as i listen to the playlist i made for you
i go threw our memories
you should see me
crying , whiping on the floor whishing to go back
to your arms
i never knew how badly id miss your hugs
your smell
your voice
i wish you could see me crying , whiping on the floor
i wish youd hug me and tell me you love me

im in love with you
i gave you my heart
my soul
you are my everything
my heart is full of flames when i mourn over our end
i mourn every day
thinking about how i lost
my soulmate
the one person i dont want to lose
the one person i want to live forever

i want to go back to the first on july

i love english .
im not an english speaker , its not even my second language.
but i love it more than any other language in the world.
english is universal , and its whats beautiful about it .
i can cross oceans and continents with it.
i can reach you with it .

our birthdays are one day apart and yet ,
you never bought me a birthday gift .
you never cared enough to buy me a small gift , even when we had a party with all our friends .
you never took one hour out of your day to search for someting that i will keep for the rest of my life , because you know how speacial you are to me.
you buy gifts for people you know for 2 years but not me , who was by your side  , threw thick and thin , for the last 5 years.
its not about the gift anymore ,
its about how much you care ,
and you dont care at all.