Best friend who i adore,
theres this secret inside that i store.
with a love that cant be physical,
lies a love for you as divine as holy miracle.

You are that friend that i fall to in need,
but this love would destroy you if ever freed.
so upon this sky of clearest night,
to confess is a battle that i have chosen to fight.

Goddess who watches from up above,
take my heart as beautiful as your whitest Dove,
and hide it away so it cannot stain,
a friendship that in ages does not wain.

My lips cannot venture onto your lips,
for fear that confession will be drawn to my tounges tip.
so to your cheek i place this moment.
and keep it close to make memory potent.

i love you too much to love you more,
so this passion i hide behind locked doors.
my friend, my past, my present and loves truest lament.
i regret not a second that i have spent.

Lay down your arms and hold completely defenseless,
Love yourself with a deep desperation blissfull and limitless.
Let the moment wake your tears,
And live with me all of your torturous fears.

Lay yet closer so our lips barely part,
Hold my hand as if nursing your own heavy heart,
Take from me all you need to rebuild,
All the life that lonliness has killed.

My beauty my love my absent harmony,
You have consumed and taken the very last part of me,
No longer do your hands hold the fractures,
That re-break and tear without loves raptures.

Naked and used my lips are cold,
and after these years you've left me old,
Wrinkles creep on every canvas,
Till they like you consume all the paint.
No beauty no rhymes that convey completion,
Just left alone and dejected used till depletion.

Nerves shot emotion frayed,
Still this endless despair stays.
The blanket blots in black,
shielding shying shimering cracks.

Hopeless you turn to those around,
Feeling empty cold and mind not of sound.
Dropping dreaming days are dieing.
Listless loveless lonliness and crying.

Keep me grounded but not kept silent.
Hold me tightly before desperation turns violent.
Stabbing, screaming softly to stay alive,
Pinching punching pulling eyeing knives.

Quieten these words to not raise brows.
Because honesty and weakness fouls.
Singing softly slowly to the breeze,
Languishing longing laying i hug my knees.
Begging for my heart to freeze.

Her eyes have opened to golden light,
Freed from her battles and sleepless nights.
Held in the arms of every whisper,
That is uttered from lips of Son, Lover and Sister.

With each cherished moment that we remember,
We slowly begin to re-ignite lost embers.
To give her back her smiles and laughter,
So we can remember her happy for ever after.

Lost to sight but not to mind,
Today we encapsulate all that made her shine.
Use these memories to rebuild all we love,
And hope our wishes reach her high above.

So I finish my poem with a simple plea,
That all that love her do not dwell in misery.
For she is not sad where she now stands,
She is walking in heavenly lands,
Guided by Father, Mother and Whisper.

Stop killing me with deep despair,
In deepest sleep hides your constant stare!
Nails clawing at blackest sin,
That clings and stains at my white narrow shins.

Guilt drives to this midnight panic,
Fingers breaking through and revealing the satanic.
I loved you with this down trodden heart,
But you killed it with your wicked arts.

It started with a drunken fist,
And struck hard in the blood streaked mist.
I screamed and flailed in your arrest,
Tearfilled terrified and distressed!

Scared hands encountered,
On the kitchen counter,
The weapon of your instant death,
Which robbed you of your final breath.

The knife knicked,
With a frantic flick.
And dead were you upon our floor.
Right next to the garden door.....

I will throw myself on the mercy of any man or God,
I beseech you please do not break me again.
Do not lead me into the dark.
I cannot bare this burden you gift me.

You give me a heart as fragile as glass,
The softest whisper threatens to crack.
The faintest cold on the air will smash.
Breathe strength and will into my core.

So much fits to pattern,
Already the darkness is hinted every time you turn your head.
Gods give me the power to ******,
To make you love me so completely.

The last time you made me love,
It burnt and ruined all I had struggled to create.
You make me build only to destroy,
You make me crave and cry like the sickest of ploys.

If you give me this in honest intention,
Hold fast his intoxicating affection.
Do not rip open my wounds and bleed me dry.
So broken with no more tears to cry.

