I sit here at night
doubt myself as poet
so I lay 3000 of my writes down on my bed
and cry for my love of this art

It is so unfair, I put myself through these dark times
I sometimes think what the ******* are you doing Chris
maybe one day I will stop suffering for my art
but that spark is in my poetic heart

God do I break me
god do I hate me
do your best my lord
and truly break me

For I am nothing but a shattered man
all is what you see
for I am truly him
a lonely rejected man

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

They have burnt my bothers and sisters
they tried to **** us all
yet I am only one of the few that got away
and they will not be burning me

See the bones in the ashes
the stakes charred
they called us witches
my children of the stars

So now I cast a solar spell
lets see who burns now
I will find the witch smellers
and destroy them all

I am warlock and guardian of time
dare step on my toes
and I vow now
I will pound you into slime


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

How much I do love you

how much do I care

you have become my everything

in this happy state of affairs


You are never out of my mind

I'd love the beauty of you, even if I was blind

my love for you makes me complete

as you have swept me off my feet


It's our time to love, time to cry

when we are close side by side

kissing and caressing

making love with no inhibitions


The smell of your moist skin

that sweet tender touch

god I love you

I love you so much


In this happy state of affairs

I have lost any of my cares

it is just you I want and need

our love does grow fast from this seed



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Are you not just human
two million years
you with your **** religions
wake up you monkies
I have been around
from the beginning of time

Work it out you filthy nasty humans
I really don't give a **** about you
my fleet are poised
for your annihilation
before your Earth was formed
we did rule the stars

Now go away before I make you suffer
for that is my trade
my god is not your god
you lie with insults
with prepubescent gods
ready for your annihilation


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I popped two black dragons when I was writing
and boy did it get exciting
my keyboard turned to jelly
and the walls started melting

I was tripping ***** and writing
most would find this frightening
but not this boy, you silly billies
not the lord from trip city

We busted forth to write
just to keep up the good fight
they say to never do acid when writing
but it's so so much more exciting

Life is too short not to **** about
utilise all your minds power
just be someone baby
come with me to trip city


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Cupid still uses his arrows
yet now has other weapons of love
so where he can't get a arrow fixed
he's started sending it via the internet

Just look and see how many he hits
users falling everywhere
I have myself been hit once or twice
yet I have always pulled his arrows out of my heart

Yes, correspondence from cupid
that possibly will turn you love stupid
he's crafty and never gives up on a hunt
beware dear reader, try to be out to lunch
arrows he has in plenty
your name could be on one in the bunch



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Oh he's on one again
you won't get a word out of him sideways
he's on one of his hyperdrives
and he is flamingly fastidious

Can you see the look in his eyes
that dark glow of a mighty empire within
god don't dare touch him
he will blow you out of his room

Let him be, for is so so happy writing
oh look he gave you a glance, you lucky bunny
he's looking for the word, and I bet he finds it
for he is truly flamingly fastidios, that Christos


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

They are known as the controllers
masters of whips end
they look like you,dress like you
they even act like you, but their not

They have one hand opened
the other clenched into a fist
their smiles are sardonic
and they understand not the premise of love

Cold are their hearts in their soulless bodies
and if you smile it does make them cringe
many are high city rollers
if by meaning the controllers

Their little empires pollute the globe
make misery a pure entity
and they gloat as you choke
on fumes of greed

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Could a candle call to a silent star
in a void once so beautiful from afar
the pages of time walked from darkness
to the communion of kind peace holy and light

Sweet pockets of life fill nearly all galactic hearts
and the motion of time and space is everywhere
you were once pure as a light cradle
there was no them and us, no labels

So lift your candles to the stars
know your roots and who you are

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Send them in she commanded
then she said, take Destiny with you
I just bowed by her bidding
I have not battled with Destiny for so long
unlocking and activating her
I make Destiny battle ready

The last time I flew with a type two
now how long ago was that
oh look at the smile on her face
as she starts to dress for war
never looked at her the way I do now
she is one of the prettiest of muses

She throws her raven hair back
then ties it in the way of ours
I hand her swords and gunblades
her smiling eyes tell me she is keen
going to battle with her will be a joy
I know Destiny does test the devils

We walk hand in hand to temple
our marriage must be sanctified
ten armies kneel as we pass
dragons do now start to weep
this is for empire, this is for all our fallen
Destiny and me mean to test those devils


