You asked me If I was upset last night
i said no.
I lied.

the truth is I was upset.
I had a few too many shots of the alcohol Hidden in my closet.
and after all the fun was over and I was left alone with my thoughts
I cried on the shower floor for an hour

I think back to last night and wonder
if I wasn't alone
would I have cried as much as I did?
if I had a little bit more to drink
would I still be here right now?

when you asked me if I was upset
I thought back on everything that ran through my mind the night before
I got that feeling in my throat
like I was about to burst in tears right there on the spot

everything hurts and I'm sorry I can't change any of it. I'm sorry my behavior worries you.