Take these words as my most heartfelt prayer,
The Faithlss broken by relentless despair.

I want something new,
That isn't love.
Love is old,
Over praised.
Too many sing,
About the joys,
Too many write,
About the pain.
Turn the page,
And feel the clean,
The gleam,
The ease of the unseen.

Feel something strong
That isn't frail,
Over used
In senseless gesture,
Given to the credit
Of a meaningless moment,
That is consumed in
Repeated pattern.
Shut your mouth,
And hear the silence,
The omnipotence,
And wise hearts guidence.

Wonders winter and torments turn.
Edging deeper inside causing all to burn.
Whispers worry brings feral fright.
Stark in torrents of lashing light.

What is this nightmare that fills my mind,
desperate unhinged in fate entwined.

Wrists restless and chained clatter.
Bound to a you in crimson splatter.
Dead days and loveless laughter.
My life in ruins and lonely ever after.

I’m holding you my Hope,
In arms that bind like the tightest rope,
Heavens blessed and protecting cloak,
Hide us now from what has awoke.

Our world is holding its final breath
Till it is loved and held by subtle death.
Oh delicate child of winters bliss.
Hold me now in this evil Abyss.

Love is hiding in hidden shallows,
Beneath a canopy of dreary willows.
Call her with a tender song,
One that has been beating all along.
So gaze into hopes sweet innocent eyes.
And fall in love with mans greatest prize.

So linger softly on her lips,
Let her guide you to her perfect hips,
And bring life to this existence,
And bare a child of godly omnipotence.

She pulls in her soul from her heavy sleaves and asks him to love her as she is,
He rises to her every challenge but cannot bring himself to tackle this one thing.
She sees the tremor forming on the fringe,
The edge of everything they have built collapsing in and falling fast.

"I cannot love you, when you are so cold,
your heart is bitter and eternitys old,
Bring back your soul into my embrace,
and let you past fall clear and remove the taint!"

She feels the tears forming fast they flood over onto her cheeks
His hand clutches her face leaving her again feeling fragile and weak.
She feels the warmth in every gesture.
She opens her eyes and lets forth a whisper.

"On your word let these seasons winter,
let my history and pain fall away in splinters.
I choose to live and learn to love,
I say this in witness to those above."

In unity their lips then meet,
Feeling the warmth flow fast and deep,
The first kiss of many to come,
A gift from each of a unmeasurable sum.

Another impact on your mind,
The glass wall flexing more and more in time.
His screaming is getting louder across the brink
Take this second nemesis and think!

Break this wall and there is no backstep,
Push me under and there is no breath.
Fall down deeper for every misstep.
As with this freedom you have bought your death.

The glass it shatters but still holds firm,
Under bloodied hands the weakness squirms.
Holding on with every muscle,
You feel it break like a putrid pustule.

Break this barrier  tears will falter,
Don’t do this for the freedom alters.
I pray to every hearing ear,
to **** me before his birth comes near.

I've given breath and love sublime,
but never really made life mine.
i've walked this path and watched this sky,
but lifes been hell since the day you died.

A month of breathing loving and living,
until my heart stops its blissful beating.
To suddenly choke and watch it all but stop,
in a few more days just round the block.

The place i stand alone as a man,
to die and stay here just as planned.
By your side in life and death
with my wife my friend my love my Steph.
Your memories the more beautiful in my enroaching end.
Which happened here just round the bend.

if i halted you in your steps,
turned you to face me and looked into your eyes,
and bore my heart upon its growing wings,
for you to hear the song its sings.

what would you do lover?
if i cried your name,
across a vast distance and told you of this aching
the cold inside  is waking.

kiss me!
hold me!
love me!
need me!
to feel is all i ask for.
To know the warmth that is in every eye but mine,
to sip and saver loves sweet wine.
Give me just the smallest taste!
so i know my life is not a waste!

