Pared off
May as well be like your hair,scwattzkoft
Except that your a toff
And I know,that I have scoffed

Wanna get close to what you are
No matter how close,but you're so far
I'll bang a different jar
Compared to a ton of tar

I like feeling broken
Jus like a token
A **** that's stolen
Yeah

Snap me
  Back to reality
     Like twigs
        Broken underfoot
             I am just something
               Below you
                  And I never once
                      Deserved to be secure
                           Or happy
                              I can live with that now

Beat me in the head with ignorance
Belittle me with mediocre intelligence
Enslave me with remedial tasks
Hide my individuality behind these masks
Uniqueness no more than a meme
No more real than a life infront of a screen
Vapid bleating without passion
Trivialities such as celebrities & fashion
The pressure to assimilate
And self hate,an apathetic state

I don't want to drink or think or ink,
I don't want to wash or sleep or take a single second away from the truth that I've hurt the person I care about more than I could ever comprehend.
You mean everything to me and I've undone the fabric of my own existence,broken my own reality,and for what?
Some stupid twisted episode?
I'm a ******* loser,I lost my life,my future wife,to experience strife,like a mug.
I sabotaged my own happiness because I see nothing but a single moment and flare up like some pretentious *****.
God I'm sorry,
I'm hurt and I deserve it.
You deserve every happiness in life and I brought you pain.
I'm nothing.
I'm glad you realised that because without your push I would of held you down,
I love you so much that i'd hold you back with idiocracy,some twisted ideal that it'd all be fine,you'd be mine but i'd stop you from being happy and you deserve more.

Genesis: a childhood of isolation and growth.

Chronicles: adventures,and lovers and friends.lives come and gone.

Psalms: the poetry spoken,written and thought.

Proverbs: the wisdom heard,learnt,taught.

Acts: the history of these things.

Followed by;-

Revelations: that we are not so different from that everlasting living text.

My dearest friends
For whom I care so much
And all my gentle lovers
Of whom I wish to touch

I must take this time
On a wasted past
A glass stands empty
A rope held fast

When you need them and they're not there,
Because they're too busy or just don't care.

A single phalange bringing her to greater moments in a lesser time than she as a solo could achieve.
Ego swells,"I'm doing it",as I work out the the correct rhythms to the perfect woman.
I define this as intimate success.

Black eyes
Lose ties
I dispise
My demise

Its high time
That I mime
That I'm fine
While I'm dying

I won't leave you there
Bare
Pulling out hair
With a cold stare

So I'll say
For today I'll stay
I'll play
You can have it your way

I'm under so much stress
They wouldn't second guess
No matter how good I dress
That I'm still a ******* mess

My mind seems quite disbard
Emotional ******
But 20 plus roses
Get a free card

And..maybe a note to say
"I love you"
Well *******
Well who knew?

I'm slowly losing my mind
Hit pause,
Break for a second
Rewind...
...I'm fine

But I'm not though
I wanna stop bro
Thoughts so hot? No
I've got to go.

Repressing the feeling
Its not so appealing
That I'm still hear breathing
This life is deceiving

Yeah I'm a state...
I'm irate...
Self masticate..
With four tinnies like a reprobate.

So who am I now?
Will I figure it out?
Will it all just be doubt?
Deep though,sat with a pout.

**I'm out

Only shadows and self doubt surround me
Logical impairment around me
I try to break something real
But life is a bad crack deal
I stab myself in the chest
Not impressed,self digressed
Get so stressed
What's for the best?
Am I really real though
Work for a little doe
Drinking tinnies of the beer bro
Mind moves slow
And I've got to show that I've got to go
...so
Am I a real man?
Or some artificially created man in a can?
On a life's ban no tan of a bleeding sun on our skin
What is within?
But sin?
I begin
To move a step forward into the shadow
And you know
How you grow so go bro
Grow slow,so you pro

I'll just sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self hate
Inebriate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Am i antiquate?
I estimate
But mostly sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
I hesitate
And instigate
But mostly I sit and wait
Sit
And
Wait
Self isolate
And moderate
But mostly sit and wait

Cut out the pain
With a deep contusion
Its driving me insane
Destroy me,the final conclusion

Each slice made
With phenomenal precision
Dermal lays wade
Depth the decision

I don't mind if I pass
I want you to know
I chose a good knife not glass
Ready
          Set
               Go

There is a fine line between heaven and hell
The line is so blurred I can no longer tell
Much like the angels,from grace one third fell
A fortune as such is perplexing,oh well

The sorrows black hole as love turns to hate
Scrambling frantically emotions negate
Lift up the heart for the wish to elate
It clearly takes two of pure love to equate

A true master matches his skill to the challenge.Whitt to whitt,mind to mind,emotion to emotion.
When you walk a mile one way in resistance,then i,my dear,will walk a mile the other way.until the vast expance is to far to feel.
The closer you move in the closer I will come,I will bind my heart to yours given the option.
As tides I will go in and out with you in love.
But if there is more out than in then the shore will one day no longer kiss the sea.

