You'll no longer be my shadow,
In a world I thought was my own.
Blinded by my thoughts of living,
Not knowing what's real or a show.
Growing further from you mind,
Creating a new world in my life.
Falling in holes along the way,
But I can clean up after my mistakes.

I'm going to try and leave this behind,
And start off where I should have before.
Deep in my mind I know I can find,
The person I should have become.
I hope that out there someone will care.
I know that this is the real me,
And not something that you thought I should be.
I'm not some doll you want or need.
All I just want is to be free.

don't call out her name
she will not
there is a hole in the bottle
a blanket on the floor
the hallway isn't empty
shoes scatter when they fall
don't turn at the corner
or start towards the door
the light from the window
never reaches very far
shadows cast the grey
the grey narrows to a point
meaningless gradual losses
have taken her astray
don't turn away
you can't reach her anymore

i've been
ruined by disney
no princess no poetry
just stupid little girls
who use their beauty
to bewilder me
i gave this girl
my heart
she gave me
popsicles and icicles
i know it isn't much
it'd just be nice if
it was meaningful
to someone
just one time
it's alright
be honest
tell me
i'm your
sunshine
then i'll
show you
where my
heart is

i'm just another ******* with a god complex
i'm the best and i will never figure out just why
you left
me

-
oh hush shut up
you complain
too much
i got a penny
for your thoughts
but you told me
that's not enough
-

look
i like it when you never stop
the beat drops and then what
we woke up to the sunset on
an old stained rug
cuddle bugs in puppy love
with dumb luck
and dumb drugs

"oh hush. you complain too much."

but since you left it's different now
nothing's ever working out
it's not that things are bad
they just were better
when i had your smile
you knew that i was there for you
instead you hid your lies inside the truth

well **** your *******
and your pretty eyes, too

you're a goof and i loved it.
you want proof? i got nothin'.

here's a motto for the nice guys:
please, please, please,
let me get what
i want this time

I lost the one I love
The one I thought is for me
The one I treasured most
The one who set me free.

I looked back, thinking
What could have I done
For him to leave me,
What's left is none.

The skies these past days,
They're good to look at
With you by my side
On the grass we lay flat.

But with one nightmare
In that night I encountered
Feeling so unfair
Stabbing words delivered.

We fought with tears falling
The nightmare is indeed true
'cause we both were yelling
We didn't know what to do.

And yes it ended painfully,
The ending  we didn't want
But no matter what we do,
It's already irrelevant.

A second chance I begged
You stared blankly ahead
Expression can't be read
Like a person that's dead.

And the love just died,
Beautiful memories buried inside
Life just withered and dried
Forever in the dark I hide.

never wanted it to happen this way,
did not really think it could,
don't know what i was thinking,
now the blues have come, to paint
my whole day away, now i wake to
the blue walls all around me
what did i expect, never really
gave it much thought, not
known for being this way, did not
even clean off the brushes, or put
the tops on the cans, left it all
lying around, tripping over on my
way to the bathroom at night
wake you up with a start and
find that you never can fall back to sleep,
greet the morning this way, not after
being awake before dawn again, cause
the blues have come, to paint all my walls

This my declaration to you,
As the days drag on.
All the things that happen
From this point on--
This is hard for me,
I am paralyzed.
I’ll keep holding on to you,
For the rest of time.
I search to find a way to put it,
In your arms I am fine.
And you rock me well.
On your back, there rests
All the stacks you move.
On your back, there rests
All the tracks you drove.
On your back, they rest
And they weigh you down.
I will fix you in the morn.
I waited to replace the
Statue in the backyard--
It’s rusted now.
All my love was there.
See that flower blooming,
Under that tree?
With its vines weaving across
It holds the key to me.
Even though it’s small,
Whatever I can give,
It is all right here,
And it has brought me to this love.
On my back, there rests
The weight of your love.
On my back, there rests
All the ways you move.
This is not the only way to say,
Just how much you’ve meant.
It’s just a hazy realization.
There’s part of me you're rocking,
Lifting me away.
And the other part is sinking,
Deep into your back.

Turn off the lamp,
Switch off the fan.
Quiet these voices
Inside my head.
Don’t you lay here with me,
Don’t you tell me your lies.
Just let me sleep,
Alone tonight.
Don’t sympathize with me.
Because you can’t make me love you
If I don’t.
I can't force my heart to feel
Something it won’t.
It is dark in this room,
I can hear your words.
You make your case to me,
In this final hour.
But I don’t, no I don’t.
Because you can’t make me love you
If I don’t.
I’ll try to sleep,
Your face I don’t see.
It’s your body I fear,
When you’re close to me.
Sunrise will come,
And you’ll hold me tight.
Just give me some time,
To distinguish wrong from right.
And you can’t make me love you,
If I don’t.
Don’t you make my heart change
What it’s already been told.
In this dark room,
Your lasting words,
Begging for mercy
In this final hour.
But I don’t, no I don’t.
You can’t make me love you if I don’t.

I was walking on a winter's day
It was cold, and I was lonely
Wind to blow all thoughts away
.... too much for me right now

Will this be all there'll ever be?
Just to push against the wind
And feel the cold erosion?
And if that wind just disappears
Will that mean that I will fall...

...To fall and fall away?
A lifetime's walk to end this way
Looking for a fair wind.
My spirit still has silver wings
Will I fly away?