we walk boldly
through a world
where we can be killed
by a drop of water
a grain of sand

we move mountains
and destroy rivers
determined to become gods
burning down eden
to tear down the stars

but in all our power
we are like children
alone in the night
we tremble
at the open question of darkness
and weep with naked fear

Weave my thoughts
Words like threads
Speak
I am your marionette

I see what love does
it scares me

I tried to find a way around love

but that hurt more
than the other
kind of
pain

I have to love
it is part of my brain

maybe I can find a way

around the fear

sometimes I think
we hide                inside
so we can                      forget
the scale                         of it all
                 whenever         I            venture                 
      outside                        without       
 these                      walls
I am so small

If you have nothing more to say
Why should I stay?
I turn away

If you don't care
Then it is done
And you will never be the one

What do you have to offer me?
I throw you back into the sea

I don't care if you learn
I turn away
And I will not return

I understand fear
fear says "run"
fear says "fire"
fear says "gun"

fear keeps us alive
if we keep our head
but step away from its brother:
dread

I don't understand dread
dread says "why try?"
dread says "love is fleeting"
dread says "you will die"

that doesn't help me
to survive
I don't want to feel dread
I want to feel alive

Apple tree
Through the sweet fountains of blooms
I could see our Moon

If you believe no one thinks you are beautiful
I do
If you believe no one thinks you are clever
I do
If you believe no one thinks you are good
I do
If you believe no one thinks you are special
I do
If you believe no one wants you to stay alive
I do
I promise
There will always be somebody who
Wants you
To be
You

I am moving
through emptiness

building a bridge
in front of me
as I walk

so turns the world  
so turns                the wheel
as one is born             another killed
one wheels and deals and steals his fill
and falls beneath               another's heel
another turns                      upon his heel
to feel the life            that he has stilled
and still he feels      but still he stills
and turns                     again
to turn the wheel

this is not worthy of my shame
it's not worth crying for

love is not a numbers game

I won't play
anymore

I wish that I could understand
Other kinds of animals
Know what they think about
How they feel
What their songs mean

Most of the time
I can barely understand other people

But I can still dream

I found my soul
Hidden in the forest
Right where I left it
The quiet gentle trees
Kept it safe for me

Evenstar
Did your valley
Bloom?
Did you blush in
Spring?

Evenstar
Did your forest
Dream?
Did your ocean
Sing?

I wonder who is watching us
and where
and with what eyes

shimmering like an oasis
in the desert of the sky

whispering into the darkness
a strange symphony of light

trembling with sound and fury
in the silence of the night

stay
stay on this plane
stay in the pain
don't run away

be tough
never give up
courage
my love
you are enough

no
please don't let go
stay here
don't go
I'm here
I know

I pray
all through the day
to keep your heart safe
I hope you will
stay

synchrony
subtle as a symphony
sway me like the sea

Filling with hope
Like the spring tomorrow
When the rain
Washes away my sorrow

Peace fills my wings
And the fear disappears
When the rain
Washes away my tears

wrapped up tight
waiting dreaming in the dark
do I dare to hope?

The storm has washed away
And the flowers
Open their trembling hearts
To the Sun

If you want some perspective
Look at the big picture
Sometimes this can be
Really hard to do

You may feel afraid
To move out of the frame
'Cause the big picture isn't
A picture of you

Then life isn't just
About you and your interests
It's about your friends
And your family too

But if you take a step back
And look at the big picture
Your family and friends
Are all right next to you

So life isn't all about
Family and friends
It can be about your
Fellow countrymen

But if you take a step back
And look at the big picture
There isn't one country
But hundreds of them

So you care about humans
In all other countries
You want to help all of them
Flourish and grow

But if you look a little further
There's more than just humans
There's plants and animals
We don't even know

So you look at the planet
A beautiful planet
Gold grey and brown
White blue and green

When you're up this high
Looking at the big picture
There are no countries
Or people to see

It's a beautiful planet
Not the only planet
It's a beautiful Sun
Not the only Sun

If you take a step back
And look at the big picture
It's easy to wonder
About the other ones

So you send them some music
You send them some pictures
You send your address
Hope they'll write back to you

You take one small step forward
And take one big picture
So deep in the darkness
Our small world is blue

We've never sent anything
Out of our galaxy
We are still guessing
Its shape and its size

And if you take a step back
And look at the big picture
Some light is too far
To ever reach our eyes

The Universe is too big
For us to measure
We don't know what's out there
What could be, what is

And if you take a step back
And look at the big picture
There could be many
Other Universes

