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David Bojay Mar 2016
People expect too much from something that can go either way
The road splits in two
And maybe even 4 if your mind has the desire to take other routes
Nobody ever finds true love
It is built with our humanity
It is built from nature
It is built with joy
And even though I don't say many serious things
I know you don't know I know the things you never would've thought I knew
But I do, and the gift isn't given, it is lived
Before my smile, I had to walk miles in denial
I am free from that now
But I still have scars on my wrist
And I know you can barely see, but I'm free
And I know I don't make much sense to you, but that's why I write
That's why I spend hours being mindful on life
That's why I cry
That's why I smile
That's why I think about death
That's why I think about surviving
And accepting makes me fear less
Enjoying makes me neglect less
Showing enthusiasm makes me live the dreams I never seemed to reach even in my sleep
I haven't posted on this website in a while
I'm not really sorry, I just am
Literally, just am
People on Twitter won't get that part
I'm talking about Hellopoetry.com
It's 1/4 passed 12
And this is me trying to write poetry
Don't tell me what you think of this poem
Just read
And go on with the life that was given to you
This
Is
Bitter
Honesty
David Bojay Oct 2015
Woman with the white dress

You look old

And healthy

You're waiting for someone or something outside your door

I saw you for 1 second and thought I'd write about you

Maybe you're waiting for the man you met at the grocery yesterday to pick you up

Too bad he won't be able to get it up

Or maybe you're waiting for your daughter to pick you up for dinner

Or the second coming of Jesus

Or maybe you're just observing the blue sky you've cried to many times

I'm just assuming

Have a great rest of the day

It was good seeing you for one second as I drove by your house

You'll never meet me

And I'll never know if you ever got **** or if you even had a daughter

I love you
David Bojay Oct 2015
6
if you don't go crazy at least once in your life


you will die in a crazy way......
David Bojay Oct 2015
Black vans
I've been around my neighborhood with them only to see that the people that lived down the street sell drugs and have two adopted children
I dont really know how that works out
Nor do I know how my mother and father worked out for so long
They both seem too different
My sister and I are 5 years apart and I wonder how my mother kept my father around for so long
I hear relationships don't last after the first child
So I wonder what kept the *** going
And I wonder what keeps me going when relationships don't workout after they find out my secrets
I wouldn't have had kept going if I was my mother
Then again I wouldn't be here
And none of what I've written could be true
Maybe I could give my accidental birth some purpose in which I am yet discovering
David Bojay Sep 2015
Being able to exterminate but knowing how to control the fire
Being able to let go unconsciously
There's more to what we see
There's more to labeling
It's not just pain
It's not just happiness
It's freedom within
Being able to handle without thinking of how to control
Being able to forgive when the lions are eating your family members
The more aesthetic you are, the more "****** up" you can be
Or the more YOU you can be
Freedom
"Losing all hope was freedom" -Andrew Hales
So profound
The more you grow, the more accepting you are of what's to come.... even if it's death
Living spontaneously because overthinking is pain you control
The more you love, the deadlier you are to the "enemy"
But it's honest
If the future was written I'd fight the present and alter it's vision
What I'm saying now goes beyond being controlled
The more you fight the more freedom you have with the self
Balance and create
Peace in pain
Shift gears and go a different route
Ego death to defeat "yourself" to see yourself in a true color
Chances are given and not taking them is the same as not existing
Broke barriers and saw myself naked and vulnerable
Accepted myself for what I was and didn't take **** from others
Showed loved and confusion drove them insane.... anger builds within their souls and I just wanted to release anger in a love form
"Become the better version of yourself" -Elliot Hulse
I'm not close to my prime
With every profound moment that passes I start to cry
My phone is dry, but my heart is an ocean of opportunity within
Welcome to your real mind where being free with thoughts isn't a crime
The world is in you, don't let fear control your life
Here's the thing, I'll only grow and grow.... and grow even more
Consciously and physically
Focus on the self
We'll die fulfilled and the mind will be filled with wealth
You'll be prepared for anything
Control is in your hands
You are not a character
Fight for freedom within
It'll slowly fade and strip down
Again, I'm not even in my prime
"I'm only human" there's no excuse
Capable of so much, watch and learn
Do everything you want to do, because death doesn't give you second chances
Live, don't just exist
Take the risk
We try to put a title to everything and it goes beyond what the word means
If you found out your life was being controlled by another type of being would you fight it?
Would you end it?
Find cheats to be free?
If you found out earth was just a grid and your consciousness was based on experience, would explore?
Would you fight what controlled you in order to live free?
Self love will cause them pain
Realizing your worth would trouble their control
Suicide will only please them
You are more than just a character in a game
So fight and release your inner insane
David Bojay Aug 2015
If it was up to me I wouldn't have a name
Menace to society now I see the irony
Every sound is a different kind of feel to observe
A different present moment
How we live during certain  times
It just flows in me snd I let it **** me
Stages of our life that we cant define in time
Character from a high being innovating
With worth in their brains
We're all soldiers since birth and we rebel
And we **** inside..... and we live consciously
*******
A grasping student
I belong to her.... my mother from above
mother of my heart, you are one
And we create ourselves
Just a being from planet earth
We are the creators of life
And mother nature is just being
Treat her well
Stages in my mind
Cages are being broken
We are beings
I see them in my room
There's no mind
There's no rules
There's no mystery
Embrace misery to learn and earn
I'm just a being
Fall for yourself
Open arms...vulnerable
Feel you
I see you
We're just beings
Aliens are here
They're just other conscious beings
**** social media I see myself in keys
Lost in black and white
I own the measures
So vulnerable
**** a phone
My lord, we are our own
What is ******
A way of being
Aliens
I see classically
The MUSIC
I see
Stages are shown
**** a title
The being
Myself
I feel it
I'm just a ****** to you
FUCKKCKCKKAJAKQIIQ
The self
DUDUDUDUUDE
GOD
Communicating
I'm so free
Recording in my mind
Molecules I see you
Messengers
To this feel
The being
This experience
*** and the being
Insane in the king
Voyage the self spiritually
I'm ******* in person
No LANGUAGE
Spiritually depresses
THE SELF

Back in time

SPEAK IN ***

Characters

Languages

****
nd death

BACK IN TIME BEINGS

AND DEATH

I am energy
****

MuSic and death

I AM AN IDEA
Human

Humans e
DOkao

Omggggg in my head


In my head

Prrscrfkkk

Peace and sacrifice k

*** peace
Ggaggaga
Ajgkkkk
*** ACCEPTANCE
THE MIND

*** I'M LIVING
*** I FEEL
***

DUDE
In my head

HEAVEN
HELL
I SEE THE GODS
THEY SPEAK IN CODE
MODERN

I SAW EVERYTHING

I WAS NOTHING
I WAS SO SATAN
I WAS SO GOD

we're not alone
David Bojay Aug 2015
I see you looking at this miss
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