The sun the moon the stars
The shades of purple between Venus and Mars
The moments should be ours
Not hagared mental scars

The look of love upon your face
The permanence and grace
The outfits made of lace
Love grown strong as base

The fear of loss and doubt
That we could live without
The hard liquor and the stout
The disapproval shown as pout

Blame me mum
All the tings that ive done
I come
And from next chick I run

I don't want to be the the man in a heavy state
Irate
Drop the beat I'm a reprobate
I escape

I'm got myself together
I'm clever
No matter the weather
Whatetever

Instead of me
I'll do another girl
Its for free
I'll leave my body furled

I'm not ready to die yet
Mind set
Mind ***
I'm vext

But I'll die soon
I'm a loon
A cartoon
Its to soon,boom

Love is short
Tastes so sweet
To the tounge tourte
But you will eat

It touches lips
And rush an osphagus
Laidies think of hips
While men want them on top of us.

Cut still beating heart from chest
Press hard break breast
Twisted spine,emotion pine,"I'm fine" I'm lying.
Crushing bones of cadavers love,black mist of decay
**** me,**** me,**** me
Oh wait you did,reanimated corpse,staggers through world of gray,carrion picked to the last by vultures of memories that I cannot leave behind.
Dwindling soul,abandoned hope,jump ship,awash in a sea of misery.
Just drown,just drown
Sinks down,sinks down
Deeper into the black,the sharks eat their fill,I lay still.
For all the pain not a sound apart from that of broken dreams,shattering against the words " its over".

Twelve sentences
Thats my whole day
But **** it I'll settle any way
Clinging onto words you say
Its not much
Like the minimal touch
Double dutch
Press down like a clutch
Switch gear
I'm hear
But you're gone
So long
I was wrong

Permeate the impermeable
Set your goals,smash them all
Run your race and if you fall
Get back up and stand tall

Second day without a drink
Mind is heavy so much to think
Its so hard to abstain
But for my son I could not remain
In a state of perpetual drunk
So I'm dragging my sorry *** out this funk
I could really use the comfort of my partner
But she is dry without choice and finds it much harder
So I'll sit and I'll shake
I'll cry and I'll brake

But I won't give up,not this time.

Sing the sound of the broken
Force the sound from the diaphragm
Draw out the pain from soul to paper
Lay it out as a diagram
Paint the wall with raw emotion
Create an environment if you can
Study it with close inspection
Its all part of a greater plan

I am not a boy
Nor am I a man
I am a sullen creep
From my problems I have ran

There was an old man with a cat
It slept inside of his hat
He went one day and to his dismay
He found his head was covered in skat

Subltle,smooth
Quite and sharp
Light he way
When it is dark

Don't go across the street
But go down it
When you rip the meat
You can't clown it

All I want
Is what's for the best
Got nowt to flwant
It just a test

I'm out this life
I'm out for gawd
Thank creator for my wife
And my dawgs

Each
And everyone of is my mans
But I won't won't hang around
Unless you show a ****

** goodbye

Both blessed and stressed
On the road to be the best
You'll be hard pressed
From last minute designs
To last minute cancelation
And the relentless perpetuation
Of traveling across a nation

I am going to hack a wound so deep it could end me
I'll do it in a place where none can see
Just incase it doesn't cease me to be
But I'll try **** hard to be set free

Flowers bloom
Flowers die
Some are beauty
Such as my

Sweet scented
Wild and alive
Cover pastures
It which we writhe

Gratious,fine
Soft and fair
Unlike those flowers
My daisys better bare

Fetid water
Restless slaughter
Twisted trees
A list that reads :

1,Gather up the bodies bare
2,Singe off all the excess hair
3,A little trim and stitch here and there
4,One fine coat fit to wear

Sitting his dark swamp hut
An artist down to every cut
The finest leather on the ****
Carefully pulling each hem shut

A sob and rattle from a cage
Ah,a new victim young in age
We don't know how they ended up here
But id like to make it very clear

That once you stumble into this place
No escape,reprieve or grace
This is where they always perish
So keep away all you cherish.

The river was,afraid you see
That it wasn't destined for the sea
So the sea replied wittingly
"I am you,and you are me."

One look at you
And I fell
Clean into
The seventh circle of hell

Goodnight,goodbye,so long
You're not worth a line of song.

"baby,let's have ***"*
To reply,what comes next?
I want to talk deep about me and you and trust,
About marriage children,hopes and dreams and us.
To taste your skin would be bliss,
But to be entirely open?I want this.
Just me and you with no boundaries,
And because of this I'm glad you found me.

I am not a blanket,I am not there to comfort you.
I am the raging storm,I will weather you,I will try to break you and if you can survive being in my presence then you are a warrior.
you will be deserving of the warm sun that follows the rage of my heart and the ruthless passion of my mind.
I am a ******* hurricane.

What are these memories?these dreams of tomorrow?
For what purpose do I spill this sorrow?
Why do I shed tears for something that we never got to live
Soul bore bare and for actions you should not forgive.