The kisses of steel cannot compare to the kisses of my lips, they both dance on your bodies curves and dips. The crimson passion that falls sublime, all across the polished pine, whispers to me from across the void. Bathing in your agony as my blade kissed deeper and deeper, I wonder at your hearts last flitter, would it beat quicker if he was with my sister? But such thought are late and drive me straight towards my hate.
Next the ***** that stole my love, my fathers sweet white pretty Dove. Alison of the bright blonde hair,  left blood trailing up the maple stairs. Come here my sister who is so sweet, who is fleeing now without her feet. Die in your lovers sheets that form in mangled disgusting heaps! Slash and cut, scream and sheen as blood flies slowly as if from dreams.

These days are darker as of late,
Wallowing in purgatory with a stolen fate.
The cords of life have been cut,
And on this sentiment my eyes are shut.

There is no cure no aleviation,
Bound to the dark in subjucation.
Words glisten on silken silver wings,
But in darkness the silks warn and sways too thin.

I'm done with fighting you oh lord and master,
Make this end come ever faster.
For everynight i fear the darkness,
That claws at me from more than the rafters.

I feel it in the emptiness inside,
Left empty long ago a heart thats shied.
Crying into silent nights,
Unable to fight this distressed plight.

So take me away and take my beating,
And those that listen take note of its fleeting.
This is a choice i have had to make,
To keep the sadness from spurning incessant ache.

Awake in a hell that tortures every day.
This heart is renching fit to burst,
My audience watches with relentless thirst.
Dancing in the firing line my vision starts to sway,
watching eyes rigid as hearts strings fade and fray.
Oblivious in loves rythm i cry hear me sing!
suspended on my lovers silver wing.
Then fall together like birds of a feather,
Stain their hearts with your sumptuous melody,
then we erupt in screams that pierce ones dreams,
that in one instance wipe away the elegence.
but in memory lies your timeless remedy,
which force together traumas blood soaked seams.
and free from the flesh you fly devoid of hinderance.

Every drop that falls chains me further,
dragging me to the floor,
trapping me in anguish and misery.
"Blackest mourning lace,
Stiffest upper lip."
These lines I whisper softly,
hiding the weakness subtley.

I feel the bruises of every impact,
Bludgeoning blocks of liquid torture,
falling on acute senses.
the tears that stain,
on satin clean and plain.

Gazing into the dark for that unseen face,
Centre stage and nothing but the mask for cover.
A face so rehearsed it seems unbreakable and infallible,
Till I meet your eyes and am stunned to silence.
Realising too late that the mask has cracked,
The audience witnesses every scar I tried to hide.

Let them feel every break and every quake.
No longer an act but a declaration to the world,
Freed from restraint I scream every agony, every second, every memory.
Aiming every burdened word and every heavy note,
To rain upon you like Talons of fury.
But I leave you alive to witness the change.

Choked by your own creation,
You realise I have become all you tried to hide.
No longer human no light inside,
Extinguished I am darkness claimed,
To avenge every heart you have maimed.

These hands cannot bear the weight of guilt,
that lays here drawn across this quilt.
let loose the blood that clings to hands,
and throw off this fate a strand by strand.

ive been to war ive lost my way,
gone and blind from the light of day.
faces haunt these pastel walls,
and ghost they haunt these sanctuary halls.

A lover that is bleached by blood,
the staining returns in holy flood.
the name of god cannot relieve,
the curse thats here upon these sleeves.

An enemy i see behind her gaze,
i **** her behind this bloodstained haze.
Rock me now in my great despair,
closed and weeping beneath these stairs.

Her eyes are watching dead and empty,
blaming me for this mental depravity.
I hang up these arms,
to prevent all from harm!

with one kick the chair flys free,
releasing me from this crazed insanity.
the last breath breaks,
and with me my lover wakes,
in heavens hold,
free of that blood that ran so cold.

Holding on to my own hand,
Breathing deeply into a new day.
Eyeing the edge of the douvet,
Considering what lies on the otherside.

They are not here this morning,
There are no phantoms in my mind.
Pulling me to stay asleep,
Urging me to give another day.

Mourning something that never was,
is a stupid and relentless task,
with no satisfaction or conclusion.
No.

Today is a new day,
Today is a new me,
Today is a new life,
Starting without the preoccupation,
And self deprication and endless isolation.
Breath deep and enjoy the new,
thats the lesson i give to you.

