Why didn't GOD make all men good,
And let not one man be poor,
And why can't we live in paradise,
The way they did before?
I know within my heart that GOD,
Can make all these things true,
But I'm not supposed to question,
Just what GOD will do.
With just my faith I will believe,
In the perfection of his plan,
For he knows every single thing,
In the heart of every man.
653 · Sep 2010
Today
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Well, for only the second time since I bought this thing, (my laptop), I have moved it from its' fan pad to join me in my favorite spot.

And I am currently wondering whether the cigarette ashes that may fall into it while I type could light the **** thing on fire, for which i would just have to laugh since I have no back up CD made yet, and for what it's worth, my life's work is on this harddrive. I need to quit smoking. The **** commercials you hear on the radion have me deemed a murderer, so now I don't listen to the radio either. I am strictly a CD girl now. One of these days I may catch up a bit and get an IPOD, but I am beginning to think the devil uses all this technology to make real relationships a thing of the past.

I also am missing my mouse out here. I am pretty sure if this use this little fingertip pad long enough, I could teach Braille to a 1 year old.

This is the first time in weeks I have actually used my swing for any duration, and you know what, I miss it. It is kind of hard to type on it though as it sits next to me and rocks a bit with every letter I type.

I've decided, for now, to stop my foolish searching for the meaning of everything, and the end all to everything. For now, I'm just gonna live..day to day..hour by hour...second into the next.

Up until about a year ago, I didn't even know how much I liked to swing, or how much I love to fly kites, or look at Dogwoods, or read philosophy, or even write poetry. I took a detour, a very long one, into a mind sedentary world with no hope, no dreams, no happiness.

And unfortunately, the only way out is the way I came in, which will take me as long to get beck to where as I started, as it took me to get here.

I love to feel the strong breeze that's blowing today. I felt it earlier while taking a walk, and going to the park, but then it was blowing while the sun beat straight down. Now I am in the shade and leaves are blowing onto the deck, and I swear if I had that hammock I keep promising myself to buy, I would be falling asleep on it right now. The kids are gone, daughter at a friends house, and son at grandmas next door. I put the puppies on their leads, and it is only me here right now. It's been forever since that happened too.

I need to get back to me...and I need to stop putting so many demands on myself. If I feel like going to the beach...I should just get in the car and go. I deserve that.. I deserve to smile and laugh and drink my coffee and talk to strangers like I know them  while they look at me like I'm crazy. I deserve friendship. I deserve and desire the love of friends.

Companionship, shared intellect and joys. Freedom. You know I could sit for hours and hours, maybe even days..if I had the liberty and just enjoy nature, and not really think of anything at all. Sometimes it feels like people and responsibilities get in the way of what I was truly meant to be and the things I truly want to do. I wish there was a place where I could just be, you know be...BE.

And one day I want to see my soul in someone elses eyes and just know without question that I'm not so different. That I'm connected somehow, with someone or something, and that I'm not really crazy. That I'm me and I am exactly what I was meant to be and I'm beautiful because I am me. I don't want to adapt to anything or want anyone to adapt to me. I just want to find the place where I fit perfectly.