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The tree lays half across the road
I sway slightly stroking my toad
standing on the ****** dark road down
making sure none will pass by me

I cast twenty portholes to other realities
put fluffy kittens by the side of the road
build my first temple to poetry
for none will pass by me

If you are a fearful child
stand by me and take heart
and every day I die for my art
making sure none will pass by me

Copper craters silver shields
what I think, I make by my will
I am a creature made of pure heaven
on the road to doom and none will pass by me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
© 2012 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

She melts into the horizon
saying her goodbyes
she the blossom of spring

Her voice is midnight
her grace a delight
I wave goodbye to her

Back she will go
till the moon calls her
then she will appear

Without her pure light
I am truly lost
for she is my northern star

The pebbles on my beach
now shed indecorous tears
they are beside themselves

The sea does turn to lilac
it tries to calm me
yet my heart does rage

So in her wake
I do what I am asked
till daylight returns

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I watch her dress for battle
beautiful warrior of mine
the slender frame of her body
is isolated by the coming storm

Trinity keeps coming back to me
no matter how many times she dies
she adores me and wants me
and by her side I do stay

It's just another battle, I say to her
as she puts her amour on her pert *******
do you think we have time. I say
a minute later I'm ******* her in the face

When dressed for battle
your God is hard
for soon we fight
another ****** war

Trinity comes with me
she's the only one that knows me
may the heavens rage
as we make love inside


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The streaming of numbers
codes that I always break
to the slumber of darkness
at the brink of time
at Octobers end

My fleet wait for me
and in darkness I cast my final spell
the last of my heart will beat
to the drum of never ending suffering
and the tangled cords
of the violins of violence will call

Don't pity me
for I am more then a number
the blood name they gave me
885729 and yes it's mine
I cast shields and send
at octobers end


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

More then a terabyte you mean to me
less then a gigabyte I plead to thee
if your silicon mode does not match mine
then hold that memory in place and time

I know you are not of this world
or the next or the next
but I know you
and our lives are fixed

Let them flabber and concur
to the sublime to the absurd
but they will never know my light
that you are more then a terabyte


By Christos Andreas kourtis aka NeonSolaris

We had been fighting in the back waters in space
a place that no one would really want to go
it takes a lot out of me, to travel space and time
just to come back to see this ****** broken land

In my eyes I was just minutes away
good god look what you have done
whilst I was away
if you knew you are ****** killing me

I do this by choice
as she is my voice
and I cry
to see your demise

Don't talk to me about love
for most of you don't understand a f*k
and you know something
I really should let you all die

You of knowing
you are insulting
you have given us a sht stack
when after war we came back


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I have made my own prison to live in
my verhemenous temple of distrust
I can't deal with the dullards
those whom misconstrued me

Just be thankful I write
and don't cut you with my silver knife
for my words are hers
made of silver and gold

So I stay isolated
for I grow strong
and to the glory
it will not be long

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The scars are too deep
I'm hurting all the time
I have no practice any more
as time asks me why

My idiosyncrasies
this fight to the bitter end
as I call you poet
and one of my dear friends

I have gone past the point of care
why should I be subjugated to others rules
I play my cards face down
as I was trained to do

Oh this sweet slumberous time
as I drink white wine
just to kiss you my love
with one off the wrist

I have dragged my own from the battle fields
and truly loathe battle mode
but honour and my devotion calls me
for God's sweet sake I do obey

All are intact and battle worn
as we were from the day we were born
the clash of Titans now does begin
with all the will I have, we will win

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The arena is at full capacity
cheering madly is this ecstatic throng
but the performer in the centre knows
this will be her last lamented song

Tears fill her eyes
she bows and then cries
she will not tell them
that this is her goodbye

She picks up the red roses thrown
sharp thorns pierce her delicate skin
and as her blood trickles slowly down
she lifts up her arms and starts to sing

As her voice echo's around this vast marble venue
silence falls to a voice of clarity and beauty pure
her last wonderful words will bless them within
for this is the first and last of her angelic tours

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris


© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Watch me die mother
just for you
you sanctified every thing
just for me
I remember you crying
and I could do nothing
but love you
my sweet Mother
I will love you till my end
not just mother but friend
you gave all to me
and I will honour thee in poetry
Best give me a home
and you cried when I talked to your mum
and I at the funeral I was a total waste
I miss you so bad My Mother