Hold this battered breaking heart,
one thats was first off this mark.
broken too soon and left cold and dark.
waiting again for an igniting spark.

hold me unsteady,
hold me so ready.
for the race is about to start.
running to catch the lovers dart.

To every eye that looks on high,
I gift to you the softest glow.
In the hopes to cure man from blood lust and woe.

For eons I have defied your nature,
Inspiring all who see me to dream of sweeter things.
To free the good that is inside.

And in my success I see the sweetest reward.
The simplest kiss that holds fast time.
A glow that outstrips my own,
that makes my life far less cold.

Reminding me what it is to love,
To remember when I held another,
Helping me to light the dark,
And to empassion love in those who see me spark.

Sat with legs crossed pouring my dreams onto air,
Watching bone blood and soul form as I stare.
Within reach but still miles apart,
Unable to delay the tremor tripping the start.

Catch each cherished word that I empassion
And entwine them in your heart to sing perfection.
So in our unity accross haunting distance,
dual beating divine in loving resonance.

Till the day the nightmares come alive,
Every beat is lost the knots untied.
Once locked to mine your eyes grow cold,
As if the love we shared was centries old.

Before you turn and cannot see me,
let my eyes scream how I loved you completely,
In this life and ever after,
In lifetimes bright or twisted and darker.

The flame i used to see is gone,
Sighing deeply i ask you,
"am i not good enough anymore?"
The silence and the yawning of the door answers.
"Your eyes are cold and hollow."
still no reply it leaves me to wonder,
How much further till the end of the ride?
Until we confess that the love we once held has died.
finally a pained and drawn out whisper,
"theres no warmth in your embrace"
You say to me on the final day.
"Thats because you beat the flames out.
On sunny days when theres no need for flames,
You took out your armoury and slaughtered me."
Still to this day i bare the marks
Leaving the staining all over my skin.
Leaving me to wonder why?
Leaving me to question how?
Broken and undone i woke and bathed in the sun.
Without you here my side is cold,
But my heart is racing,
Freedom that is ever more intoxicating.

i have no love for those that condemn,
i have nowt but sympathy for those that turn to the unseen.
Faith is but a little girl,
daughter of most beautiful hope.

Her father is corruption,
who embraces her in the shadows.
Her mother is lost in night,
too weak to find her and to fight.
to give her truth,
and give her meaning,
to send the lies of her father fleeing.

So hold tight daughter of the night,
i alone am witness to your plight,
and will hold your hand in Corruptions blight.
untill sweet hope comes into sight.

Trying hard to learn to be one,
But  love holds you fragile and undone.
Darkened and raw every memory leaves a mark,
And you sit at night regretting every time you tried to love.

Weaker than I once was I paid with heartbeats,
Which decayed and bruised the roaring reds.
Dulled to purple it taints every vein,
Trying hard to cleanse and savor freedom.

His memory holds like a furious fist,
Gripping my voice and holding me intimately.
Recoiling at every kiss,
Revolted by every ******.

Level stares and longing for sleep,
Mirror gazing assessing the damage.
This time it was only bruises,
Next time it may be brakes.

Clawing something out of nothing,
To try and fill the cracks.
To hide hide what is missing,
And what I fear will never be intact.

Gambling away shards of Heart,
To try and and claim back parts of humanity.
Every loss pulls me further and further apart,
And deepens the pool of insanity.

Catching up but never in step,
locked out but never alone.
Every ounce of biterness kept,
The keeper of Loniless and Agonies throne.

Then like a thread to retie the pieces,
Her kiss dissapates all distemper.
Ridding my heart of all scarred and tore up creases,
and brings life to life with golden Ember.

I can't find you.
promised to me in every eventuality.
They promised me I won't live alone,
Missing from every Verse, Painting and Tome.

Dying through eyes,
Fairytale and rhymes that give us  no more hope,
no purpose to believe or to proceed,
Absent in every Minute, Day and Year.

