I want to earn it
Like the knights did the queens
Your love, heart and soul

The promise
of tonight
stirs within

Let it
soon
begin

It should be a crime to be me
This life a wasted effort in improving all others
An artificial defiance to the heavens
People so hopelessly look up to
Pray and waste there breathe believing
This life is synthetic
Pure and simple
But these emotions are raw and true

I play it off
Because I don't wanna seem
Weak
But you
And your little boy toy
Are horrible people
To trick me
To stick a knife in my
Barely healing wound
That deary can end the little friendship we had
And it did
I try to stay away
I cringe when you and him are near
I hate what he's made you
Hate what you've become
I live my life though
Knowing I told someone
Knowing I finally
Told the truth
And I smile knowing
You'll both burn in hell.

You and your **** smirk
Your aloofness
I was in search of a friend
And came across you
An evil
Fake, lying entity
Your eyes
Your look is that of
Satan's spawn
Your too complex
Your not bright
Your not kind
Your heart is colder than the artic
I want you to go
Leave for good
Don't come here now
You've already thrown yourself away
Now leave
No one cares
You wouldn't let them
So now your all alone
And I hate you
For fooling me
I hate that I once thought you were better
Than the absolute monster that you are.

I know shes "fragile"
But she doesn't know
How to be honest
How to be real
I hate her in silence
And I don't care
The lies will be her end
Her demise
She needs to get away
I see her and she's smiling
Flirting
Claiming to be broken
And if that *****
Knew better she'd cut it out
Because I know what it's like
To hurt
To ache
To be broken inside and out
And I think she needs to learn
Because this girl
Is a player of the worst kind.

Please
die.
So I can clean my room.
I need to distract our connection
for we cannot
get
that
close!
Where our souls meet
in perfect circles.
Become me!
Every bit!
And shall we never break!
Forever touch!
But what about my other connection,
he is more electric than you think.
His positive energy.
I have no choice but to follow!
And fall gently,
so gently
into you.
Happiness I mean.
Whatever you are
anyway.
A pretty picture
for the scattered mind,
to make my life
a whole again.
My awkward,
altered
reality.
As true as it is,
like the moon and my tiny planet.

THEN.

A blink passed
and it was over.
My tiny world,
it was gone.