deanena tierney

deanena tierney Jun 2012

I feel the arms that hold me now,
But they do not touch with care.
They don't know my heart like you,
Or the hurt that lingers there.
They do not know my damaged pride,
They'll never know my fears.
They will never come to love me,
Or wipe away my tears.
But if I squeeze my eyes shut tight,
My heart almost thinks it true,
That the arms that hold me now,
Belong, my love to you........

deanena tierney Jun 2012

I am all and none of this

I am not perfect.
I am not blameless.
I am not selfless.
I am not sinless.
I am not pure.
I am not strong.
I am not okay.
I am not ashamed.
I am not defeated.

I am not like any other.

I am blessed.
I am forgiven.
I am saved.
I am worthy.
I am loved.
I am special.
I am beautiful.
I am never alone.
I am a child of GOD.

I am just like you.

deanena tierney May 2012

A Collection of Nothings

I like wildflowers. Just not the ones you picked for me.
And placed in that vase on the table.
They died within 4 hours and left the water cloudy
and putrid smelling.

I like playing games. I'm actually very good at them.
I'm very competitive, you know.
And smart...did you know that?
Smart and intuitive.

I like freedom, too. I'ts like the first breath of air,
After coming up from the shallow end.
It makes me new somehow,
New and alive, very alive.

I don't like promises. I don't make them.
And neither should you.
They just make liars out of otherwise,
Honest people.

deanena tierney Apr 2012

tonight I'm in need of nothing

I do not need a thing right now.
I know that when I usually call,
It's after I made some huge mistake,
Or suffered some sort of fall.
But tonight I'm in need of nothing,
Nothing, my friend, it's true.
Your company is my greatest joy,
And my heart misses you.
But the line appears so busy,
And yes I understand,
And I hope your life is going,
Exactly as you planned.
I just want you to know that,
Every second of every day,
You are the biggest part of me,
I just felt the need to say.
But not so that you'll think of me,
So you'll know how special you are,
And that if you ever need me friend,
I will never be very far.

deanena tierney Apr 2012

No one knew what was occurring

Banners and balloons were flying,
The mood was bright and gay.
No one knew what was occurring,
Less than a block away.
The band was marching all in tune,
The drums were all in beat,
No one knew what was occurring,
Just down another street.
Cotton candy and toys being sold,
The sky wouldn't dare to rain,
No one knew what was occurring,
Just down another lane.
But I knew what was occurring,
While the town was on parade,
I walked into the valley of death,
And laid down in the shade.
And saw the banners and the balloons flying...
And heard the band just pass me by,
I felt the percussion of all the drums,
And not a cloud was in the sky.
They knew not of me, not of my pain,
Yet I knew of their fun,
I'm not the only one who died today,
No I"m not the only one.

deanena tierney Apr 2012

Until I knew a great love

Until I knew a great love,
I did not know there was a difference,
A difference of degrees,
Proportioned to the layers,
Of the soul.
This great love,
I know it rightly.
It isn't dependent on time,
Nor effort,
Nor even presence.
It is just a great love.
It wasn't born or grown,
Only found and recognized.
For the great love which it is.
Now and the love it always will be.
A great love.
With no need for less or for more.
For certainly my heart
could not bear either.
It is perfect just as it is.
It is a great love.

deanena tierney Apr 2012

was it you?

Tell me was it I that changed, my friend,
Or rather was it you?
Perhaps 'twas for time's own amusement,
To show what he could do.
The distance between yesterday,
And where we are right now,
Seems much less longer that it was,
But much more sad somehow.