Kisses half felt.
Not causing my heart to skip or plummet,
You promised me life in place of darkness,
Dwindling in lustre, warmth and solace

I cannot venture.
Heart so weak and picked to bloodied splinters,
No room left to feel or to need.
Lost to life love and compassion.

Find me if you are the one,
Open my eyes and see these words undone.

Ask of my Devotion just a single question.
Holding the pen at the ready,
Hesitant to put my thoughts into words.
To put them into life would be irreversible.

Like a sorcerer corrupted by what he wields,
the words burn onto my vision.
I see them on every surface daring me to release them.
dare I question Devotions ownership of me?

Almost instantly its no longer a question.
But a statement of hate filled defiance.
I will make Devotion serve me,
Bind her so tightly to my fatigued mind,
Make her pay for the time I gave her!

Know one and know all,
Your Devotion is mine and I crave her wildly,
Serve me fully and feel no recourse!
For in  my words she is my birthright,
And dare you not question your Devotion.
For to do so is the most heinous of all crimes.
Follow her blindly and know not Reality,
For her beauty outstrips your worthiness tenfold.

Its a question not many can answer,
What is the price you pay to give away:
The identity you built from nothing,
The soul you patched together with sticky tape?
These trinkets are worthless to the buyer,
but to me their worth seems ever higher.

Needing just a little respite,
What would you give for that single second?
The last breath your lungs will breath.
The smile you keep locked and secure.
Tokens to a drunken gamblers addiction,
who wins you over with fanciful arts of fiction.

Walking predestined steps of dissapointment,
But we are blind to the end.
Our shadows hold each other in the dark,
Kissing and craving what we try to build.
Like a broken memory incomplete in recall,
We cannot create or feel the echo we remember.

To the very core of ourselves a decaying blackness,
Consuming every light or bloom.
We watch our brothers and sisters flourish and Love.
We feel the emptiness ten fold,
And crave to witness and consume the warmth in their eyes.
We feel it but cannot own it wield it but cannot bind it.

Love does not bloom in our hearts,
And is not gifted to our souls,
A higher might created us with outward beauty,
But short changed us on substance and capacity.
Every time we attempt to create love,
It burns in our hands as if offended by our very hearts.

The perfection is only so deep,
its cold and lifesless to the touch.
How long have i been looking into your eyes?
hoping this time to see some hope arise.

These lines are deepening,
these fingers claw at the paled yellow.
How long is it since you have slept?
and for how many days now have your eyes wept.

They called me the life and soul,
i danced and spoke in all the circles.
This face has no more smiles,
just misery in many and different styles.

But what is it here that i see now,
as the light creeps in around the towel.
The waking elation
back from a prolonged vacation.

it fills my heart and every muscle,
pulling at the tender flesh.
growing on my tightened face
and transmitting out into this space.

the smile is back and its here to stay,
get out my mind and out of my way!
sadness is not my lord today,
to the sun and out of the shade,
witness this joy that i have made!

This morning it broke,
The straining strands ripped in two.
I could never regret what led me to this,
She's the one you will choose.
But she cannot love you like I can.

To wake up and see you gone again,
The cufflinks and watch gone from the nightstand,
Catching my breath breathing out slow,
Till the tears begin to fall and flow.

Used to heal the missing sordid wants,
Then you return to the picket fence and the decent.
Unable to see the decency in me,
She's everything your parents wanted you to be.

Ice grips my heart.
I tell myself this every morning.
Blizzards deafen my mind,
I drive with the windows down at fifteen below.
Freezing me to solid stone,
Unreachable by human hands.
Beautiful on surface clear,
Deathly to those that dare come near.

I stay awake late every night,
Waiting for what?
I still don't know.
There is this feeling that something....
Someone will happen upon me.
What their appearance means?
I still don't know
The voice i imagine in my dreams,
Is smooth and fluid,
Its power causing hairs to rise,
What it says?
I still don't know.
How many times will he visit dreams?
How many  days will i wait?
How many nights will i wait?
I still don't know.

Tall and proud and scarlet as blush,
Kisses and songs inspired at touch.
Ageless in time and ever adrift,
As if love itself is the noble gift.

