You would order the same thing as always,
peanut butter on toast;
and tea.
You’d order the same for me.

Your hardened tanned skin,
your hair;
soft, curly, brown.
You would reach across the table,
dirt under your fingernails,
bruised knuckles,
your leather bracelet,
your favorite scratchy sweater,
and that old wooden guitar you took with you everywhere.

Maybe it’s the way you embodied everything I love,
your cinnamon smell,
your bear hugs holding me close,
the way your nose scrunched up like a rabbit’s when I kissed it.

Maybe it’s the way your brown eyes reminded me of chocolate,
or how you felt like a solid brick home.

Maybe that’s why the world went black,
not brown,
when you left.

I sit alone,
wooden table solid beneath my arms.

I drink coffee now,
with oatmeal on the side.

Before you fall in love with someone else
You must first
Fall in love with yourself

Fall in love with the way you snort when you laugh,
With the curve of your hips,
The gentle arc of your thighs,
How harshly your muscles stand out when you flex

Fall in love with yourself.
run your hands up and down your body,
Feeling every curve and dip
Fall in love with your knobby knees and dry elbows,
Your puns, your smile, your red ears.

Fall in love with yourself,
And then,
Only then,
Will you truly be able to love someone else

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First let it be known I wrote this sitting on the toilet of my favorite local Thai restaurant
With too much Jameson in my system and it has my head spinning
I said to myself, I'm in no condition for poetry so prose is probably the way to go
Tonight I saw children who blossomed from the same tree as I, reared on the same playground, with their neck's scarred from a noose of addiction, track marks in their arms and they're incapable to listen
I saw a woman so beautiful she gave me that crossed brain feeling of frustration and desire,
She had a bruise on her right arm from a man who smashed a bottle forcefully at her feet at the end of the night, I guess he didn't know she was beautiful
She didn't either
I saw an aging man gambling away his life savings, staring intently at a screen with scrolling numbers,
He was conservative in nature, didn't want to pay taxes as it topically came up, it is tax season
I saw a bartender spill two drinks, a bouncer who by no means wanted to fight anyone, a drunk drooling a puddle of discontent with life, a man lose 3thousand dollars playing pool, and a pinball machine that only one bumper worked, there was no out of order sign,
All of this moved in synchrony, but I'm sure that the only people who are happy right now are those in the embrace of another
And me?
Well I'm just ******* red curry and greatness

With endless love, we
left you sleeping.
Now  we 're  sleeping
with you.


  Don't wake up.

                                   X

i hope you breathe in enough carbon monoxide to **** you on your way to work.

Shed identities and leave them to clean them off the floor in the morning.

Its coming I can feel it

I am a male, a 16 year old male.
Who(LIKE others.) has a period. No I don't shoot blood from my body.
But I get pissy, I get angry, I get hungry, I get sad, and I get lonely.
The only thing I need is for those who won't help and tease me.
To ***** off.
And let me be myself.
All men have a period, some call it Meriod.
But don't use it lightly. We get ****** too.

I imagine you foal-legged on the first day of the week,
waking to meet the filtered morning
and sipping chai tea. I
watch you cross the persian carpet floor and
pick the person you want to be today.
The summer skin is now dried away, and
your powder face is ready,
the fresh peach cheeks
and the curve of a crooked smile
grow goosebumps on boys' arms,
as you swing yours to class.

Buried by insane deities
that live in single cell domains.
Insecure in the best ways,
holding on blindly without courage,
not brave, not adequate.

Pick up your textbooks and
learn how to fly with
your toes on the ground.

If you go searching for dinosaurs,
or particle physics,
you'll miss everything so terribly
gorgeous and lovely
about today.

And about today;