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

This opulence of fury
this discarded clown
I will strip myself to the bones
just to find out who I am

If richness came with grief
I would be a very rich man
ten football greens
a penny for each tear shed

Do I think man has a future
I really don't think it's possible
compassion and kindness
have flown out the windows

Can you hear her pain
Can you hear her pleas
she's loosing faith in you
Just Like Me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My brilliant war machines
that are at my command
take them down
drive them into the ground

Hurt them, break them
then with your swords in hand
destroy them all
away they must not crawl

Take there cities down
burn them to the ground
exterminate them all
as only we must rule

Take them down
just take them down
wipe them off
their world of existence


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

She sit's there in the dock
see her smoking funnels
and her streamlined sleek

God I can't wait to board her
knowing she will ride such stormy weathers

She is a ship of dreams
such a classic form
from stem to stern
I 'm honoured to give her a turn

She looks so pretty anchored there
man I want to sail in her now
yet as a captain of many
the only way I will sail in her
is if she gave me pity

She is a vessel I much admire
she sets my heart on fire
this most wonderful thing
her name on my red lips
my sweet dream liner

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

You know this, I am writing this poem right now
******* fearless... for you my father
Thanks for never being there
or even remembering my birthday
I watched my mother die
Friend Father and heart breaker
I will never truly forgive you...
as I am always there for my kid's
I could of died years ago
and you would of never known
and I thought Jesus had it hard
Thank you Daddy....Thank you Daddy!

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NoenSolaris

After 2000 years
I am still pure as night
not allowed to save our lord
by the word of God

We those silent few
we pure as night
from us love flows
glory to my Lord

He who shines
She who shines
to the pure glory
the glory of stars

The burden of living
the wonder of faith
mark my words
as you mark me

For I am a pure as night
pure as night
pure
night

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The marble that adorned my temple
now cracks and shudders
the pillars now lean to fall
all that will be left will be rubble

Don't miss this foolish Joker
as he dances like a manic
soon he will ****** off
to be just food for crows

The frost of spring mornings
the chimes of tear drops
the mutterings of the poor
and the poor being me

If should kind circumstance
make haste to my pain
make my living a blessing
on the outland of time
then so be it

BY Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I am looking for miracles
looking for lost dreams
as now I am on my knees praying
but there is no heaven for me

I lost my wings
when I could not take ****** as a thing
that you can ****
and be a hero still

Heaven has no place for me
no goodly grace for me
no reason to forgive me
broken are my dreams of forgiveness

Relentlessly others of my kind never forgave me
so with my continuum epitaph
I cover my tracks and laugh
as I erase my path  


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The fleet were called back to sky city central
looking all confident and pretty
not one ship had been lost
and for the first time, no human cost

Red blue and white flares filled the sky
even for me, it brought a tear to my eye
we have come back with not one scratch
but the enemy, oh we did dispatch

When we finish this victory parade
I will go to my milk maids
in honey dew I will be bathed
all will be smiling in sky city central

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Have you ever heard Angels talk
for I have as I talk to them
they talk in high pitched screams
I should know for I am one of them

Now we dance and sing again
none are we now Earthbound
my company, my sweet fifth
we have become active

Angel talk it is a high talk squawk
and boy it can break human bodies
oh fear us for we are mighty
with our elite and Angel talk


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Some days the tide of pain overwhelms me
and god do my lungs burn unbearably
then I cough for Jesus
blood clots and bits of lung
but I will be dammed if I'm gone

I will do my utmost to cheat death
for I have too much work to do
I will not go down easy
I will leave this world the way I came in
kicking and screaming for breath

I get so annoyed at my friends
looking at me with sympathetic eyes
I don't want them to feel sorry for me
as I fight hard for my life
yet do slowly in pain die

So I lock myself away with the only love I have
and suffer for my art on my own and in private


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2012 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Falling hard dreams inspire me to write

I can't help myself

for I am so very much in love with you


Tell me what to do

I can't deny you

you have me

in your golden heart


This war angel

master of many wars

lays his sword by your feet

kneeling whispering

I love you


Your wisdom matches mine

your blood is blossom and wine

I want to share my life with you

have lost much but gained you

how sweet is justice

that I'm in love with you



The flower I paint is a red rose

for the blood that pumps in my heart

I sit here thinking of you

in love, so in love with you

I now turn away from redemption

for my heat my love

will be the sin of you



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Some days the tide of pain overwhelms me
and god do my lungs burn unbearably
then I cough for Jesus
blood clots and bits of lung
but I will be dammed if I'm gone

