You may have had your suspicion but your suspicion is wrong
it’s not that I fell out of love
but that I fell out of time
not enough hours in the day
to let you say what was on your mind
and you must’ve thought that I’ve given up or had lost my care
but my thoughts were for you
in this cloudy air
I left the fight
I left you there hoping to be forgotten the way I always am
I want you to be happy and free again
To not argue with me anymore
And let you have peace
but like I said I’m usually wrong

I wanted to give you the world
to let you live on ease
My whole life went and swirled
But with all my books and fees
I have to work hard
to provide an easy life
but I feel I left you scarred  
I wanted  you as my wife
I’m sorry you’re gone
but nothing will mend
because time moves on
and I will continue to work until the end
I’m sorry that so
I wish it weren’t true
I felt that I left you low
so I stayed away from you

Every hour I pinch myself trying to wake up.
Just to realize that I am already awake.
Going on with this nightmare, that used to be a dream.
Loving everything I had, just for this nightmare to come that I am living right now.
I know I messed up, I know I don't deserve you.
I should've paid more attention.
Solved the problems going on, not just ignore them.
I should've made sure that the ring stayed on, not as a promise, but because it showed my love.
But I ignored that and took for granted what I had.
And lost it possibly never to come back.
A bad person I may be, Problems I have done.
I want this nightmare to be over.
But I know it has just begun.
For I may never be able to wake up.
Because the reason I am here is for the **** I have done.
I want to turn this back into the dream I had.
When I had time to try again.
For the love I had is gone now and I know I'm the reason.
Wanting to do it over and start again.
But now I have done it and lost it all.
Stuck in this nightmare wanting to wake up.
But may never be able to, because I messed up.
Feeling terrible but know I can't fix it.
Which feels worse being that man to fix everything and make it work again.
Now knowing that I may never have my dream back again.
With the woman I love.
The woman I want.
The woman I need.
The woman I lost.
I'll continue to fight everyday,
I'll continue to try to wake up from this nightmare I caused.

I'm sorry its been so long,
I'm sorry I'm not as strong.
I'm sorry I'm so busy with my job,
But baby please don't sob.
I want to do us better,
Therefore I write you this letter.
For me its been tough,
For you its been rough.
I'm sorry to keep you at a distance,
But my love for you has no resistance.
I swear I'll do my best,
Or you can leave me like the rest.
But baby please don't leave me,
I don't want you to flee.
Baby please hear me plea,
And accept my apology.

I can't do this anymore
The lies that have been said
Is bringing me to my knees
I can't see an end
So i think I'll make my own

I don't want to let you go
For I miss you before the goodbyes
I drive home looking at the empty seat
I know it'll be filled tomorrow
But that's too long to wait
I go home and hold this pillow
In hopes for when I wake up its you
One day it will
You'll be there when I go to bed
You'll be there when I wake up
You'll be there when I come home
When I'm sick you'll take care of me
When I'm upset you'll make me laugh
When I'm old you'll be by my side
I'll love you till the day I die and then I'll search for you in heaven or hell
Till I find you again and love you till the end of eternity
You may not believe me till the rings on your finger
Soon that'll happen and you'll finally believe me
But for now,
I'll continue to tell you I love you a thousand times a day
I'll continue to hold this pillow and hope it's you
I'll continue to look forward to see you sitting next to me in that once empty seat
And after all this I'll continue to love you till you're forced to believe me
And it all starts now with an I love you