You don't grow up
You learn to
Lower your cap
Hide your face
Your expression
And
Walk away,
Wordlessly

My mind is moving much too fast,
To ****** a slippery slumber.
So I'll ache and wait,
And watch my brain wither,
As loneliness quenches its hunger.

A half-remembered face
But so many important memories
What happened to all of them?
What makes me forget
The other
Half of this face?

I ran to your aid
When you called me late that night
I broke several laws on the way
Because I heard your screams
Before you even screamed

Am I the villian now
Because I wasnt fast enough
Am I as I opened the door
To your bedroom
And didnt flinch at the sight

There you were
Wrist cut open
Eyes rolling back
With your breath escaping
I tried to help

Am I the villian
Did I try hard enough
I loved you
You just walked out on it
And bled out for your mistake

Am I the villian
For telling you I loved you
For trying to make things work
I did my best right
So where did it go wrong

I wonder if you ever see me
Looking at you through the TV

You have the life
You've got it made
I hope to be in that place someday

I'm just trying to chase my dream
I want to make it a reality

You seem to be so high on life
Now please tell me, where am I

Where am I in this big ol' world
I feel so lost, alone, just a girl