The obsession finally ended
After the reality really set in
It became too hard to keep looking
Even the moon can burn the eyes
If you stare too long

Why do most men find the sorest spots on others to poke?
Same reason small children pick scabs I suppose.

Hush. Sh. Whisper not
A heartache in this space
For fear it get too watered-down
Over days over ages
That you lose a gift of purity
From God.
Pity.

And so I saw it.
That look.
Disdain?
Suspicion? Confusion?
Repulsion? Disgust?
I saw that.
Only one way from here friends.
Stay tuned.

So silly.
This thing called pride.
Silly and simple.
It is almost always the sole reason
A man doesn't go after what he wants.
And, therefore, also the sole reason
A man never gets what he wants.

Perhaps remember of our trip North:
The matching shirts
The cream pies in the convenient store
The Sasquatch Museum
The rafting
The Amish
The broken door ****
The concession stand
The game shows
The **** worship rub
Those few moments where we connected
The irritation you had while driving
The way you searched my phone while I sat by the creek
The confrontation about an innocent app on my phone
The suspicion phone calls on yours
The casino night we spent seperately
The night you slept alone upstairs
The later confession from you that you had already planned to break up with me well before that trip
But delayed it because
You still wanted to go because
you couldn't resist
******* me in that context.
The tracker you had already hid in my trunk back home while I had showered.

What a vacation!
I'm not sure I ever thanked you for taking me with you on your trip ,for which even though I paid half of the monetary cost,
It cost me a whole lot ******* more than that.

Be careful of the Tail of the Dragon.
Oil slicks can sneak up on you.

He repeats himself a lot.
I love that about him.
I also love the times when we seperate in public (like to use the bathrooms)
And I see him in the crowds with an almost panicked look, eyes darting around,
And then when his find mine,
His face relaxes, and he just smiles
One of those rare amazing smiles
That actually reach the eyes and burst out.
I love that.