Cancer that murderous thing
can happen to all and kin
and the suffer and fear
will make you pray on the tier

Don't think God is easy
as he kills all over the world
he did not slaughter millions
not with his might almighty

Oh yes he did not want children to die
but oh dear he is a child killer
and what in Cambodia
and the rest oh these wicked wars

More then I can really believe
you have done to yourselves
none here have sanity in heaven
for you lead the Earth to hell

For you are Cancer
a wound on earth
you died long before
at the day of your birth

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I am just an observer
a shadow of mankind
I sit at your table
as you did share your wine

Yet I did stay an observer
even when they put you on that cross
I watched the splinters pierce your holy flesh
as they hammered nails through bone and skin

And I just stood there, and did nothing to help you
that dark day when I had to see you suffer
good god why did you let me
let me be just an observer

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

On middle spring mornings
I'd go to the village market
and there she would be
selling nutmeg in May

I'd go to her counter and stutter then buy a jar
her smile would be as warm as summer sunshine
every time I would wither so near her
never knew one day she'd be mine

That May evening when she closed her stool
I went over to her and gave her my all
showing all I had written for her
and never left her, for I thought it uncool

She just giggled and with eyes smiling of emerald green
told me for two years she had been watching me
but she'd never had the courage to ask me for a date
yet kindness had drawn us together, she called it fate

From that day till now we have been best friends
and the love for each other will never end
now we both stand proud together,hand in hand
selling our nutmeg in May on her stand

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Please don't cry, I told her
as I caught the tears falling from her face
I come from a land of warriors my love
we are only weapons to the greater good

So I hold her in my arms
I must not get attached to feelings
for if I lower my guard
all my disciplines will be for nothing

Gently I caress her face
and somehow I make a smile
inside I am crying
I know she knows I may die

This is the price of battle
the rejection of all you love
for I leave tomorrow
to fight in the skies above

So this tender moment
I lie and tell her I love her
for if I did really love her
I would not tomorrow fly

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Everywhere I go you are in my heart
every thought I have relates to you
you know my love for you will never die
for you are always with me, everywhere I go

You can ask anything of me
and happily I will comply
you are all I need to know
loving you always everywhere I go

My star ship is only for you
my all I lay in front of you
for you my love, I think you know
glory for you my love, everywhere I go

From little steps and shyness
you told me to stand up and be proud
heart and mind now unadulterated glows
my life is dedicated to you everywhere I go

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris
By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

Those who are pure to me
those I bow to and honour
those I love and respect
the one's of saving grace

The shy and reserved
those I fear to talk to
creatures so pure
our worlds saving grace

Hearts so gold in honesty
even their words are golden
and me a mighty war child
I humble myself to their love

Not one fault
no malice, no hatred
from talking I have faith
these wonders are our saving grace

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

That is the way they think of me
a comical figure, a graveyard digger
I don't know if they care for me
or anything that they say about me

I lost all my last restrictions
that day I cleansed my soul
I try to put a smile on my face
know me now, friend so comical

I lie and smile to give hope
put big boots and red nose on
and as the make up runs from my eyes
I wipe it with my comical hanky

All the money I have I give to others
for what is money for one liken to me
we are the last of the great numbers
the light and dark, and so not comical

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

By NeonSolaris
© 2013 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

He descended lost and lonely into this world
fast did he fall, like cold winter's rain
his body broken and his mind shattered
yet he tried to keep himself contained

He felt like a ghost by a warm fire place
but, none of the living could see his form
he was a stranger, a stranger of passion kind
still in love with his sweet crying moon

Solitude and longing had become his good bed fellows
each night in his empty house they would paint nightmares
and when morning was claimed by the screaming of sunlight
they would pack up their paint brushes and go into hiding

His joy was the shimmer of a new dawn sun
it gave deliverance from the pain of loneliness
yet sweet justice came with those wonder nights
for the stranger and his love the crying moon

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Her sleeve of silken web did drape over his frozen face
as she reached for the potions that for him she had made
she casts a spell of gentle healing luminosity
then with her head bowed in reverence she prayed