There is always
A bigger picture
You can always
Take one more step back

We humans all live
In a world full of color
But the bigger picture
Is dressed up in black

It might seem so dark
It might seem so cold
It might seem so empty
That all might be true

But if you take a step back
And look at the big picture
There is no distinction
Between the Universe and you

So don't be afraid
To take one more step
You're not out of your depth
It is deep within you

If you take a step back
And look at the big picture
Then every picture
Is a picture of you

Are there still days if there are no more stars?
Eternal night unbroken by the dawn
The darkness was here long before the light
And will be long after the light is gone

everyone
runs from the Sun
trying to chase their shadow away
sometimes they might chase you too
if you look like their shadow
or get in their way

when they see their demons in you
hidden desires
a fall from grace
they take up arms to drive away
the silhouette of their own face

To create
To destroy
It is the same
It is to rearrange
To change

I am        confused         I try  
     to ask        search        to find       
looking        for       meaning  
                  in the sky              a direction                    
                            where I        the      wanderer                              
        ­                    should      answer        on the                              
run        in the dark       night

When the truth                                                            ­    
shines too bright                          
and to see                              
   blurs our eyes
                      we weave a
                               veil of lies
                                   and we hide
                                                            ­     from the light.

I believe in myself
I know I am real
Because I think
Because I feel

I might not be
How I appear
But I know
That I am here

The world may be
A grand delusion
Altered wavelengths
Of confusion
Illusional
Balance wheel

But I KNOW that I am real

The world belongs to all of us
Not companies and kings
To one and all both great and small
The living moving things

If we should choose to burn the world
Today to turn a profit
Tomorrow never is too early
To find our way off it

An open book
For me to see
A cryptic script
I cannot read

What hidden secrets
Does it hold?
I ask
Though I have seen your soul

I want to get
Inside your head
And learn your tongue
Your alphabet

To come to know you better
To decipher you
Letter by letter

if this is all a part of me
some solipsistic fever dream
why do I choose to manifest
this soul destroying loneliness

reality does not reflect
my deep desire to connect
so I have reached the conclusion
I must not be the only one

die Wolke
flüstert über die Flüsse
kennt keine Grenze

winged thing
circling the searing Sun
far too bright to see

now I feel
its shadow betray its shape
where it falls on me

deep in this
latticework of consciousness
learn what darkness is

where did we come from
stones and stars
and why are we the way we are
will we all learn the truth one day
does anybody know the way

is the light on the other side
alive
a dagger of the mind
a warning sign
a glitch in time
why is it so bright
who decides

will we still fight when we are beat
are we a secret we can keep
will we know if we go too deep
is life a language we can speak

will we live on beyond the Sun
where to
and what will we become
we know no matter which direction
we will have so many questions

lift the veil
and let you know
every savage part of me
ride the night
the storm below
let the animal be free

If you want to throw it all away
Why not wait for one more day?
One more night before you sleep
Lethe shall run just as deep
Down where that dark river flows
Where the wild nepenthes grow
Wait day by day for that surcease
And welcome it at last in peace

tomorrow will be different
tomorrow I will make the change
those are such easy words to say
tomorrow isn't a real day

do you feel          how I feel
like you're not quite          sure what's real      
do you think          like I think
two metronomes          just out of sync
   do you know         what I know
     can you see         into my soul
shades and shadows          smoke and mirrors
say the          word
I'll make it          clearer...

When you are in love
It does not matter
How beautiful other people are

Even the brightest star
Fades into the light
When the Sun shines

we are made                                                        of nothing
nothing brought                                           to light
   the dark that fell                    upon the stars  
the darkness               brought to life
in an infinite                   regress
the mind cannot       unwrap
we are made of emptiness
we are                      gods




  of the gaps

Rainbow bird
Whirls and swirls in a vibrant
Typhoon of colour

for you
I would have
never stopped hoping

I'd have followed you into Hell
with my eyes open

and now I don't know
the way to follow
far from your shadow

but I am coping

We all drink
From the same well
Hope or fear
Time will tell
What's in the water?
Heaven knows
This is the way
Our garden grows

We all fall
Into the well
Some fall fast
Some fall slow
Some together
Some on their own
What's in the well?
Heaven knows

Every time someone forgives me
I forgive someone else
And so on until we
Wash the whole world clean

a field of rubble
I stand alone
looking for trouble
picking up stones

here was a labyrinth
before the fall
I walk through wilderness
where once were walls

statues are fallen
and shackles are broken
glass fills the grass
and the dungeons lie open

I begin slowly
small and alone
to build a new kingdom
stone upon stone