To put it chemically
Sodium hydrobromide
I hide
What I can't confide

There was an old man with a cat
It slept inside of his hat
He went one day and to his dismay
He found his head was covered in skat

I don't want to drink or think or ink,
I don't want to wash or sleep or take a single second away from the truth that I've hurt the person I care about more than I could ever comprehend.
You mean everything to me and I've undone the fabric of my own existence,broken my own reality,and for what?
Some stupid twisted episode?
I'm a ******* loser,I lost my life,my future wife,to experience strife,like a mug.
I sabotaged my own happiness because I see nothing but a single moment and flare up like some pretentious *****.
God I'm sorry,
I'm hurt and I deserve it.
You deserve every happiness in life and I brought you pain.
I'm nothing.
I'm glad you realised that because without your push I would of held you down,
I love you so much that i'd hold you back with idiocracy,some twisted ideal that it'd all be fine,you'd be mine but i'd stop you from being happy and you deserve more.

Black eyes
Lose ties
I dispise
My demise

Its high time
That I mime
That I'm fine
While I'm dying

I won't leave you there
Bare
Pulling out hair
With a cold stare

So I'll say
For today I'll stay
I'll play
You can have it your way

The way she moves,
Hugs and kisses
Makes me happy,
To call her my missus
So very soft spoken,
Like a a voice on the wind
Yet still full of power,
Not an ounce of it thinned
She gives love in abundance,
Though I can be hard to see
But I know that it's there,
After all she's still with me

I'll just sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self hate
Inebriate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Am i antiquate?
I estimate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
I hesitate
And instigate
But mostly I sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self isolate
And moderate
But mostly sit and wait

Washing machine whirrrrr
And its obscene that I'm obscured
I did what I did
As I do what I do
I hid what I hid
Now what am I gunna do?
It taste like it felt,so good
When they find out,trout pout,I wish they would
Say something more than nothing
Amount to something
Maybe a few more words
Like birds
Flying
Lying dying
Any more than eating alone
At home
They come
And take it away
My way
My day
Without asking if I'm grey

Genesis: a childhood of isolation and growth.

Chronicles: adventures,and lovers and friends.lives come and gone.

Psalms: the poetry spoken,written and thought.

Proverbs: the wisdom heard,learnt,taught.

Acts: the history of these things.

Followed by;-

Revelations: that we are not so different from that everlasting living text.

Fetid water
Restless slaughter
Twisted trees
A list that reads :

1,Gather up the bodies bare
2,Singe off all the excess hair
3,A little trim and stitch here and there
4,One fine coat fit to wear

Sitting his dark swamp hut
An artist down to every cut
The finest leather on the ****
Carefully pulling each hem shut

A sob and rattle from a cage
Ah,a new victim young in age
We don't know how they ended up here
But id like to make it very clear

That once you stumble into this place
No escape,reprieve or grace
This is where they always perish
So keep away all you cherish.

Love is short
Tastes so sweet
To the tounge tourte
But you will eat

It touches lips
And rush an osphagus
Laidies think of hips
While men want them on top of us.

Hello brain,I see you're having trouble,how can I help?
I see,you'd like me to drink enough white cider to dull off that intolerable pain in the chest.
Will that help you work through all these thoughts?
Oh,it will still you also.
Well in that case I'd be happy to feel numb for a while.
No,no,don't thank me,its my pleasure.

When you need them and they're not there,
Because they're too busy or just don't care.

My dearest friends
For whom I care so much
And all my gentle lovers
Of whom I wish to touch

I must take this time
On a wasted past
A glass stands empty
A rope held fast

Broke the rule
Lost my cool
Played the fool
Like a tool

Ignore it,they're just words.

It isn't true...

But it does hurt.

Friendship,loyalty,trust,honour,respect...

Are they just words too?

I just don't know what to believe anymore.

He slams his ****
In a proverbial door
What did he do it for?
He's not so sure
He sits and thinks
And drinks
And sinks
The pain
Reaching so deep inside
Because he lied
He promised himself
He wouldn't slam that door
On his ****
What did he do that for?
He's not so sure
Clutching at that
Blood soaked swell
Even ice doesn't help
His hell
All others see and can tell
He shut his own **** in the door

All the kittens
Soft and warm and catlike
Tiny wrestling,between siblings
Is too ******* adorable

Permeate the impermeable
Set your goals,smash them all
Run your race and if you fall
Get back up and stand tall

Both blessed and stressed
On the road to be the best
You'll be hard pressed
From last minute designs
To last minute cancelation
And the relentless perpetuation
Of traveling across a nation

Snap me
  Back to reality
     Like twigs
        Broken underfoot
             I am just something
               Below you
                  And I never once
                      Deserved to be secure
                           Or happy
                              I can live with that now

Pared off
May as well be like your hair,scwattzkoft
Except that your a toff
And I know,that I have scoffed

Wanna get close to what you are
No matter how close,but you're so far
I'll bang a different jar
Compared to a ton of tar

Get inspired or intimidated
Metal outlook is reciprocated
You don't wanna lose when you could have made it
You know the game and played it
Sucesess that you coulda tasted
If you move on from getting extra faded
Dreams and actions should be amalgamated
Through all the doubt and fear to be waded

I am not a blanket,I am not there to comfort you.
I am the raging storm,I will weather you,I will try to break you and if you can survive being in my presence then you are a warrior.
you will be deserving of the warm sun that follows the rage of my heart and the ruthless passion of my mind.
I am a ******* hurricane.