Pick and ***** my clumsy finger,
red to red blood as vibrant as fiery tinder.
Passion evoked whenever bestowed,
The red is my blood that on your word would flow.

Dying but ever lasting in mind,
Blooming in hearts or wherever love shines.

I will pay a thousand debts,
To remove this inate weakness in my hearts depths.
There lies a scar from a wound I have never endured,
To make me even less human is the only foreseable cure.

So take all that makes me me,
And leave me hollow and empty,
Unable to wield the emotion inside that burns me day after day,
Like a ring I cannot wear,
Like a kiss I cannot share.

Robbed by nature deprived of half of me,
I am incomplete defective without parity.
I dream of loves I can't attain,
of unachievable destinies distant and without stain.

Shatter softly on disconnected ears,
Watching you mouth unheard cries.
Feeling you ensure every emotion,
Till I  turn on the light and you vanish from sight.

As a shadow on my heart I always see you,
Tagged and pursued I cannot find freedom.
To escape from your crafted cage,
Fabricated with memories time and time replayed.

Like a river set to course,
I am set to this fate.
Till I run dry into barren lifeless grey.
Never to reach my goal never to rejoin my source.

This cross road that sits before me,
Leads me to a moment too difficult to accept.
On every exit lays some form of pain.

All around are images of you,
To my left is the day long embraces,
Where we used to lay and watch the stars,
Feeling every drum of our unified hearts.
Its too raw to watch,
The burning is still here.

To the right is the last birthday,
Where our kiss roused whoops and laughter,
From all of those basking in the life we had made.
The smiles have died out,
And today is the day of tears.

Behind me haunts those empassioned mornings,
Waking up to your soothing breathing.
And feeling you near me without any contact.
Left alone for so long i cant feel you,
I would pay any fee to have you here with me.

So straight ahead i keep my eyes,
I'm pulled by a feeling that ahead i will see you waiting.
Too strained to stop drink or eat,
I keep the rythm of my desperate feet.

The day you died i went with you,
And now i journey till i can feel you,
Be with you in those remembered mornings,
Smile again in every company,
And hold you in our eternal harmony.

I will walk till my final step
robs me of my final breath,
and so i can see your face,
and fall lovingly into your embrace.

Lost in the moment but always weary,
Of these lines we've drawn so weak and dreary.
Feeling so strong but all to open,
Praying for luck to bring me no omens.

Im waiting for the day it hurts me,
Heart torn and tears a plenty,
Blissfull with the here and now,
So pure so innocent unbound or captured by any vow.

There is a door opening inside of me,
the all too familiar chill claims every corner.
Its emptiness spreads over an undulating wasteland,
no beating wakes the silence no glow lights my eyes.

these red tired eyes no longer weep,
for the tears dried up along with my hopes.
So witness this deep darkness,
that strangles with veins of rope and vines.

Have you ever loved young man?
the answer is a whisper on the wind,
love is lost to me,
she left me alone and undone,
and now this husk no longer lives,
but survives everyday that hell cruelly gives.

"Sweetheart its time to wake,
Shake off the sleep and remember me."
The outline where i once slept,
The books eratic and unkept.

A weight in his memory,
Pulls him from the duvet.
Crumbled sheets,
tumbling swirls.
As reality in his mind unfurls.

In perfection he stands so proud,
My Adonis so beautiful even in sorrow,
"I heard you again,
Like you never left me"

I watch as his hands cover his eyes,
Gently i guide them back down.
"Never hide your pain,"
His breath catches in his chest.

"I know you are here...."
"...And here i will always be....,"
".....Guiding me always......"
"...Till first light comes..."

Before the final trace of night,
I leave my waking kiss.
Heart breaking for every moment i have missed.

"Remember me Adonis,
As i vowed to you,
Every morning i will be here to wake you,
To love you and cherish you till the gods light does finally take you."

I ask you just once to take me as i am.
No more allusions to what i could be.
wipe away the madeup face,
The tan you wear,
The pout you share.

Reflection I beg your honesty,
Don't show me angles good or bad,
Show me what it is to be pretty,
To love all i see.
To be all i can be.

