senselessness
clever the nevertheless
evanescent guess

most of the things
that I have heard
are made of nothing more than words
and then with you
the trouble is
there are not any words for this

a hurricane
is broad enough
to contain a calm oasis
│                ☮                │
a tornado is so narrow
it is home to no
safe places

Let it alone
Let it through
This one isn't
Up to you

Let it alone
Let it be
It's alright to be at
Peace

imagine
the sun in a deep black sky
just another star

my needs are just too much
IF I NEED IT THEN I TAKE IT

I try to hide my needs
**** ANYONE WHO SAYS TO FAKE IT

I hide behind my walls
I DON'T HIDE, I'M NOT A COWARD

and save my energy
I HAVE COURAGE, I HAVE POWER

I wear a mask for everyone
I WANT TO BE SEEN

to hide what's different about me
I AM PROUD TO BE OBSCENE

I think that this would be too much for them
ARE THEY SO ******* HELPLESS

you're selfish for revealing
I DON'T CARE IF I AM SELFISH

this is why you are dangerous
I AM HERE TO PROTECT YOU

you are why they rejected me
BUT I DID NOT REJECT YOU

you are the face I cannot show
CANNOT OR ARE AFRAID TO?

you are made of my darkness
I AM THE DARKNESS THAT MADE YOU

I am afraid to look at you
LOOK ME IN THE EYE

I'm afraid that you are bad
I'M NOT AFRAID TO BE THE BAD GUY

I have to keep you locked away
ADMIT THAT ISN'T TRUE

this wasn't meant to be a dialogue
ADMIT THAT I AM YOU

For some people
Tolerance is a mask
But you can still see the fear
In their eyes

There are things
I do not show
You can see them
In my shadow

Parts of me
I can't escape
Where my shadow shows
My true shape

you came into my life
and I have never been the same

you crossed into my mind
and now my shadow has a name

I burn so bright
when you're with me
and even when you're gone

your darkness follows me
each time I walk toward the Sun

     opposition     yin and yang
        aligned      intertwined

seven  ★ seven
constellations
form one single sign

you haunt the hollows of my soul
and echo like a song

I look back from the Sun
and you have been there all along

deep within the mindless unknown
wilderness of dark and cold
        brave                      oasis      
bright warm place
of tenderness
of hope

feelings may be censored or repressed
felt but not expressed
seen but not heard
sometimes we use words and nothing else
sometimes we use everything but words

what are you so afraid of?
what are you so afraid I will do?
what are you afraid I will say to you?
pathetic little coward

take your empty pride
and pour your poison and rage and spite in it
dig a hole in your hate and hide in it
you ******* little coward

I am always so afraid
that I will go the wrong way

doubt in every step I take

every moment
every day

in the middle of the night
I wake and am consumed by fright

imagining I will be harmed
or that my room is full of bombs
or poison gas
or murderers

I leap from my bed in alarm

it takes some time to become calm

and find myself in dreams again
chased through the streets by evil men
or hiding from the government
a monster
or a hurricane

or just trying to take a test
I know that I can never pass
because I cannot concentrate
or arrived to the class too late

It never ends

There's no escape

I wish that for one single day
I could live my life without fear

No ticking clock
No voice of doubt
No visions of disaster

But the world is turning
It is burning

Faster and faster

And it is clear

We are all afraid
to be
here

who am I
why am I the way I am
I am curious

your mind is like
a labyrinth
I want to understand

if I were a chirologist
I'd read it in your hand

if I were an astrologer
I'd read it in the stars

instead I read

between

the lines
to find out who you are

I see my own mind from within
it makes me feel so different

but if I look outside myself
I see I'm like everyone else

I know a million little things
the little ways
that make me strange

but everyone has something strange
that's one way
we are all the same

We paint ourselves with angels' wings
The Sun our halo melting, gleaming
We eat other animals and wear their skins
Shepherd, can you hear them screaming?
One by one, they're heard no more
Destroyed by greed and fear and violence
Let us leave them in peace before
We leave this world at last in silence

searing sun
burns the heavens blue
alone
in the silent sky

hurting yourself
will not help
anyone else

If there are spirits
What are they made of
Are they really anything
To be afraid of?

