There's a noose around your neck,
where you've hung your expectations
Too high.

I flick through dog eared memory
each one high on LSD
and every memory wants to be
forefront in the gallery.
The winning post,the thinning host of
some achievements I'll not boast but
some,
yes some,
came unbidden on the morning sun
loading chambers in the midnight gun
to run like mercury,
but memory,by design for some and
like the bullets in the midnight gun
kills me
in the end.

Ours was less an Arab Spring
and more a half-hearted coup d'état.
There was no immolation,
no burning desire on your part;
no passion in the streets of you.

You stole in at night
through a window I'd left open,
a crack in my need
for something more than mere
existence.  From me there was
no resistance.

I let you lead, and followed blindly;
my voice I raised on your behalf
against all that I had known before.
Your words, your whispers
alone could incite me to storm
against the strongest walls.

Now, as summer comes
and this sectarian affair,
this spring uprising
that we called us has ended,
I sweep the streets of our debris
and wander down
the empty avenues
of you, half-hearted.

r ~ 6/5/14