I see you in my shadow
in twisted memories
in certain ways
you are so
familiar to me

but still I find
myself surprised
by what you say
and do

I see your whole soul through your eyes
but
who the **** are you?

it has been raining for so long
I still see the sky through it

how can I trust the sunshine
to be real

I shut the warmth out of my mind
remembering the grey

it will take a little longer
before I let myself feel

I truly want this deep within my soul
but each time I get close
I turn and run

my fingers tremble
inches from the goal
this is the closest I have ever come

I feel like
the sky
one moment before
the lightning strikes

knowing it will go through me

that I will be
electrified

only not knowing
what it will hit
or from which side

words are not weapons
but edgeless abstractions
if you take their words
they will speak with their actions

words are just words
that's all she wrote
if you take their words
they will speak with their vote

my hope is not in you
it is in me
my strength is not a well
it is the sea

I do not need you
                                               to be me
I do not need you
                                                to belong
I do not need you
                                                  to be loved
I do not need you
                                                   to be strong