always looking
from the outside

all alone
rejected
wrong

I keep people
at a distance

all alone
where I belong

I chase time
into the darkness

all alone
unknown
unsure

there where my
shadow surrounds me

not alone
not anymore

the river does not know
why it flows
into the sea

but it can shape the land
like a strange hand

the wind does not know
why it blows
through the trees

but it can turn a mountain
into sand

could I see
all the beauty within me
with my eyes open?

see the Moon shine in the north
eerie place
another world
planets circle the horizon
jewels in the crown of the Earth

no day
only night
but now

I see the Sun set in reverse
strange dawn
lights the mountains and glaciers
rose
it glows like hope
rebirth

do we
collide

or

 fling             each            other

far

beyond
the Sun

If I went to heaven
I would believe
It was a dream

Maybe dreams
Make heaven
Real

in our judgment
and       division
we have written
our own prison
too ashamed
to think at all
our minds are
h  o   l   l  o  w
empty        walls

love is a gift
it's not something you earn
it's not something you get
because you deserve

love isn't the validation you dream of
if somebody loves you
it means they can love

love is not a deal
love is not a trade
love cannot be unfelt
love cannot be unmade

love sees through all your faults
love knows you are enough
love is gentle
do not be afraid
to be loved

Bright star winking in the night
Radiant bringer of light
Sailing westward past the trees
Almost fast enough to see

Ancient light graces my eyes
And I feel what I have learned
Dizzying to realize
That I am the one who turns

The way the blossom turns toward the Sun
The way the ocean dances with the Moon
The way that nature bends into the One
This is the way that I am drawn to you

slow river
silent, smooth as a mirror
shining with the sky

still chasing dragons
far and wide
so I can say
at least I tried

but still I cry
it's not enough
I do not know
how to be loved

they fall for me
I run away
or just run out
of things to say

and so I'll stay
till something breaks
not sure how much more
I can take

I know it hurts me
and it's strange
but I do not know
how to change

of all the things
to be scared of
why am I so
afraid of love?

Behold the wish to look upon the self
Behold the wish to see what others see
What does the mirror see?
Vanity
What does the mirror see?
Empathy

The mirror of the Sun is the Moon
The mirror of the Moon is the sea
What does the mirror see?
You and me
What does the mirror see?
Heaven
Deep

Nothing is real but what's before my
Eyes
And all the other points of view are
Lies
They say that there are other worlds but
I
Don't think so, I'm not looking at the
Sky

Luminous
In an ocean deep and black
I will bring you light

Come and see
Give your life force unto me
I will bring you night

We act as if what's rational
Should always have complete control
But when it comes to survival
How we cling to the animal

When we as humans come to see
Something abstract and undefined
We add it to the dictionary
The signs and symbols of the mind

When you see pictures you hear sounds
Signs, symbols reverberating
As if the letters speak aloud
Whose voice are you reading this in?

To what heights
Could we fly had we no fear
And with how much joy

There once were dragons
A flaming sword
Fell from the sky

There once were dragons
They fell to the cold
The long night

There once were dragons
And to this day
Their children fly

Recognized
Beneath their feathers

Nevermore

Thousand doves
Quiet and serene and still
Suddenly take flight

A wall once wove all through the town
Fraught fractured freedom fenced and furled
And on the day the wall came down
It was a good day for the world

There is a little row of stones
And in some places that is all
That stands between the sundered lands
Knit back together in the fall

And you can walk across the border
Without knowing that you've crossed it
Where the guns and guards kept order
Checkpoint Charlie, Friedrichstraße

Only thirty years have passed
But it's not the same place at all
Tyranny is not built to last
We all know what happens to walls

I am lost in it
the storm fills my whole world
and I forget the Sun

a beautiful rainbow fills my sky
I am shining in its light

closing my eyes against the rain