I write you sweet *** love poems like you're the greatest thing that has ever occurred in my life
Then you **** me off and make me think twice
You're far more selfish than you think and I'm sick and tired of you always turning the blame on me
I've purposely done things to you that you've done to me just to see your reaction
And of course you never surprise me with your words and actions always looking for your own satisfaction
How am I supposed to be cruising on a one way street? In one direction by myself on my feet?
And yet you have the nerve to ask me, "what does this mean?"
Take care of home, you tell me, take care of home
We have no house we have nothing but the rotten chains holding us together seemingly forever so what fool says take care of home?
Leave me alone, I say, leave me alone
But you won't

And the endless cycle of love and hate begins
Don't be fooled; nobody ever wins
We ride the roller coaster over and over again until our hearts break so bad they're impossible to mend
And then I'm looking like a ******* because I can't figure out if I'm your woman or your crutch now tell me what is that about?

I could go on and on and you'll read this and tell me I'm wrong like you always do
Like you always say I turn things around to put pity on you
Like you always say if you're tired then leave
If you were the man you say you we're then you'd set me free, but no, of course not
It's always on me

a careful and a thoughtful kind of man
standing on the edge of all he knows
timing is the most important thing to him
counting all his reasons as he goes...

watching everyday as days draw near
how he'd like to leave it all right now
tomorrow holds the answer, soon it's yesterday
gone without a trace and this is how

a careful and thoughtful kind of man
standing on the edge of all his fear
waited 'til his boy was nearly nine years old
daddy taught him well to disappear.  

never let them know you're leaving town
spend some time and money on the kids when you're around
be sure to have your picture taken all together then
leave when they're asleep without a sound.

"Where you going Pa", your little man
turn around and see him in the porch light if you can
"I'll be back in just a while" is what he heard you say
watched his daddy slowly walk away.

here we go, another wasted year
thought about the reasons that you had to disappear
nothing's sounding sweeter than the ones you left last spring
timing is the most important thing

and I swear
I could tear my rib cage to shreds
if it meant I'd finally feel something again
*(nothing's really felt like anything
since us)

I saw the letters

that you tried to hide from me

infact... We all did.

I remember holding hands with you
I remember shooting rubber bands at you
I pushed you in the swing
And heaven's bells would ring
Memories make my yesterdays brand new

I believe I am the one
Who has your needs measured
Who answers every yearning
Coming from deep inside you
The mission I aspire to
Is only to fulfill you
It was assigned to me
Back when the stars were born
To be here for you only
My first quest and my last
Till oceans dry
And suns burn out

For some reason

I would love to heal

The distrust in your eyes