Nonsense; All.

I wonder oft' on fortunes thought
Whether to intercede or not;
On this one or another's draught
One lives with; one lives without.
But envy not I the sparkling jewel
Too many before became the fool
For want of an uncobbled street,
Where souls must perish incomplete.
Better yet a rugged path to bear
Alone; no miracle ever sought
May deafness fall on heaven's ear
To own us each...our earn-ed lot.

I don't bargain
Not anymore
I spend my time with ghosts
Because their stories are finished
And I know the endings
I stay in happy places
No matter the cost
Years sometimes
Just to check out at 4am
If I feel disrepected
I have learned powerful things:
Nothing is dispensable
Something will always fill the void
Even if it's just the voices in my head
So, no. I don't bargain anymore
I give what I choose
I take what is offered
I choose early departures
But I still arrive late
Or even not at all
That is my liberty
That is my strength
That is the thing I like most about myself.

Sleep now while you are able
Dawn hits hard

So many things
I care nothing about now
As society says I should
My soul disagrees

It is heaven.
Crickets
Peace
Breath
Smiles
Warmth
Weightless
But that one wormhole to hell
Remains

I curse the body
That wont die timely
The body that outlives hope