I will do my utmost to cheat death
for I have too much work to do
I will not go down easy
I will leave this world the way I came in
kicking and screaming for breath

I get so annoyed at my friends
looking at me with sympathetic eyes
I don't want them to feel sorry for me
as I fight hard for my life
yet do slowly in pain die

So I lock myself away with the only love I have
and suffer for my art on my own and in private


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2012 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Terror comes in many forms
in your dreams and nightmares
can you hear the killing machines
as they lock and load

We are the tyrannical pilots
the children of forever
and my brothers and sisters
oh we do stick together

We are locking and loading
let's see who's hurting
for no mercy I will give
and no heaven for you

My armies are vast and deadly
we of the dark and good
we will strike you hard and fast
and I vow to destroy you

So lock and load
sweet sisters and brothers
as battle will commence
by the midnight bell


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

We have just come back from star striding
all I can disclose is we come back victors
may the suns shine to the end of time

We were made to protect the good and kind
for we put the wicked and evil back in line
we the last, whom are the brilliance of the divine

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Do you think we never forget
your training to **** or be killed
the bunkers you made us live in
here we are huddled, the poor

You think we are as thick as st
just grunts looking, bill dollar Cts
we die like ****** animals
why send the poor

Do you know my brothers and sisters
as we try to protect us and you
we will be remembered liken to ******
use us f**k us forever more

You care little for killers
for we are the walking dead
and all the nightmares we suffer
are to you, just in our head

Yet you ******* still send
still send us
why, oh god why
why send the poor

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

We hid in the bunkers as she went off
the ground shock made me nearly sh*t myself
this was the mother of all bombs
she was the five to twelve smile

I was at the site of the NOVA bomb
and wow did that do some damage
but it is nothing to this baby
my invention the five to twelve smile

I did not do this for blood on my hands glory
and I am sure you would not ever understand
for I did it again for my God in style
for here is her super bomb, The Five To Twelve Smile


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I see in your eyes that want

your tight red lips talk to me

you lower your eyes not to look at me

for what we do soon will complete us


Oh how many times have we had this dream

that perfect dream of liberation

where we could smile and laugh

without any hesitations


So it's poetry in silence

using our secret code

the ones we did used to be

many eons ago


I am a child of good

yes just like you are

your heart so wonderful

it shines like a star



By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Fantastic light did shoot from her eyes
she was my passage, light years ahead
she turned to me with beckoning hands
and I did follow, zoning on to her smile

She had guaranteed me dream worlds
dream worlds that I had never envisioned
and as she made her fiery trail in the dark
I followed dangerously, zoning on to her smile

God she told me, this would make me complete
so I followed her liken to a hapless found sheep
then if wonder made a name in numbered miles
I came to her realm, her cold kingdom illuminated

In her capital city called Paradox Broken
she did show me a map of all her kingdoms
asked if I would join her in the communion of light
I did agree, whist zoning on to her smile.

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

This is my requiem my sweet friend
as you were called, I may follow soon
only two hundred years between us
and in my death there will be none

I am so ready to stand by you
I have strived to become
to become your artistic equal
and again we will become one

You have been my inspiration
the reason of my being
you gave me light
when all around me was darkness

So in death I will stand by you
not just as your greatest admirer
but for the love of you
My Dear Friend


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

She looks at me
so wanting me to give her mercy
the scares from last summers storms
has made her brittle and weak

I see her from my window
in this cold and desolate winter
what I have to do
will make me natures sinner

I'd rather give eight pints of blood
then do what I have to do
with axe in hand I do the unforgivable
I chop and hack, and I cut her down

This is hard for one liken to me
to **** a suffering tree
it breaks my heart and part of me dies
tears do fall as the tree dying cries


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By the black flag
oh glory to you
your servant is ready
to do all that you command

Let my black banner shine
show the neon within my soul
don't let me wait with dark allies
I want that sun of gold

This is the end
sending my death angels
I care not now
as I stand by the black flag

Deum time, et gladium

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My soul was lost
my mind more than crazy
my body did burn and dim
till I met you, you healed me

