Every hour I pinch myself trying to wake up.
Just to realize that I am already awake.
Going on with this nightmare, that used to be a dream.
Loving everything I had, just for this nightmare to come that I am living right now.
I know I messed up, I know I don't deserve you.
I should've paid more attention.
Solved the problems going on, not just ignore them.
I should've made sure that the ring stayed on, not as a promise, but because it showed my love.
But I ignored that and took for granted what I had.
And lost it possibly never to come back.
A bad person I may be, Problems I have done.
I want this nightmare to be over.
But I know it has just begun.
For I may never be able to wake up.
Because the reason I am here is for the **** I have done.
I want to turn this back into the dream I had.
When I had time to try again.
For the love I had is gone now and I know I'm the reason.
Wanting to do it over and start again.
But now I have done it and lost it all.
Stuck in this nightmare wanting to wake up.
But may never be able to, because I messed up.
Feeling terrible but know I can't fix it.
Which feels worse being that man to fix everything and make it work again.
Now knowing that I may never have my dream back again.
With the woman I love.
The woman I want.
The woman I need.
The woman I lost.
I'll continue to fight everyday,
I'll continue to try to wake up from this nightmare I caused.