She asked in tears for her love to come back
back from the river dark and still, the river Styx
there had been no time when he left this realm
no time, his eyes closed and coins not fixed

So she went to the beach of mercy
and she danced on white sands of forgiveness
love was her servant and lord
and for that she would dance forever more

Her tears will never be forgotten
for that woman was a love of mine
and the tears she did shed
was justice to tears of mine

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

I am leaving myself open again
for all to dwell in my private domain
I myself did not want this
but I have two choices by command

Here I go naked into the world
showing my heart and persona
and I am somewhat apprehensive
this burst could be very expensive

Yet on the other hand
why dream a dream
why feel this is right
just do it and write

I have many stories that should be told
to the poets of good and to the poets of old
let me show you grim tales of despondency
and tales of goodness and humanity

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

If my tears fall from my Manchuria face
onto the white pillows, as you leave
do you think I would forget you
would these tears be for you

Those times you told me
told me of your love for me
yet here I cry on silken pillows
as my heart that you promised

You made me your vengeful princess
and father I will make a bee line to you
I can't wait for you to feel sisterhood
and all that motherhood can do

Let the gentle winds **** my hate
for what is the point of hating
should not love kind and pure
fill the hearts of all the just who endure

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

It's getting darker in here
I know they will be here soon
I can hear their cold whispers
getting closer and closer

What will they ask me to do for them
what will they want from me this time
all the doors and widows are locked
but that has never stopped them before

Their suffocating presences
their unending demands
will bring me to my knees
another night another ****

I was about to sleep
that calm before the storm
but I am not allowed to slumber
they want me keen and sharp

So I will bathe in the lightning
and the burning in my heart
I will trust what I have been told
and fearless, upright boldly do I go

All that will stop me
is my own mortality
my halo of light
still shines above me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I risk hurt nearly every day
my anxiety is at the all time limit
I risk all and suffer for my friends
all for my brothers and sisters

But now I am feeling spent
I'm feeling blooded and broken
I have to stand proud
no matter the odds, and fight my ground

I am one of the compassionate kind
yet my reward is grief and strife
I am traumatized and hollow
yet I still ****** stand

This game of Russian Roulette
the choices I have made
with honest heart and good intention
are now mine to deal with, with honour

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I stroked her as she died
it was hard to put her to sleep
but we could not let her suffer any more

She graced my world for 14 years
did my sweet cat April
and when this month comes
I always cry with April tears

That day I sent her to her eternal slumber
I looked into her big amber eyes
I could not let her suffer any more

I watched as she slowly succumbed to the drugs
knowing this would be the last time I'd see her
I walked out of the surgery after she died
it was rush hour, I did not care, I cried

She had been my trusted feline friend
and I loved her so, I miss the one I so adored
now she is gone my April forever more

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

The children of dreams write their stories
with angelic smiles and tears on their faces
they carry their burdens bravely
making words of wonderful light

They don't care to talk much
they so prefer to write
I hear them scribe away
nearly every single night

I look over their shoulders sometimes
to see what they have written
and the beauty of their words
makes me purr like a kitten

So sweet they are
I love them all
my dream children
to me are very cool

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Patrick was a naughty boy
he was always pulling my skirt up
he was like it with all the girls
trying to look at our knickers

Mum tells me to wear a petticoat
so Patrick that nasty boy
can not creep up behind me
to take a sneaky peek

I will slap him so hard
if he tries It on again
I will stop playing with him
and find another friend

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Forging through the frozen wastelands
surface ice cracks and splinters
it's summer here now
yet it feels like mid winter

Ice all over the stern and bow
but that will not stop this machine
for it is made of iron and steel
new explorations is it's will

To the continent where the sun has dominion
going back to the cold lands of white
my sweet home, kingdom of ice
my kingdom as cold as my heart

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris


© 2011 NeonSolaris (All rights reserved)

This opulence of fury
this discarded clown
I will strip myself to the bones
just to find out who I am

If richness came with grief
I would be a very rich man
ten football greens
a penny for each tear shed

