DayDreamer11

DayDreamer11 May 2014

what's worse?
realizing the truth while drunk or sober
I don't know

Realizing that your "friends" actually don't give a **** about you
I don't know

when I'm drunk I finally see all the other reasons of why I should hate you
I don't know

peoples ignorance in the world hurts me
more than they will ever know
and that's why I tend to push people away from time to time

to the point where I have no more friends
I don't know

DayDreamer11 Mar 2014

Upset

You asked me If I was upset last night
i said no.
I lied.

the truth is I was upset.
I had a few too many shots of the alcohol Hidden in my closet.
and after all the fun was over and I was left alone with my thoughts
I cried on the shower floor for an hour

I think back to last night and wonder
if I wasn't alone
would I have cried as much as I did?
if I had a little bit more to drink
would I still be here right now?

when you asked me if I was upset
I thought back on everything that ran through my mind the night before
I got that feeling in my throat
like I was about to burst in tears right there on the spot

everything hurts and I'm sorry I can't change any of it. I'm sorry my behavior worries you.

DayDreamer11 Mar 2014

Moving On

well I guess you've moved on already
it still hurts so much
to know that you replaced me so fast

I sit in my room and cry for days
so no one can see the pain
I'm slowly dying on the inside

sometimes I wonder if you feel the same
late at night
when your left alone with your mind

DayDreamer11 Mar 2014

Tears

I can't get these thoughts out of my head
I'm beginning to realize just what kind of person you really are
And at night when I lay in bed
All I think about is our past memories we had together

You were my best friend
The one person I could tell anything to
But I guess this friendship has come to an end
My emotions are too much for me

I've lost my balance
These tears are too heavy
They slide down my face one by one or all at once
With each passing day it's gets worse

The bags under my eyes grow bigger
My tear stained face can't take this much longer
Someone might as well pull the trigger
I'd rather be 6 feet under than in this nightmare you call life

DayDreamer11 Feb 2014

In the night

Last night I had a dream
I remembered you so clearly
Happy, I seemed
It was like you never died
You were always too kind

You came to me in a dream
Giving me a message
when I awoke all I wanted to do was scream
Because I couldn't seem to get the image
of you lying dead on the ground out of my mind

Sorry guys...my cat died. Out of all the **** that's going on in my life right now, this is the worst thing that's happend.

DayDreamer11 Feb 2014

Hurt

we went from talking everyday
to twice a week
down to once a week
then never

everything stopped so abruptly
I wasn't sure what to say
I later found out
you weren't always what I thought

it hurts more than you may know
when you don't talk to me
When did our friendship get this low

I was always there
every phone call
every text
every laugh
every tear
and after everything you've done
I'm still here

DayDreamer11 Feb 2014

Change

Change
Sometimes it happens daily
Sometimes once every 5 years
I'm still trying to figure out how it could happen in 5 days

Maybe I'm mistaking change for fake
I'll never really know
I still miss the old person before those 5 days
But I'm not so sure I'll ever get that old person back