My life is shaken down to the core.
Can't take being with you anymore.
All these thoughts racing, I can barely breathe.
I wish it was easy for me to leave.

And I actually try,
to keep what we have, still alive.
Have you forgotten all the ****,
that I've gone through, just to be with you.

Oh I've, seen the light,
can you help me makes things right?
Oh I've, seen the light,
can you help me make things right?

And you put on your pretend mask.
Why do I bother, why do I even ask?
Nothing is ever going to change.
The puzzle pieces can never be arranged.

And I live in my head,
where my dreams are not pretend.
And for once, I feel loved,
too bad it's not reality.

Oh I've, seen the light,
can you help me makes things right?
Oh I've, seen the light,
can you help me make things right?

Oh I'm, losing sight,
can you help me makes things right?
Oh I've, lost all sight,
can you help me see the light?

My life is shaken...

Back against the wall,
advancing,
towards me,
there's no way out of here,
except for down.
I can't escape.
I can't fall down.

I will not fall again,
emotions flee,
to parts of my mind,
that I can't find...
I'm through with,
your games.

I'm leaving,
you and your game.
It's over.

I'm leaving,
before I go insane.
It's over.

Bring me back,
to sanity,
to sanity, yeah.

And I'll laugh,
as I finally,
I finally leave.

Never thought I would,
escape your game,
I was,
trapped for what felt like forever,
and ever,
but I got away,
and showed you,
I don't need you,
I am free,
I'm finally free,
so leave me alone,
alone,
forever,
did I make a mistake,
what am I to do?
Just promise me,
you'll always remember,
who I am,
because I will,
always remember,
you...

whiskey breath,
cigar smoke.

thick rimmed glasses
over those green eyes.

It is winter in the ******* she nibbled,
minus festivities, strained fibers
of holiday's lore seeking confinement
in sore redness between your nails.

Like the last fervent muffle
of whizzing domino lines
struck by spring's sprigs,
the numbers nip in low spirits,
blackened from speech and stubble.

Hardly is the slow breath worth
your angled chin a glimmer,
because when the sun
snaps at your chest like an egg,

little do you know
how it commits adultery
when you sleep,
and only when you sleep.

Patience is what we know
Smiles kept in a jar on the window sill

I* miss you's sent out into space

Luck, lust, longing and love
Ocean water is our distance
Voids filled with promised letters
Emptiness that makes the heart go numb  

Yellowed photographs hang on the wall
Observing the life that is living in front of them
Unnoted

It’s been two years since I asked you to be mine,
And 9 months since I saw the tears in your eyes,
Actually, I’m wrong, it’s been that long
Since I’ve whispered goodbye
But I’ve seen the rivers flow of cries
At least a dozen more times.
And though you lie
In the back of my fabricated mind,
Living your life as a scar,
But that’s just what you are to be,
You will never truly escape my body,
Your scent will never leave my nose,
I will never exhale every breath I breathed of you,
I will never stop feeling the skin of your stomach slid beneath my fingers,
And I let them linger, just so I could feel a sliver
Of your soul in its own shell
And now me in my own hell,
But this is what I deserve.
If you think back to me,
Think back kindly.

As we talked the tension kept rising.
Both of us removing the fog from our mirror,
Striping each other of our disguises.

You blame me for the things that you have done.
Throwing your body upon me getting an arise out of me,
Yet you say I sang the song you have sung.

You hate surprises this is no surprise to me,
Funny because every time I let you back in,
You surprise me!

Now you say I flirt?
That you worry about my connections?
Odd. My feelings are inert.

You give a hug to every guy you see, I wave casually.
You talk to them on and on, I give a quick hi and then so long.
You talk **** about me, when I am standing right there!
I don't dare but clearly you don't care.

You say it's over...
I don't know what you mean.
You say the conversation,
I disagree.
You shout a "No!" and say your sorry at once.
Another "I love you" thrown at me.
I repeat it back, as if I've been doing it for months...

My virginity
a security blanket,
I keep at the foot of my bed.

It doesn’t shield me from loneliness,
It’s purely for show.

I imagine limbs tangled in that blanket.
Our breathes mingling to create dream clouds.

Legs combining like tree roots.
A tentative hand and trembling lips,
The tangible reality of my nerves.

Sooth me with my favorite line from Jane Austen,
Darling I just might love you.

Hips grind against hips

We’re two halves of a love poem.
You, the undying love
Me, the inevitable disappointment.

Tonight, let’s take God hostage
throw Him in the backseat
have Him show us around town

We're "those kids"
spending our afternoons learning how to do handstands on nail beds
The ones that foresee failure and live in the moment
Sit on street corners and barter for advice

Let's treat this world as an etch-a-sketch
For we are nothing more than flecks of aluminum looking for a physical reaction

More like soul mates than friends
If you fused us all together you might have one functioning addition to society

Making wishes at 11:11

Looking for beauty in air,
We breathe out to give inspiration to sonnets

Dreaming of switchblades and palm trees, we sit next to the fire
Our feet shoved in embers, burning off the memories of passing Decembers

We pass a flask of whiskey and daydreams
Keeping our mouths sealed tight around the top

I keep your name buried in my vocal chords.
Afraid that with one soft vibration
All my confessions will come spilling out.

Your eyes close like a sunset.

I built a moat inside of my rib cage
So when you say that you will love me come hell or high water,
I pray that you are serious.

You sprawl across the floor spreading your limbs as far as possible
Simply to make yourself feel important.

If I had a nickel for every time that I thought of you, I would be five cents richer.
For you are nothing but a single, continuous thought
that weaves its way throughout my hours.

I leave Scrabble pieces everywhere I go
Spelling out my confusion with a handful of consonants.

Stripping off clothing and anticipation,
We go streaking through the city streets.

I take off my shoes and feel the gravel dig into my heels

You glance down and my ******* peak your interest.

A girl with priorities, I take a vow of silence.
Inhale. Exhale.
Gasping. Breathing.

I choke on our misunderstandings

I swallow your name.

A modern day Henry VIII
You royally ******* me over.
We get ****** up and my head starts spinning

You giggle out an apology...
                                                      ­                                                                  *******.

I k-k-k-keep re-reading the line above your eyebrow
Stupid, stupid boy.
I gag on the taste of your breathing,
Your face so close our eyelashes interlock.

Strumming your fingers on my rib cage,
you crack my chest wide open.

****, ribs, and heartbeats.
You embed yourself between my lungs
Pressing palms into my spinal chord.

You fill me until I threaten to fall apart, only to gingerly remove yourself.

                                                      ­                         *I think I'm growing up

To the girl with curls much longer than my own,

When approached by a boy, flip him off and spit in his face
Tell him you're a rebel,
a punk,
a lover.

Tell him that love is for suckers and
guys are only good for *******.
And even then it's a hit or miss.

Explain to him how you have violent urges to break things
Go into detail about why your parents didn't stay together
Get drunk and make out with his best friend

Respond to his texts with one syllable
Talk about how you're ready for commitment
(in the long term sense)

Insult his music,
his books,
his friends
and most importantly his morals.
If he doesn't fall in love with you, there must be something wrong...

After all, it worked on me