It's too bad you didn't get to meet her.
The girl she was before.
The hiatus girl who was ready.
To give. To live, to love.
Years of working on herself
To be a person worthy
To be so self aware
She was awesome if I may say so,
She was open, brave, passionate.
Unfortunately, all those qualities
Made her easy prey.
She's not so beautiful anymore.

Midnight
On the green
With the smell of
Stale whiskey
*****
Wafting close
Getting lost
In cemeteries
Seeing you over my coffee mug
Through the steam
Quietly watching me
As dawn bleeds in
The day
My passenger seat
Froth on your lips
Getting high
Garth the GOAT
Silly chuckles.
So close on the couch
Warm and calm
With no where to be
Nothing to say
Just breathing together
Finding my hip bones
Karaoke
Drunken nights
Matching shirts
The good stuff
I still smile.

The shards you see
There in the grass
Look a whole to me

Perspective be
Diamond or glass
What is it to thee

How strange you saw the devil
Where an angel stood
Made darkness out of the light;
Evil from the good.
Turned innocence into jaded
White right into black
Truth was right in front of you
Now it's at your back.

it was that last shot
That exposed you
Oh yeah a little Seagrams
Can bring out the best in all of us baby
But no worries
That ugliness will be excused
right?
Every woman before me excused it
Hmm
Too bad I am a different kind of woman
So what do I say when you ask......
"Babe I'm feeling sad right now. Can you help me with my feelings?"
After no consideration (because I know right from wrong)
I respond
AYFKMD?
Then I leave.
Easy.

Seems such a waste
Of energy....
In frozen space
To grab a falling star
When we spent too much already
Just to get to where we are

It's a steady drip on a window sill
Hitting the backside of my brain
That never quits, will never quit..until
I bring all thought to you....a-gāin.