a
song
i
will
never
be
able
to
love
again...

Tomorrow is your birthday.
And all i can think about is how last year,
on your birthday we were together.

Tomorrow is going to be hell.
I can already tell...

the water i draw is scalding,
sending prickles up my feet to my legs.
slowly, i finally submerge.
i lay my head back, my feet on the end of the tub.
i hold my breathe and sink into warmth.
as i reluctantly come up for air.
i see steam radiating from my body.
yet, there is no pain.
my body, beautiful and powerful.
my soul.
broken.

I'm afraid our love will fade, with each passing day.

For you My Dear,
I would give you the world, or die trying.

You My Dear, are never the reason i'm crying.

My Dear, I have saved you once, and i would
save you again.

But know, you owe me nothing.

For You My Dear, i have a different kind of love.

You bring me joy under the sun.

I hate to hear you struggle,
I hate for you to think i am abusive
and cold.

For You My Dear,
I
Am
Open.

Openness is my kind of love for you.

I Love You.

For him, i feel differently than you.

He can break me, just as you, into two.

For Him, I long to be near.

For You Dear, I feel the same.

But the nearness i yearn for, for you both...

Are on different planets.

You are always going to be,
The one person i know will love me forever.

He, i hope and i pray, that him and his promises will stay.
But there have been so many hims, but hopefully, he is it.

But You My Dear, Are Altogether Another Thing.
My
Love
For
You,
Is
Innocently
Pure.

For Him,
I want things, thoughts that have just barely begun.
With him i want to share extravagant things.

But My Dear Sweet Child,
You
Come
Down
To
All
I
Need,
If
He
Shall
Fail.