But the never ending searching for this place has proved unsuccessful. So I believe the answer is to wait for clarity. And it will come. It will come, I know it will. As for now, I'm going to enjoy my coffee in the breeze...on my swing, and just close my eyes and breathe in the wind.
deanena tierney Jan 2012
When I picture my paradise,
Through inward, pensive eye,
There's no end to the horizon,
And nothing mars the sky.
And I am lying naked,
Half in shade under the trees,
My partial sunsoaked body,
Being soothed by fleeting breeze.
I take up a ****** journal,
And all the words fall into place,
Then spirit, body, mind, and soul,
All greet the sweetest face.
And like tumultuous rivers flow,
Our ****** too shall be,
For when I picture paradise,
You are making love to me.
648 · Jan 2012
Any One of These
deanena tierney Jan 2012
I have found strength in foreign places,
And inconceivable peace in strife,
Beauty in so many common faces,
And respect for death within my life.
Found honor in holding a dying hand,
And found clarity through a shroud,
Seen the valiance of the weak,
And the humbling of the proud.
Amazed myself on occasion or two,
And learned how to let go,
Discovered the real value of shame,
And watched the stunted grow.
I have seen miracles happen,
And felt the purest form of pain,
Treasured the unworthy;
Danced naked in the rain.
I've felt God's spirit within me,
Defined virtue on my own,
Found solace in acceptance,
And discredited what was known.
The sum of all the trivial moments,
Which never seem to cease,
Won't ever be as treasured as,
Any one of these.
648 · Nov 2010
You Spent The Day With Me
deanena tierney Nov 2010
I think your name so many times
I talk to you in my head
In fact we spoke this morning,
When I first got out of bed.
Then we went to church together,
You don't believe,.. yes,... I know.
But after I asked you nicely,
You said that you would go.
After church we went to the gym,
To try to work off a little stress,
I shared the ear buds from my Ipod,
We like the same songs, more or less.
We stopped off for a protein bar,
And me for coffee, you for tea.
And I'm sure that you don't know it,
But you spent the day with me.

I took a nap mid afternoon,
And you were right by my side,
I laid in the crook of your shoulder,
And you held me while I cried.
We took the puppies for a walk,
And spent some time on the swing,
Just staring out and drifting off,
To try to forget about everything.
We read philosophy for a spell,
And tried to **** empty time,
Tucked ourselves in very early,
And tried to write this rhyme.
A whisper in that voice I love,
Says that yes, we're meant to be.
But I'm sure that you have no idea,
That you spent the day with me.
644 · Sep 2010
Little Things
deanena tierney Sep 2010
I can see you smiling, a big oaf-like grin, right now.
Funny, how such little things, can make us laugh somehow.
Sometimes, when I'm in my car, listening to a happy song,
I just can't stop laughing to myself, as I drive along.
And I get this tingly feeling from my head down to my toes.
Why do little things make us laugh? No one really knows!
644 · Jun 2010
Finding My Way
deanena tierney Jun 2010
Carefully hold my well worn soul,
With a smooth and cautious hand.
Give me time to grow and learn,
And seek 'til I understand.

The path has been so long for me,
Filled with confusion and doubt.
And many mute days I've lived in the past,
Before discovering I could shout.

And now I have escaped the bars,
Am soaring without refrain.
And I am sure to make mistakes,
And then make them again.

I ask that you believe in me,
And forgive me as I err.
Because when I finally find myself,
I want you standing there.
641 · Jul 2010
A Short Visit
deanena tierney Jul 2010
The day greeted me with a sharp vision,
Piercing me from in between,
The mingled branches by my window,
With aim, so markedly keen.

And it beckoned me to that window,
To behold the drops of dew,
Like diamonds, sparkling everywhere,
No matter what the view.

And at once I wanted a wider scope,
And ventured out the door.
And I saw my familiar surroundings,
In a way I not had before.

My breath must have escaped me,
And yet I was just unaware,
Til my lungs filled again so fully; quickly
And I was renewed right there.

I soaked in all of the elegance,
Until the moment had passed.
Taking mental snapshots, aware
Such beauty would not last.
639 · Jul 2011
Almost
deanena tierney Jul 2011
A puzzle with just one missing piece, though incomplete can still be fine.
And a sky with one less star tonight, makes brighter those that shine.
Just one or two unripened grapes, surely won't spoil the wine.
So, why is it, that "one drop shy," can't fill this soul of mine?
deanena tierney Jul 2010
Tell me the difference between......

