You could say
That I beat your name
Into most of the day
Usually pointless thoughts
Or sometimes detailed ideas
That you make come alive
If only you were here
For longer than this trite of hope  

You could even say
How madly in love I've been
With the thought that my head
Creates for us to blend
Or maybe it's this insane trend
I've started, falling in love
With the friend
Who doesn't notice
Our mouths are too close
To speak truths
That we once wrote

If you take me now Away from this future
That has only allowed
Nothing I prefer
As everything disappears

I weep I weep
Dreaming to differ
From dreams that offer defeat
Can you save them mister?

Something I once sought
Has only learned to rot
In this graveyard of vision
That's lead to failed missions.

So I am here
Escaping the day through you
Yet I am still pretty near
The fear of my failed connections
That have never stayed true,
Will it all repeat?

You once told me
Something so sweet
About how I could change
Those shadows that hover deep

I believed your wide-eyed stories
Your reassuring truths
But once I saw your teeth
They started to rot
I soon became the filth
Neglected under your tongue

They thought what a waste,
It wasn’t a cigarette burn

You had them put me out
You had them chanting
I was the cancer
That came in flooding
Only it was you that was fleeting
Having them believe
I was a habit worth quitting

I wish you here
to wipe the dust off my mouth

The new I miss you
doesn’t feel swell
I need your taste
so these bitter lips
stop feeding this limp world
It never was you
My muse.
it died long ago

I remember the letters
falling out of my fingertips
the touch of your hands
don’t feed my words
anymore
and its too late
To send a kiss
Redemption isn't allowed
once you turned away
on the person you were

Shame,
Its all I ever really knew
with my hands covered in sweat
trying to fill the void at 3 am
my palms wet

Give me more synthetic euphoria
injected by another nameless
Only I lie
it never was the *** that kept me high
it was escaping reality
that kept me sane

Until I lost sight
of my feet planted
I rose into the sky
came out of my frame
and broke apart

Seeing all the evil
being swept up
as I left
No more agony
as I died
This imminent death

Shame
was all I ever really knew
in my days alive
So death
Stopped the tidal waves
It halt the suffering
in wandering eyes
in surrounding voices

Once I was gone
the sickness became buried
with my hue covered grave
I wasn’t meant
for one beating heart
To keep me here  

It never would of stopped
this pain,
this shame was drowning me
from the start of dawn
to the death of light

Foolish me
For replying to your demands
Wanting to be understood
By the man who couldn't comprehend
Our minds were not good

Foolish you
For thinking you could escape
My grip was always so tight
My love will not run away
Tonight, I will hold you til the end
Tonight, I fight

Foolish truth
Is how I will never leave
The thoughts you bring
You not to subside
To be in my life,
Even if it not inside  

Foolish lie
Was thinking it never was you
Blocking out
What you hold so dear
The captivating essence
I just want to be near

What a bunch of fools
We created out of everything
This unknown heartbeat
With no ignite
Let's try not to retreat

Let's give it a shot,
This foolish love

Can I tell you my secrets
Can I feed you my lies
I don't belong here, it doesn't feel right
Let me escape into the night
While you look into my eyes,
Let me die at the knees of your shrine
I don't know what I want
But I know it's not to hold this light
Let me run, run away tonight

My fate, the blue face
My stomach turning to the sick pace
The tell of the end
As my heartbeat goes,
My skin turns
Say goodbye for me
As I should
Say goodbye to me
If you could
Let me rest
Let me go with ease
It was never the morning
That made me sick
Born to rot
Here with the return of the sick tongue
Everyday ******* in the death of tomorrow
Through these poison lips
**** me before it does
**** me before I slip
And I am taken without consent  
I feel it coming
Say goodbye for me
I want to say hello to the end