Do I think man has a future
I really don't think it's possible
compassion and kindness
have flown out the windows

Can you hear her pain
Can you hear her pleas
she's loosing faith in you
Just Like Me

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

This muse is for my Lord
hold it my friends
to your heart
and pray

It's song goodness born
this holy slumber
a word for the kind
oh Emmanuel

Let me cast my wings
show honour to you
make each word my last
in your sweet kind minds

No speech do I need
just the light of love
and you give me it
in trinities bread

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I don't care for insults
I do stand alone
my restraint is me
for I will not attack

Come sudo friend
give it your best shot
for I have seen all before
and protect his fragile soul

Do you think I would leave him
My Husband of being
he is that part of me
don't fight me, for the sake of you

I do stand alone
so don't **** with me
for I really know
the laws of hurt

Run rat
Run and scurry
for I need not you
as another quarry

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My poetry stinks does it
then stop reading it
I did not write it for you
I write for my God
you evil **** monkeys
can go to hells kingdom

Who do you think you are little woman
just a lost voice in the wind
You have made your feelings clear
so by Gods name I say Goodbye

Leave it now
for you would not want me named
as your ******* enemy
Leave now before I make merry
your defeat in time
you sad little woman

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Is spring song for winters gone
the hope of summer is here
kiss the air of freedoms want
for warm winds are coming near

When summer breaks sweet cover
and sings sweet love for spring lambs
oh beauty in verse comes now
the beauty pure poetry

Let all be sevens tonight
no hiccups for your delight
just my love of this wonder
I want to live forever

7

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Some people call me
a talented son of a gun
other's call polite
Solaris another sun

Who would claim
divine purpose
progression in steps
to my number read

Each have codes for thee
oh tee he tee he
find out if you care
more about my, me

By Christos Andreas kourtis aka NeonSolaris

It begins in earnest now
the part I play as poet
soon quick atones me
an impatient fool like me

Breaking the barriers
so wanting to feel
inside my barren mind
full of so many lies

This insecure madness
a million miles from reality
this snot monster
from the edge of time

Watch my self destruction
as I try to help myself
in the monuments of time
where real justice gives credence

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Many before me have died
I feel engulfed in their wisdom
the knowing to you
is just a breath away

Give learning
a reason
just talk to your God
for he will listen

God just wants understanding
of all that makes you tick
just pray dear people
before all is too late

This is the Knowing
the glow within my heart
I need not speak
the Knowing

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Only to you I kneel
You are my heart and fire
and all quoted in destiny desires ....
My love does grow every breathing day..
My all for you as we dance in the snow by the call of winter
oh mother of storms come to me...
I will be your fury


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Oh I am proud to be a dark Poet
for dark to us is midnight
dark for dark poets
and yes I number one

Don't think I have mercy
erm... ok I have some
I live in the shadows
and Neon is my name

I am dark and will always be
sisters dark for dark poets
hush children of the word
for I will come to tell you tales

Know in my heart she doth glows
her glory and her might
dark poets dark writes
we fearlessly fight

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Oh I could play
but I don't have time
so be very careful
for I am a delicate flower

If you only knew
you would wish to **** me
I am her wonder war child
the fear of somewhat death

Time is my middle name
and I have no shame
smoke a cat
roll it up and smoke it

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Tat Deutschland hat ihren Tag
tat wahre Krieger bekommen Gerechtigkeit
lassen Sie mich in einem u Boot sterben
mit meinen gefallenen Rittern

Senden Sie es an den Boden
vergessen zu werden
Ich bedauere so das
Kein Schuss Die vier angestarrte Scheide

Im Kopf das Bumsen

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

This paranoiac state of lies

trust no one, hide in shadows

don't talk too loud

it will only make them look at you

Keep your head down

look hard at the ground

for if you don't

the maggots will bite you

Don't get dragged to the ground
baited for the trauma hounds

run my friend with freedom

I will try to hold them back

Let them hurt me

for I am infected

with hate for what they are doing

one day my country will be mine

This suicide ideal

they think me mad

well maybe I am

in this state of hell

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Why do I hurt so inside
why do tears fall from my eyes
this loneliness within me
I am the last of my kind

