I was sitting in my basement thinking about my attic as I awaited the first bombs to drop in the next world war

I guess I'm pretty lucky to understand that metaphysically nothing really is unless we perceive it is so even death by chemical nerve agents can be a pleasurable experience that we come back for again and again

And that time I died before when the only metaphor would have to be trying to guide a wooden canoe across an active volcano

I can't wait to try that again

I fell in love with a fake moon
The sun was always in view
But I was swept up in tides
That were man-made

Not of the gods
Not of the inner voice I hear
That I know belongs to spirits

I fell in love with a projection
Of my favorite constellation
I believed in it so much
I forgot about the night sky

Where the answers are written in stars
And if you know how to listen
You can hear them

I fell in love with a lightbulb
I became a flower in a green house
And what I was reaching for
Wasn't the sun

I fell in love with a fake moon

"Yeah"
Said the said man to himself
"Everything's been done before"
I, a passerby, lucky enough to overhear
His sorrowful musing,
Compelling enough to stop,
Mid-stride,
And address him
"Sure"
I said in confidence,
"Its all been done before"
He smiled at my agreement
To his statement,
Made to imaginary friends,
And ghost,
I continued
"But I do everything a little bit differently
Than everybody else"

I saw a smile on his face

These stars in my heart
This magical space debris
Has always been a part of me
From the beginning
These scars on my skin
Merely constellations
That hold a deeper meaning
If you examine them closely

And I know who you are
We share the same scars

This light in my eyes
Shines like a jewell
Like stars in the night
Until I see connections
These scars on my skin
Become a story told
These meanings
Only stars can hold

And I know who you are

I breed radical change
In this world
No burden to great
No pain too debilitating
No fear of the death I know is waiting for me
I bring the people together
Under a banner
I fly my flag high
With enemies nearby
Stealthy trained assassins

I breed radical change
In this world
A change we are waiting on
It's all my thoughts
It's just the way I think
Unique, yet similar so you can relate
And we are different
But we're the same
Let me show you what I mean
Let me help you believe

I breed radical change in the world
I bring the change that's needed

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Tell me
                                                         When
You see
It

That if the doors of
Perception are cleansed            Everything
{What it really is}
Would appear as it
Really                                             Is
                                    Is
                       ­ Is                              INFINITE
           Is
Is
Tell me you see it
Existence


But
      We
           Live
                   In
                       World
                                  Of
                      ­                Lies
And we believe
In their
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Tell me you see it

Because I'm so inspired
Inspired as such
I retired before I made a dime
And joined a lazy river
A river like me
With no sort of aspirations
To ever reach the sea

I only want to look and never see

And to me its so inspiring
That time expiring
And we as ants march inexorably
Towards our greatest truth
The ultimate horror
With smiles on our faces

In our perfectly tailored military suits

And yet I'm so inspired
A comic strip without a caption
Just a fraction of the faction
And limiting my rations
Because I offend the captain
With my unruly actions
I'm double timing backwards

I channel Michael Jackson as I moonwalk into battle

My limbs
Waiting for the bloom
Stark and barren
In the heightened desolation that only seems to grow
I remember color
I remember flowers
I remember having a heart that was warm
I become the winter

My words
Used to be sugar sweet
Becoming rotten fruit
The death of what was beautiful when it was alive
I remember growing
I remember reaching
I remember feeling and having feelings
But I'm a soul becoming cold

I become the winter

Because I want to be strong I am weak
Those fickle petty rules by which we live
            Have made me sick
I'm not immune to having dreams and desires
When every better part of me
            Has been seduced
By the velveteen swans that flash as images in my mind
And on the plasma screens for which I bleed

And really I have grown
Grown sick and tired and exhausted
From breathing the air I need to live
The toxic vile air
Causing cancer
From drinking from the well
Which has been poisoned

I like my poison undiluted

I like my poison clearly marked
By sinister skulls and crossbones
          With the worst of intentions
I would actually enjoy the knowledge
That this poison in my blood
           Is going to reach my once enamored heart
Which used to beat with the hope for tommorow
And now is a rhythmic device in a song full of sorrow

And really I have died
Dangerous oderous chemical sand timers
I've died a thousand insecure lives
In a false world
With fake meaning
And my arteries and veins will attest
This disease is a foe that never rests

I like my poison undiluted

I rode a white steed
Across the netherworlds only to reach
I rode a white steed
A knight in shining metallic armor

I fought wars for the queen
I stormed the castle walls and razed them to the ground
I fought wars for her honor
Hers is a cause that I call noble

I rode a white steed
I fought wars for the queen
I was a knight in shining armor
I fought wars for her honor

And as I'm dying
Bleeding out slowly
On a raging battlefield
Cut down by mighty king Arthur

My blood on Excalibur's blade

I die in peace
Knowing my last thoughts will be
I rode a white steed
I fought wars for the queen

And then the night sky was alive
I imagined the fourth of July
Fireworks
And forest fires
And unidentified flying objects

Sky alive
I'm alive
And I celebrate
Because a fire I started
Burns out of control
Jumping from page to page
From soul to soul

And then my mind was alive
Running to and fro
Finding friends
And starting trends
While honoring old ones

I celebrate
Because the dam I blew up
Was enough to innundate
This stupid city

And if most are drowning
Im still pretty sure
There are some strong swimmers
Yet left amongst the survivors
Who aren't merely treading water

Sky alive
I'm alive
It's a celebration
City's drowning
So am I
A happy devastation

I cross the street
Without looking both directions
And then I get upset
When I get run over

I bleed
I leave bloodstains on everything
And when you love me
And then learn to hate me
Because then stains you can't remove
Become a memory
Of the times when you were wrong
When you knew what was right
And the demons on your shoulder
Spoke much louder than me
Because angels do not fight
They only show you light
In the hope that you will follow

And you can think
I wasn't strong enough
All my weakness
Was only meant to show
That the choice is really yours
And if I should lose
And watch you fall to darkness
I'll be a god
Who is forsaken once again

I bleed
And no matter intervention
Of the most divine source
I can only hope you believe

In the royal blood

I bleed