I can probably describe in detail
every time I've caught you with a
sad look in your eyes & every time
I've seen you hide a smirk
I can probably go back to all
of the times I've heard you laugh
and all of the times I've seen you cry
I can honestly probably even recall
every cute sneeze, every deep
yawn, every eye roll, every voice
crack, every text message, every
phone call, every hug, every unkind
moment, every sympathetic glance
I remember everything about
the people I love
and it hurts sometimes

I hate you when you warn me
Even though you think it's right
You're only trying to woo me
You only see your sight
You say that he feels nothing
Yet you won't tell me why
I'd like to be alone now
I thought I'd said goodbye
You know, this is my heartbreak
And I will feel it when it's here
Your heartbreak ages day to day
Let me feel my fear
If you can't prove I'm failing
Stop talking of my heart
I never felt the things you asked me
Lied to you from the start
If you cannot forget me
Then it's time for you to go
You say he doesn't care for me
The truth is
**I know

If I were to write a poem
To you
About what would it be?
Your eyes, your laugh, your smile
Your lips?
Or how drastically you've changed me?

~

If you were here
I'd cradle your head
And whisper sweet songs in your ear
I'd stroke your dark hair
You wouldn't go anywhere
Cause all you'd want to be is
Right here

~

If Fear was a man
He would cloak himself in Arrogance
It may keep him warm but
It is not a pleasant sight
If Thought was a woman
She'd cloak herself in Action
Peeling away each layer of Arrogance
From the Heart of Fear
She so desperately wished
To claim

~

I don't smoke
I don't drink
My parents are married
They're happy, I think
I have no diseases
No wounds on my skin
We believe in a God
That shelters within
We are loving and caring
I've all that I need
I am not a delinquent
I take most rules in heed
But when asked if I'm happy
What to say, I don't know
Most often I lie
Since my answer is no

I'm 15
Yet I'm older
And nobody seems to know
That I know things
Know I feel things
I should be afraid to know
I'm 15
Yet I'm older
And I wonder why that's so
Nobody will believe me
When I say
I know
I'm 15
Yet I'm older
Still they see a little girl
I feel hampered by this child
Trapped inside me is a world

Thinking back to the day when you were mine
How everything was perfect
Everything felt right
When I felt sad I knew just the sound of your voice would make everything quite perfect
I felt safe again
Loved again
Thinking back to the day I first saw you
Oh my was that a wonderful hour
Never thought that only 60 minutes could make me feel such love for another human being
Never thought I could care that much
Thinking back to when we spend all day together
I gave you something I can never take back that cold day in may
Funny how I remember all are dates
26, 19 and 11.
All those numbers play back inside my head leaving me cold and numb to the thought
Thinking back to the night you spelt over
Amazing I thought
Even though you weren't really mine
Just a boy I was madly in love with
Still am
You talked to much
And I kinda liked that
I kinda liked playing with your hair
Watching you play candy crush for a hour
Sleeping on your chest
Oh I loved that
More then your blue eyes
I've grown to love
Thinking back to when you left me
I told you I loved you and you didn't say it back as you drove away
Thinking back to me siting there asking myself
"Why can't he love me like I love him?"
thinking about every little thing you did and every conversation we had and every little lie you told that made me feel special.
Thinking about how I'm alone
Sad
Hurt
Every word that comes to mind
Heart broken
I'm heart broken
And I can't find the pieces to be whole again.

What is love?
I think I know what love is
I felt it for a boy
A cold hearted boy
Who didn't know what love was
How does one know their in love?
Does it come to them when their holding them?
Does it come when their fighting and holding back tears?
If love is such a powerful and beaufuil thing
How can you lie about love
"I love you"
People make such a big deal about those 3 little words
That sentence of lies
I know what love is
Cause I felt it
For a cold hearted boy
Who didn't know what love was

A week can start with blue
And end in red
A look can start at my feet
And end at my head
A day can start on the street
And end in my bed
A journey can start with a birth
And end when you're dead

Red hair
Everywhere
The water bleeding through the fabric of you
Red hair
Everywhere
I'm not sure if it's good or bad
But there's someting about you

We faded like fragments
White bed sheet tales now
We used to smoke like trains

I think I can, I think I can.

Ashed in each others hearts once or twice
But I didn't mind
With the sunlight on your face

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

I crept across the sheets
Looking at you hungrily
Your eyes danced down my back

The itsy bitsy spider went up the water spout

We collided without a sound
I watched your lips part
And muffled murmurs were all that escaped

Hush little baby, don't say a word.

But those tales are only tales
And these white sheets are empty now
I don't know why you left me

How I wonder where you are.

But I mourn for you like a dying lover
And while I do,
I long for another, to take your place

Miss Mary Mack, Mack, Mack. All dressed in black, black, black.

Yet no one aside from you,
Has taken the time to look inside
So, slowly, I find myself emptying

Ashes to ashes, we all fall down.

And so I wait. And I remember.