I curse the body
That wont die timely
The body that outlives hope

The more I rise toward heaven
The less I want of earth
Indifference is an easy aide
Dullness has it's worth
For logistics, not my matter
The world is not my care
My natural home is calling
All desire waits up there
Minutes are just tangled
In a web within my mind
Memories pale, illusive
I've eternity yet to find
So pull me..pull me closer
My God please take me in
Illuminate what's before me
Remove all that once had been
Breathe me up your staircase
Let all your stars just smile
I never even belonged here
I've been ready for a while
As for the pain of others
It's just a worldly show
That fades to black behind you
And means nothing as I go

And lips that have been silent long,
  Forevermore will silent be;
No words could e'er right a wrong,
  Such as the one 'twas done to me.
And it is my hurt,  alone,  to heal;
  Remorse; regret;  afflict him none;
And yet, his heart, I still can feel,
  Though it's long been said and done.

"Why does it haunt me so?
Even talks with God intrude."

-My mind

And they called her "SELFISH"
For suddenly...!
Refusing ,
Not to live

It's an upside down world I live in now
Nothing is quite right

I wonder if he feels it too?
A sort of weak magneticism
Like a conversation you want to lean into
An unexplained "knowing" sometimes
The pull is not as strong as before
It's a stretched out bungee cord now
Way less tension
But it takes a lot to cut through steel
And that's how I know I will never forget him.