I try to pull free
from this dark depression
yet it holds tight to me
trying to ****** finish me

God let me go
let me push up daisy's
for I do not love life
so cut me with this shiny knife

I ran into battle
with the faith of you
I did all that you asked
all for my love for you

So let me go now lord
let me die now
let me die
with what is left of pride


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I plant the seeds of discontent in my garden
hoping beauty will come from them
going to spiteful camp to cut my wrists
put it on a plate for my greedy black cat

Pain is my solitude and my dismay
in this malady of all my pain
I cut so hard into veins
feed that cat my grief

Each mirror I look in confirms to me
it is time to end this pain
poetic suicide
for the dark in me


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

So much mud to play with

my mother tells me to leave it alone

yet I play with the mud

while she looks for our home

She keeps crying

then wipes her eyes

I asked her what's the matter mummy

but she won't tell me why

I miss my friends

but don't miss my school

teachers their were strict

and sometimes cruel

Mummy tells me my grandmother has gone away

so I ask her when will she be back

then she cries again

and tells me one day

I wonder if mummy is playing games with me

for this is not the place I lived

but I wonder why my toys are here

I wonder why mother cries so

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My heart stands still at the winter of time
my hair is going grey each day
yet I hold out my hand
dying for you to touch it

You were once blessed with wings
my beloved take hold of me
I will not leave you
for I am your brother ranger

Never will I let you die alone
for something deeper I feel for you
and by the arms of my God
I will have the strength to carry you

May I die in eternal flames
if I don't get you out
out of here
so I can do my work

Your eyes may not watch
as my black wings unfold
for my name is Death
for mortals to behold

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

As empires fall, brought to there knees

I know you will be down on it

this is why I love humankind

for maggots can never merit them

You and planet are deemed dangerous

so the sun will swallow you

just as you do

injustice disrespect

So let empires fall

let me hurt them for you

who are you kidding *****

as empires of Babylon fall

Your terror of hate is over

I reached that final day

you will take it up to the hilt

as if you were some serious gay

What a dusty subject

waiting to turn to dust

like my mother Earth

and the last of me

When you are gone

I will leave a marker

tell those that care

Humans lived here

By Christros Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I don't feel to good today
last night a joke went too far
I had to jump between friends
before a fight broke out
I am feeling a tad rotten
last night will not be forgotten

It would of got out of hand
if not between I did stand
it nearly came to blows
how far could it of gone
so I am piggy in the middle
I am the mediator the in between

Call me mister disarray
for I have to show you
what a floored man I am
I hope as poets you understand

Poetry is my religion
and make demi gods out of me
For I am a Christian
with red cross on my heart

To the glory to my God
For Eden I do dwell

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

My temple is made of words
in the centre I do now stand
I wave my hands in gestures
and compose my dreams

Their is no strain to me
for it comes naturally
this gift is heaven sent
therefore I will sing it's praise

I dreamt of a beach of sand
and when I woke it was in my hand
my dreams are truly vivid
I hope that you understand

When I dream of ancient wars
I always come back with scars
I stride time like a child
a child in a sandpit of time


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

In the battlefield of my benefactors

it is easy to die but so hard to live

oh this March of dark

my month of Hell

Watch me friends and haters alike

watch what is left of myself deconstruct

for silence is golden

I wish I never fell from heaven

This purgatory you left me in

please let me leave this place

it's twelve a clock

and all is lost

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

She was made of midnight's wings
black in velvet where the stars hung
as I broke ranks to asked her to stay
the armies of light shook their heads and tutted

I threw myself to her feet
I pleaded for her to stay
I told her I would go in her place
as long as she would stay

She looked at me
with *** eyes
just like that time
we bedded each other

This was not a perfect ending
to wrench my heart
from where it fell
by my loves feet