I don't really know what to do anymore
I'm not sure I was right when I walked out her door
I just couldn't take that look she wore
So I walked,head slumped,stared at the floor

Got on my bus and rubbed print off my ticket
If there was a moment to feel it I would not have picked it
Heart broke in the midst of this ****
All talking did was make her want to quit

There's only so long I could give my all
And I'll tell you now it took all of my Gaul
Spending so much time staring at a wall
So now I'll wait instead for her to call

I gave her everything she asked of me
Would she do the same? Let's wait and see
I want this to work,perfect as can be
But I think she may quit,delete,and then flee

What are these memories?these dreams of tomorrow?
For what purpose do I spill this sorrow?
Why do I shed tears for something that we never got to live
Soul bore bare and for actions you should not forgive.

Let's just pretend for a second that everything is okay,
Maybe I will finally take my coat off after days of sitting in one place,
Or maybe I'll realize I'm lying to myself.
Sadness reaching up my throat but I choke on a thousand things never said,I doubt I'll say them either.
For my hearts sake id persure happiness but for her sake I should keep my distance.
**** this selfish heart of mine holding fast to her words.
**** this selfish brain replaying memories.

I have
            not yet finished
But the love
                       i have is diminished
Its not
             that I'm giving up
Its that I think
                          I've had enough
Now I'll give
                        only what I get
Which is not a lot
                                on that I'll bet
I require
                what's worth fighting for
Not what leaves
                              me rotting to the core

A million
Drops of vermilion
Leave the place I like to hide
Sick of all the fears within

I don't want to be alone
I guess I should of grown
Deep down inside
I already know

That this is the real world
I couldn't hold a real girl
Stretch,from being furled
Shake of the feeling of being whirled

Find a right head space
Get my own place
In God find grace
Go at my own pace

A single phalange bringing her to greater moments in a lesser time than she as a solo could achieve.
Ego swells,"I'm doing it",as I work out the the correct rhythms to the perfect woman.
I define this as intimate success.

Beat me in the head with ignorance
Belittle me with mediocre intelligence
Enslave me with remedial tasks
Hide my individuality behind these masks
Uniqueness no more than a meme
No more real than a life infront of a screen
Vapid bleating without passion
Trivialities such as celebrities & fashion
The pressure to assimilate
And self hate,an apathetic state

Thoughts got me stone cold
Am I old?
Am I bold?
My soul,have I sold?

Is it supposed to be this hard?
Have I average yard?
Was I deserving to get pard?
Why is my emotional state easily scared?

So what's the ******* issues?
Aside from poetry I misuse?
Because I can't use a box of tissues?
I'd rather drink and hear the king blues

I'd rather be a well dressed *****
Not quite right and kinda thick
Work hard and get the stick
For not ******* blood like a tick

But do I want a tie for a noose?
A wife that's scumbag loose
With a face just like a moose
And the temper of a ****** off goose

Well maybe I'm better of here
Sit and drink more beer
At least my own life I can steer
And early mornings absent of fear

That's obviously apart from nightmares
I have real issues with those scares
I'm not talking being mauled by wild bears
I mean being nailed into funeral wares

Lowered into the ground
No exit can be found
Why cant I make a sound?
Oh that's right,previously I drowned

Fukit I'm just worm food
A self taught learned dude
More than enough years I've brewed
Its pretty clear from here I'm *******

I'm under so much stress
They wouldn't second guess
No matter how good I dress
That I'm still a ******* mess

My mind seems quite disbard
Emotional ******
But 20 plus roses
Get a free card

And..maybe a note to say
"I love you"
Well *******
Well who knew?

I'm slowly losing my mind
Hit pause,
Break for a second
Rewind...
...I'm fine

But I'm not though
I wanna stop bro
Thoughts so hot? No
I've got to go.

Repressing the feeling
Its not so appealing
That I'm still hear breathing
This life is deceiving

Yeah I'm a state...
I'm irate...
Self masticate..
With four tinnies like a reprobate.

So who am I now?
Will I figure it out?
Will it all just be doubt?
Deep though,sat with a pout.

**I'm out

One look at you
And I fell
Clean into
The seventh circle of hell

Subltle,smooth
Quite and sharp
Light he way
When it is dark

There is a fine line between heaven and hell
The line is so blurred I can no longer tell
Much like the angels,from grace one third fell
A fortune as such is perplexing,oh well

The sorrows black hole as love turns to hate
Scrambling frantically emotions negate
Lift up the heart for the wish to elate
It clearly takes two of pure love to equate

I am not a boy
Nor am I a man
I am a sullen creep
From my problems I have ran

I like feeling broken
Jus like a token
A **** that's stolen
Yeah

When you decide to give your all to just one person
Make sure they're in it too or you'll worsen
If they backhand you with lies and decipt
Take 'em back to the store with receipt
Cos they're faulty, they're broken not you
Don't except less just because they can't show they love you