I threw everything around my room only to break down and slam my fists against the carpet
he looked at me and said he couldn't believe the person behind these eyes was his
and I finally believed for once that he felt lucky to have me that he believed I was his favorite
and possibly, in his world, the most gorgeous woman there was and now he seemed to ruin me
with that tease, I wished to slap him and make him regret it: my mind began
to laugh at me, the world was darkened and I called out to spirits and I began to
see visions, feel a higher energy tingle around me, kicking a hole in the wall
while smashing my fist against my pillows and to sleep, no sleep, wanted to stop eating
thoughts of suffocating myself with the blankets under the pillows,
no one would find me: my mind colored grayscale, thoughts no onewould miss me, thinking he would
move on, ******* eyes, want him to need me; now I can and I will make you need me,
I will be more terrifying: the faces you made as I rode you and slammed
my big derriere on you, that look you made when you thought about me, the one behind
these eyes, is truly yours, the way your eyes softened to see my hair out,
cleavage out, crawling around towards you: ten more times, feeling
rings around your mouth, make him need me. it will sting, it will hurt,
it will feel good. you will live. i will make you alive. resuscitate. he likes that,
he likes that. really I just wanted to bruise him again, leave myself on him again,
on him again, leave myself, once more, to leave my mark on him, physically this time: I said I would no
longer claim, but I will leave myself on him, let him see my love on him, let him release; oil and acrylic
make him kiss my pacifier, kiss my ring, he said it, himself, I can do anything to him,
blossom wherever I want, no more sorries, **** the nightstand, resembling: he will start to show me why he believes, almost wanted,
for months I floated around wanting to be his little girl, for once
I finally, felt he had took me in as his own: tongue, hands, eyes,
he's beautiful, beautiful and beautiful, his eyes, his cheeks turn red, he smiles
to ask for those linens, silks, raf simons, antwerp six, show me that quality and that price tag you so condone, not out of a want for material, but for proof and for repentance of your sins to me
circustry, tentistry, ancestry, history, recently
TALK TOO MUCH, HE'S TOO CHATTY