A good man and a great one...
A little white lie and a lie........
One who cheated and a cheater.........
A promise and a vow..............
An honest answer and an oath
Punishment and cruelty
Dislike and hatred
Believing and faith
Loving and being in love
Knowing and understanding
Holding and clinging
Resting and relaxing
Writing and expressing
Overlooking and forgiving
Ignoring and forgetting


Is there any difference
At all?, ....I am not sure.
In fact, I think them quite the same,
But one with so much more.
637 · Sep 2010
Heart Heed My Warning
deanena tierney Sep 2010
Sometimes I hold just a little back,
Avoid issues close at hand.
There's a good reason for all of that,
But you'll never understand.
Look closely, you will never see,
The scar I've learned to hide.
Behind my quick-witted humor,
My IQ, and my pride.
It's deeper than most valleys,
And it's never gonna heal,
And I can't stand the thought of you,
Ever knowing what I feel.
Torture would be recreation,
In comparison to this pain,
That I've tried to cry out, pry out,
Many times in vain.
And I'll never allow you to see it,
For what an atrocious sight,
To watch a beaten spirit,
Cry itself to sleep each night.
And so I cast a glowing smile,
I laugh and joke, and then,
Repeatedly warn my broken heart,
To never love again.
637 · Oct 2010
The Brink
deanena tierney Oct 2010
My passion lies on a distant shore, but like driftwood floats away,
Only to return to the beach again, for a moment, but doesn't stay.

But if I could put my hand on it, and pick it up to claim,
Would I still be so passionate, and behold it just the same?

And just like a sparkle in the grass, from many, many, yards away,
What I see from here is beautiful, and intriguing in every way.

Yet many times on closer inspection, things appear not so bright.
Like plastic hiding in Bahia blades, on a rainy, moonlit night.

And maybe I appear amazing too, to the one on the distant shore,
But if all the miles were finally crossed, would the interest still endure?

Why must we always take what we have,
And try to turn it into so much more?
And then in the end be remorseful when,
We can't put it back how it was before.
636 · Oct 2010
Today
deanena tierney Oct 2010
I have a thousand little voices going on in my head at any given time and I filter them how I choose I guess.
There are a few very persistent ones, however, that it looks like I will either have to start listening to, or beat the **** out of , but I haven't decided which yet.
Yes, yes, everything seems to be going status quo, but I am still standing exactly where I was ages ago. Lost in the middle of nowhere, with no seeming destination of any kind.
I keep waiting for everything to fall into place , waiting on certainty, but it never comes.
I keep pushing for it though, and it feels like it hates my pushing because once I start to fix my way on something, I get pushed back.
Little pinches really, voices that say, "Stop kidding yourself!"
I don't feel connected to anything ....not one single thing anymore.
It's just me out here paddling a ******* canoe in a circle.
I think once I get used to it..I can be ok with that..maybe.
All I know is nothing fits...not anymore...I have 2 left shoes in different colors and sizes and no feet to put them on anyhow.  Who really cares, anyway?    Ok ...off to church now!
635 · Jan 2011
Life Jacket
deanena tierney Jan 2011
The air is getting heavier,
With each shallow breath I take,
Struggle gives way to stridor,
And leaves pure panic in it's wake.
And just as any drowning victim would,
I desperately flail around,
Upwards seeking outstretched hand,
Below for solid ground.
Yet still I find no glimpse of you,
There isn't a single calming hint,
And now I am floating aimlessly,
For I know not where you went.
No purpose left to follow,
No vision still to seek,
Without my soul's life jacket,
My future looks quite bleak.
635 · Oct 2010
To You....Yes You
deanena tierney Oct 2010
My dear friend...I have missed you so.
And today...emptiness arrived.
Strange how a heart grows stronger,
When it is deprived.

Avoidance can not quench desire,
Or smolder a burning flame,
It only urges the yearning for more,
And more and more of the same.
634 · Jul 2011
Make Haste Thy Soul
deanena tierney Jul 2011
Oh! Northward wind, born in thy womb,
Lo! Thy soul be wrought and fixed,
Encased within my captors tomb,
Of head and foot betwixt.