It was a covenant
a meeting of two to one mind
the first time to the last of the time
I truly know that you love me like I love thee

You are my rain when parched
my silver glowing light force
you are my star when I am fading
the last life I will have before my death

Black things adorn us
we send the devils to bed
you and me my sweet dark one
we will be mystic, me the king and you the queen

We plan ahead hard always thinking
wanting to always be together
not so many words without descriptions
not many could truly understand our union

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Burning with a fever dire
it's like my soul is on fire
here I sit, a killer on ice
dying to love and be nice

Yet those screaming nights
the days of loneliness and despair
those cries from the dead
every time I go to bed

Sadness is like a tempest
and when the heavens fall
when heavens fall
I do adorn myself in amour

I show my wings and glories
show the dragons flames
no prisoners do I take just nations
when I need absolute vindication

Don't think me a frail creature
for I am more then a double feature
I weave magic most secret
not in your world do I live


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

As the light fades and night takes it's duty
Hope does collect tinder and *******
she piles fuel onto the pyers
then with a clipper flick she lights the fires

She watches the flames take hold
they rush to consume eagerly
wood crackles, splitting and spitting  
throwing embers into the cool night air

Her faith never wavers or strays
for her love will be back someday
and as the cloak of darkness surrounds her
she takes comfort in the fires glow

Sitting by the embers of carbon spent
a tear does run down her face
that painful ache in her heart
memories never to be replaced

In a moment of loneliness
Hope does start to sway and sing  
with broken voice and trembling lips
her lamenting song is carried by the wind

She waits in solitudes cold embrace as the sky fills with stars
singing, my love will come back to me one day from so very far


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I sing to them
for we are the same
we flicker and shine
to the death of time

For we are stars
not solar system
liken to last Earth, Mars
for we are the glory of stars

Oh we remember
the water that ran
down our faces
liken to tears

I will not disclose the end of man
for they have no faith, and could never understand
yet i stand here
a wanton warring child
yet now has become so mild

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Wings burn as I dance
angels falling everywhere
feathers brightly burning
everything dies when I dance

Oh sweet subjects of time
loyal are you to it's tidal call
here I dance with my own
as other fall into the thinking pool

Oh little by little
by time after time
I see what was once
and know what is here

I live not
me live again
did they not **** me
a ****** again and again

Was not my deaths so many times
I mean really did I not die enough
that I still dance for my queen
making holy those from below and above

Oh please don't pray
don't pray, for it is an insult
I need no soul saving
really, are you ****** kidding

I left that time to dance
that time I fell here myself
blood of my feline friend dead
the sand in my eyes and them calling me a god


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Is the battles over, or am I still dreaming
is this life again
oh ******* I have forgotten

I stumble from my bed
parts of me are dead
and all I think is to write

I need a blunt and a beer by my side
half in half out, in a dream world he does reside
his complexed hesitations

Again he mutters and clenches his fists
breaking a space in time suspended
oh *******, I have forgotten


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka Neonsolaris

That day I travelled down from London
to honour your death, we got lost
took the wrong motorway to the coast
did not see you rise as mother and ghost

I was late, so ****** late that day
and I can not forgive myself
they pointed to me at a distance
pointed where you had been cremated

So by a chapel I laid my flowers
and I cried for you mother broken hearted
for I had missed the passing of you mother
mother my heart still aches for you

When I was young I wanted to die for you
and a bit of me does still
that day when you were sent away
I did not have the privilege to see you go

My heart still breaks
make no holy mistake
that I had not the honour
to wave goodbye to you that day

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I bet I have to edit again
it drives writers up the wall
I just drink a beer and smoke a spliff
and somewhat all seems cool

They tell me it's no medication
but it does a hell of a lot for me
and cools my beans
when I am editing

He knew this day would come
to show people he is one
one that takes his art seriously
one that call's themselves Poetry

Oh November calling to me
sunset meadows of frost
I am called by winter winds
just to edit again


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris

© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

As I passed the garden scented
I saw eleven people crying
the other two
looked like they were smiling

One glowed with the radiance of light beheld
the other looked like death does in hell
and looking deep within his eyes
I could see he would succumb and be despised

This passing of Gesemani
the passing of an Angel lord
gods lamb of holy trinity
who would be denied by man

Yet fear not children few of Eden
for the blood of Christ treasured is by a few
the ones now without wings
the kind few that are left for you


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris