In the distance I heard singing
a quiet empty hymn
In the daylight I saw shadows
Nice to see you, how’ve you been  
You walk me through your garden
While I hide from you my sins
I know I said I wouldn't come back  
but here we are again

I know it barely is enough
but its everything I have
to stand here waiting patiently
for you to let me in

I’m not saying I like the taste of cigarettes
I just need to be reminded
To breath deeply
Please, hold my soul while I light another match
Just in case I set fire
To the part of me I never cared for
And I’ll hold yours  
So I can start believing in the world again

would you miss the hours
if you never felt them go
would you miss the flowers
if you never saw them grow
would you miss the drink
if you never took a sip
would you miss life
if you never learned to live

Would you believe me if I told you
the world is on my shoulders
She cries for me late at night
So I stay awake to hold Her

I never meant to live like this
but I’m always glad I do
Because it puts the weight on me
And takes it all off you

But as I hold you in my hands
The world feels so light
That’s when I finally understand  
Why I continue to fight

Anxiously
Awaiting for what, I never know
Tried to find myself
But there are places I'll never go
Thought I made my way out
But I found my way back in
Gilded days I'm living
Swear to God I never win

And I spent all last night
Staring into my own eyes
Trying to find who I am  
I stay asleep all day
Hoping my dreams will give away
A person, a place, a plan

I’m losing myself
Becoming you

When you're not becoming me

Sometimes I want connection
Most times I want to be free