i am a white empty room and there is no 2 o'clock august light shining through my window.
i think it skipped me because it thought no one was home.
i say i live in a house with too many rooms.
and that things are not supposed to love you.
i want everything to happen to me as it happens.
i am 11:12 pm.
i don't really know much, but once i heard that your fist is roughly the size of your heart
and when flies fall in love their brain is rewired to know only loving each other
and when one of them dies the others brain goes blank so maybe, i'm a fly.
i was born in the year of the ox, the month of the bull, and the body of a white rose.
ripped from my home, and given to someone who does not love me.

Light it up and burn it away
You are my cigarette on this nice winter day
I'll smoke you til the very end, til you are burning my finger tips, til my eyes fill with smoke
I can't breathe

Don't do that

You remind me of everything bad in this beautiful world
You suffocated me
Is it because I told you about his hands around my neck
That you felt the need crush me further and steal the spirit I had left

Don't touch me

Somewhere within this tidal wave I trapped myself in
You stopped saying I didn't deserve it
You started saying it was my fault and in attempt to not be left speechless I agreed
You dripped blame on me while dangling my hope on your poisoned thread
The disappointments left me cold

Don't pretend

I would never, could never be good enough
I cut myself wide open and you left me here alone

Don't

I don’t want to say betrayal
And I don’t want to say let down
But don’t promise me you’ll be there
When you’re there to help me drown

You expect me to be perfect.
But this I'll never do.

I'm a killer not a queen.
Guess I'll never be you.

I choose to loathe, not love.
Hate you, instead of hear you.

Sweet Immortal? Why bother?
If you only rob her.

Of her soul, of her spirit!
Now you try hearing it.

The pains and the cries
While you just waste and die.

You mortals fall for her.

The girl with the red eyes can always read your mind.

You're blind to her world,
The Lonely Sweet Immortal Girl.

I want to swim in the stars

Not as an astonaught

not as in dreams

not in death

But as me

The heat of the stars lift me higher

and the only pain is that of

Loneliness

Then I'd reach back down to earth

Taking you in

my hands

then you'd jump

But don't forget to

Kick

For paddling is essential

to swimming

I'd teach you how to flip in the stars

we could even skinny dip

The possibilities require only that of faith

Faith that I'd catch you if you cramped

Be sure to wait ten minutes after eating

Then we'd dive

deep into a black hole

Holding our breaths

reaching the bottom of the stars

Would you like to play tea party?

Oh to swim among the stars

Our skin begins to

wrinkle

and our legs tire

So back down to earth we must go

But I'll be back again

With my hand out stretched

Waiting for you

to join me

in  swimming

in the stars

All the spoken words I've ever heard
And every journey written in pen
Gorgeous conjunctions and beautiful sentences
Are one combination of a 26 letter alphabet.
We are a mix of A's and T's, C's and G's
And not just the mix of scientific bases
But the actual letters make up a person
With a personality and a body and a face.
Every book to ever grace your hands
And every poem the danced in the mind
All the 'I love you's and the 'I regret nothing's
Every 'I miss you' to have been spoken in time.
We make friends with a combination of syllables
A different mix of two 'l's, an 'h', and two vowels
We end relationships with the horrible g-double o-d-bye
Quitting it all and throwing in the towel.
And somehow we overlook the simple fact
That everything we have ever been and will be
Is somehow linked together with these 26 sounds
Every fiber of our everything and piece of history.
So that little song you learned long ago
To the tune of one sparkling little star
Remember that every letter you know today
Makes up every fantastic piece that you are.

The sky is as blue as your eyes
Just look at how the sun shines
Every time you walk outside

Hours feel like minutes
Whenever you pass by
Excuse me sir
but, you caught my eye