Lover I gaze upon lovingly,
Vulnerability clear and not hidden.
Hold my hand and hold my gaze,
Take your cue,
And love me true.

So sick of being told whats right.
David do this David hold tight,
Patience is an apparent Virtue,
One that has severly missed its cue.

My lust is innapropriate,
Offensive to voice or dream.
My lips are somehow sordid,
Cursed detested and unclean.

Just give me one minute where disdain is not allowed,
Where my life is not abysmal,
Where my love is always allowed.
Where I can be me complete and proud.

Everyday I grow older,
Waiting for it to be safe.
Pleading for my affection to be of public taste.
Frankly so far too many years have gone to waste.

For all I will to be,
For Every feather I pay in fee.
Grant miracles and change the fabric of reality,
This is the power the creator gifted me.

Watch the white of every feather burn to black,
Everytime I invoke my heart will crack.
Bonded in time and all temptation,
To burn at consumption of every emotion.

Forbidden by chaining voices unheard in eons,
My God defies me love or destruction.
Immortal but cursed to every labored breath,
Or to love and fall from skies in a Sin filled Death.

To click your fingers and feel them burn,
To speak a line and watch all freeze.
All this power i want and need!

To lift you clear of all who desire,
So i can keep you perfect and clean.
For your attention i beg and pleed!

Magic is the minds greatest power,
I dream of growing ever stronger,
so in my presence your beauty feeds!

The body I hold is hanging in the balance,
Each breath wracking through lifeless air.
The hollowness that expands from his lifeless eyes,
Burning when my eyes are shut.

As if untouched by the twine of fate,
Existing but not living breathing but not waking.
The icy thuds of an unnatural heart,
Making those softer sounds quaver into absence.

As if by sheer chance my strings are pulled,
my lips lower to touch those of the dead.
At contact time stands still,
The thudding stops.

The lips take on a rosey pink,
Mirroring the sentiment of every second.
As if aching to understand.
As if terrified to forget.

The fear awakens and the hurt rolls out,
Trembling down limp limbs and shoulders.
Hushing into a steady rock,
With promises that my strength won't give.

Purpose is gifted with a single kiss,
and like a rose I watch it grow.
In vibrance and strength the body will glow.
Till the day he finds his voice.

When words will tumble onto life,
and bind the solace and the strife.
Gift gold in band and my love for you,
with the simple promise to always cherish, love and hold you.

Feeling imprisoned in a soulless maze.
Where the simplest declaration is sullied with mud.
Made to feel weak for feeling at all,
And needing anyone,
Can this really be all there is for me?

Gazing at people parading as prizes,
But insecure under **** disguises.
Every time I feel I have loved,
It is always incomplete and faceless,
Almost abhorrent to its core.

Casting an ever wider gaze,
Looking with every fibre,
For something to summon me.
I have a purpose of that I am sure,
And I will not waste myself on lying cheating ******.

I lay here in my bed watching you sleep,
In the past I created you in my dreams.
I needed to know that you existed.
I vowed every remaining splinter of what was left of me.

I asked every God ancient and new,
To gift me with your heart to cherish,
Still nursing my own breaks and bruises,
I craved to protect you.
To show you that I am not broken.

One day I drew you out of words,
I sang about you till my voice gave out,
I pictured you in every tear.
Then one day like someone was listening there you were.

Now in this moment I vow again,
Every payment that I swore to give,
I will pay ten folds more,
To watch you sleep every morning for ever more.

Wars are fought for every second.
Lip to lip
Tension and discretion.
Love left bleeding by Desperation.
Watching the reds run till He owns nothing at all.

Battles inside for slightest control,
Eye to eye,
Reflection and dejection.
Happiness marred by Admiration,
Driven to **** what once He craved

Sexuality vibrant and clear in target,
Hip to Hip,
Incandescent and Evervescent.
Innocent slaughtered by Virility.
Forsaken by drink and every instinct.

Concepts that are ancient in our art,
Warp waither and die.
Murdered by those it creates.
So much of what we once held high,
In our values we let crumble and die.