Diffusing as vapor through the pores,
When the keeper dulls her eyes,
Soaring to hover over yonder shores,
Reduced, yet swollen it so flies.

Nightly northward, where passion lives,
Where hope of itself be found,
Ah! The glimpse of freedom that it gives,
Less the state of which I'm bound.

Until the morn comes yet again,
And the watchful eye doth wake,
Unaware where thy soul has been,
Or of a yearn no bond can break.

Oh! What strength of thy desire,
Will set thy shackles free?
And if no earthly pow'r transpire,
Soul ..make haste...eternity!
633 · Oct 2010
The Gift
deanena tierney Oct 2010
I do not need your adage,
Nor your condescending look,
To make it seem so simple,
To give back what I took.
It's mine now, it belongs to me,
And I'll sacrifice no more,
And I won't accept the blame of Fate,
For leaving it at my door.
633 · May 2010
My Special Place
deanena tierney May 2010
I have this special place I go,
     Each morning when I rise.
And watch the brilliant sun appear,
     Such pleasure for my eyes.

It beams between two branches,
     Each from a different tree.
That mingled many years ago,
     And here's what else I see..

Glimmering patterns of spiders' webs, spun...
     So carefully.
Beams of light on a moistened field, fall...
     So perfectly.

Many shades of green and yellow,
     Moss hanging from a tree.
The most beautiful place on earth,
     That is what I see.

I have this special place I go,
     Every morning I hold dear.
And listen to all of natures' sounds,
     So pleasing to the ear.

A variety of peaceful chatter,
     Some are far and some are near.
All the carefree birds and beasts,
     And here's what else I hear........

The cacophony of a thousand birds,
     Hoping new friends to make.
The ******* bark of a distant dog,
     Coaxing men to wake.

The frenzied crackles of leaves and twigs,
     As the squirrels play chase.
When I close my eyes and just simply listen,
     That's what I hear in this place.

I have this special place I go,
     No other I love as much.
Where I can take a needed break,
     And I can surely touch,

My souls' own piece of heaven,
     Where I can sit or I can kneel.
And have peace wash right over me,
     And here's what else I feel.....

A crisp, cool breeze to refresh...
     My mind.
The soothing warmth of the sun...
     So kind.

The occasional teasing,
     From a misguided bee.
Tiny hairs on my neck,
     Lightly tickling me.

An absolute serenity;
     Throw all my worries away.
There is no better way or place,
     That I wish to start each day.

Soon, the heartbeat of the world,
     Beckons me from this place.
And reluctantly I must turn to go,
      But with a smile on my face.
633 · Aug 2010
I Don't Really Care
deanena tierney Aug 2010
I once played under a waterfall,
With spray whipping my hair.
I got fully soaked and dripping wet,
But I  didn't really care.

And once I ran around the house,
In only my underwear,
And my big sister laughed at me,
But I didn't really care.

And one day a big storm came up,
And I just stood right there,
Lightning flashing all around,
But I didn't really care.

I would ride my bike so very fast,
And jump fences that said, "Beware."
And take a few licks when I got home.
But I didn't really care .

And now I simply write poetry,
Words with a little bit of flair,
And no one really "gets" me,
But I don't really care.
626 · Aug 2010
The Master
deanena tierney Aug 2010
Oh yes, you are the master.
The master of disguise.
Shielding dark deception,
Behind those honest eyes.
With your total mastery,
Making truth of lies.

And I am but a puppet,
Moved by your command,
Feeling false compassion,
When you hold my hand.
With your total mastery,
That I can't withstand.

Leading me to hopefulness,
Using words as bait.
Taking pleasure placing me,
In a delusional state.
With your total mastery,
Bad just feels so great.

Then with but a smirkish grin,
Never shown before,
You shattered me to pieces;
Left them on the floor.
With your total mastery,
I changed forevermore.

Now I offer many thanks,
Because upon review,
I am so much the wiser,
And self- protected too.
For with your total mastery,
I am now just like you.
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