I got a new suit
A new Rolex
A new Dodge
For you
A bouquet glowing bright

I had as well a ring
It seemed like gold
It was so bright
But it couldn't compare
To your light

I was ready
To show you a new life
Make you my wife
I said to myself
"I'm gonna make it right."

But then I saw,
That's when I knew
I missed, how sad
I couldn't have you
I didn't even put up a fight

But whatever
I guess
Besides, I said after,
"I'll have a coke,
Cause I'm alone tonight."

At the bar,
Music rang
With sailors in hand
And then I realized
I had no life

I am alone
I am forgotten
But that's alright.

He's just a wallflower
Wilting by the hour
Has no life
And is always sour

He's hooked
He's turned
Can't stop himself
From enjoying it more

That 'it' ?
He is ashamed
Ashamed to talk
Ashamed to say

Degrade himself
Damage himself
Yet he seeks love
He craves feeling

She is not a person
She is an idea
She is perfection
She is an escape

She is his dream
The love he wants
The affection he seeks
A companion he can adore

He spends nights
Looking into nothing
But her light
Her glowing light

He looks at her
As God
And him devil
The shadow to her light

The joy he could have
That he chased her
Sought her
But no avail

He tried, tried
Traversing through
Halls and classrooms
Cafeterias and stories

Lovers lane?
Walks not there
Student Center?
Far from him

It doesn't matter
Who she is
She's his fix
His salvation

She's the reason
His temptation
The purpose of life
And her gone means death

Oh...oh why?
Why won't there be
The one I call  she?
One for me

He finally tries,
But she's not his
She's everyone's
And no one's

Lover to me
Lover to you
All have enjoyed her
One way or two

And thus,
He resides in his fate
He will never meet Girl
Before it's too late

I want nothing
I do nothing
I speak of nothing
I am nothing

I run myself
Ground into ash
Just to prove
I'm the one you asked

I am simply a tool
A piece in your design
The key to your light
Accentuating my shadow

A void I'm filled
Of grief and unbelief
That there's always
Someone greater

There's someone smarter
Someone stronger
Someone more charming
Or someone just better

I look in awe
How can you be so good
While I can do so little?
Why didn't I become you?

I see you
I hear you
You have life
You have a voice

For me, there's
No story on my lips
Or a flame in my heart
Just a vessel

A vessel to be felt
Filled by your goals
I'm your fool
And your the star

I am alone
I am forgotten
Not one I call
Or cherish for something

It's fine
I have many friends
Because I'm silent
Because I don't try

Well, I've tried. I've tried.
**** it! I've tried!
My twinkle was disposable
Because no one needed it

All I did
Was waste my time
Waste my joy
Waste my future

I did nothing
I see others
And I feel envy
How are you so merry?

How are you this?
How are you that?
Why go on your knees?
Why bow your heads?

I tried that as well,
But they'll never understand
They'll never know
They'll never appreciate me

Know of what you wonder?
I'm an addict
I'm a fraud
I'm a disease

A virus
That leeches off good
A soul
Trapped in an abyss

A walking corpse
A silent death
A study of void
A dirge of humanity

I want to die!
I've tried! I thought!
But didn't
I couldn't

Because I'm a coward!
Look at me!
I'm nothing
And a coward!

Death creeps for me
Calling me to where
I'll sleep, finally rest
Close my eyes to be blessed

I embrace the void
The sorrow, the pain
Please God
Let my spirit be drained

There's no bliss
There's no anguish
I hate my life
Let me vanish

Even Death
Might not want me
Please Death
Take me

Once I die
I'll smile
Then I'll know
If I was nothing

God, I'm too tired
Please let me join you
God, my father
Please let me go

Mom, please don't cry
Because I want to go
Sister, do not frown
You'll be better without me

Grandma, thank you
Dad, I love you
But I'm not sure
Of my existence

God, take me now
Let me embrace
The icy grasp
As death beckons

God, comfort those
Who'll miss me
When I finally
Have my peace

God, I'm tired
God, I'm done
Let me go
Let me drown

Take me to where
I'll be accepted
Either pearly gates,
Or scorching flames

God, embrace me
Forgive me
But this life of mine
Is truly empty