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May 2014 · 493
intoxication
DayDreamer11 May 2014
what's worse?
realizing the truth while drunk or sober
I don't know

Realizing that your "friends" actually don't give a **** about you
I don't know

when I'm drunk I finally see all the other reasons of why I should hate you
I don't know

peoples ignorance in the world hurts me
more than they will ever know
and that's why I tend to push people away from time to time

to the point where I have no more friends
I don't know
Mar 2014 · 4.0k
Upset
DayDreamer11 Mar 2014
You asked me If I was upset last night
i said no.
I lied.

the truth is I was upset.
I had a few too many shots of the alcohol Hidden in my closet.
and after all the fun was over and I was left alone with my thoughts
I cried on the shower floor for an hour

I think back to last night and wonder
if I wasn't alone
would I have cried as much as I did?
if I had a little bit more to drink
would I still be here right now?

when you asked me if I was upset
I thought back on everything that ran through my mind the night before
I got that feeling in my throat
like I was about to burst in tears right there on the spot

everything hurts and I'm sorry I can't change any of it. I'm sorry my behavior worries you.
Mar 2014 · 282
Moving On
DayDreamer11 Mar 2014
well I guess you've moved on already
it still hurts so much
to know that you replaced me so fast

I sit in my room and cry for days
so no one can see the pain
I'm slowly dying on the inside

sometimes I wonder if you feel the same
late at night
when your left alone with your mind
Mar 2014 · 371
Tears
DayDreamer11 Mar 2014
I can't get these thoughts out of my head
I'm beginning to realize just what kind of person you really are
And at night when I lay in bed
All I think about is our past memories we had together

You were my best friend
The one person I could tell anything to
But I guess this friendship has come to an end
My emotions are too much for me

I've lost my balance
These tears are too heavy
They slide down my face one by one or all at once
With each passing day it's gets worse

The bags under my eyes grow bigger
My tear stained face can't take this much longer
Someone might as well pull the trigger
I'd rather be 6 feet under than in this nightmare you call life
Feb 2014 · 213
In the night
DayDreamer11 Feb 2014
Last night I had a dream
I remembered you so clearly
Happy, I seemed
It was like you never died
You were always too kind

You came to me in a dream
Giving me a message
when I awoke all I wanted to do was scream
Because I couldn't seem to get the image
of you lying dead on the ground out of my mind
Sorry guys...my cat died. Out of all the **** that's going on in my life right now, this is the worst thing that's happend.
Feb 2014 · 354
Hurt
DayDreamer11 Feb 2014
we went from talking everyday
to twice a week
down to once a week
then never

everything stopped so abruptly
I wasn't sure what to say
I later found out
you weren't always what I thought

it hurts more than you may know
when you don't talk to me
When did our friendship get this low

I was always there
every phone call
every text
every laugh
every tear
and after everything you've done
I'm still here
Feb 2014 · 318
Change
DayDreamer11 Feb 2014
Change
Sometimes it happens daily
Sometimes once every 5 years
I'm still trying to figure out how it could happen in 5 days

Maybe I'm mistaking change for fake
I'll never really know
I still miss the old person before those 5 days
But I'm not so sure I'll ever get that old person back
Feb 2014 · 976
Hypocrite
DayDreamer11 Feb 2014
Hating the world is so hypocritical
  as most people are
I love it then I hate it
    you love me then you hate me

I often wonder what the world would do to me if I chose to neglect it
As I wonder what you would do to me if I chose to neglect you
Feb 2014 · 268
Days
DayDreamer11 Feb 2014
On days like this
I wonder
if I died
Would anybody care?
On days like this
I wonder
if I ran away
Would anybody notice?
On days like this
I wonder
Does anybody really love me?
May 2013 · 324
The Departure
DayDreamer11 May 2013
Taking risks
I never thought it end like this
Going down too deep
An eternal sleep

It becomes darker and darker
In desperate need for air
Slowly sinking down
Mentally sending last goodbyes

If god wants me
then he shall take me
I loved you all
Don't morn my fall

For I will call
May 2013 · 2.1k
Love at First Sight
DayDreamer11 May 2013
From the moment I first saw you
I knew you were the one
you took my breath away
you shine as bright as the sun

Wanting to know the real you
all it took was one glance
and I was falling deep into the ocean of love
all I needed was one last dance

His eyes seemed to smile at me from across the room
could it be true
these feelings I have for you

The boy from my dreams
I've been looking for you
as strange as it seems
lets run away just us two

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