Her moment
my moment
was broken
like a forgotten mirror


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

There with the discarded shoes

false teeth and hair

lays the rag doll

the child that loved it has gone

Her muffled cries

forever will be etched in time

no more cuddles

for the death camp doll

All were told the were being displaced

by those ******* who said

that by there Ideals

they were the master race

The camp is silent now

all the huts are empty

all that is left

is the death camp doll

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Keep the fire bright as stars
singe their hairy feet clean
a Hobbit is bigger then a rabbit
and three times as tasty

The best kind are near Mirk Wood
they are plump juicy and yummy
and as you put them to flame
they inadvertently call for mummy

Oh what joy on dark trollish evenings
to share a morsel or two with friends
eat those Baggins squirming kind
saving their chubby legs to the end

Come toast a hobbit with me
they do as well as chicken
see how many your tummy
will if you try hard to fit in


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Walking in the hall of spirits, I see your face

I know you know that I am here to, and it hurts

you once made me smile and my heart was yours

but the blanket of disappointment has made us cold

All the warmth we shared has slowly disappeared

in our desperate attempts we tried to hold on

yet now I understand the fighting is over

for truly our love is over, really over forever

To our sin we held on

for both our fathers left us

to fend for ourselves

we both did suffer for that

Let me bow to you

my friend and kind heart

it hurts much inside

but I know we at last must part

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

In the lake I swim that is so warm it calls to my body
I twist and shake and call the lavender to me
for time will call me to account and I must fade
of all the blossom of springs kind whispers

As the ripples of my voice fade to distant lands
I myself will have to vacant this place
for policies of the mind I built
within time, yes in time. will be remembered

So this water so lavender bearing honour
I make my homely launch pad so holy
no garden will tempt me not to leave
for Eden is falling and I am out of here

In So many ways

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

MY MASCULINE CLAWS OF MELODIC UNREST

DO MAKE ME SCOWL THE BARREN EARTH

LOOKING FOR MATE TO MATE WITH ME

SO HER OFFSPRING WILL HAVE SLIGHT OF ME

MY CUMBERSOME BODY SHELL ABOVE

DUSTY GROUND HER SMELLS I FOUND

MAKES ME KNOW I AM CLOSE

SO CLOSE TO MY QUARRY

YET HERE NOW ON THIS CRUEL ISLAND

A MALE HITS ME SIDEWAYS

NOW I AM ON MY BACK

AND DYING IN THE MIDDAY SUN

By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Surrender is your only hope
my age has no device of me
while you danced in petticoats and shorts
I watched milk fall from my mothers breast

Be aware I am not a mortal man
for death walks with me and I call him friend
dare if you can to walk the path my human
for fires of camp are now light to my religion

Never will I trust
never will I rust
like filthy money
in God I trust


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

I can't sleep for this kitten has claws
when you die I will tear your soul apart
mortality is a gift, so take it
I will wait till you are dead

30 years if that
then you will be mine
and by the eyes of God
I will tear your soul apart

I get ******* with sudo Christians
by the laws of the trinity
time means nothing to me
for I am a vengeful Angel

My own tell me to leave it
why should I waste my time
I tell them to f*ck off
just to tear you apart


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

No matter the colour of flesh
when opened all are pink inside'
It's a fascinating fact
honesty most of them lack

Cheeky little monkey
come out of the tree
I have a banana of love
just to share with thee

Please don't gibber and Ape around
come monkey climb down to the ground
let me give you this banana
and show you how pink you are inside


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

Dusted down and ready for battle
systems ready, this war machine awakes
my hackers poised to do my bidding
throughout all the known worlds

I expect total obedience from my children of war
as good knights they bow their heads
then in ancient tongues
praise the last and my name

I am going to bust 9, 24 and 7
to there is nothing left
by the candle I kneel
honour my God then fight


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

It's little white legs
strides the stamen and waits
no web does it seem to have
this spider in my Orchid

It's black eyes are very keen
pollen feeders a veritable banquette
such a pretty creature it looks
yet it has deeds dark

As I listen to my beloved Mozart
tending to the rest of my plants
I thank god for the beauty of natures wonders
and the gift of humour and love

Oh my beloved Earth
how much I love you
don't reject the blight
and the ignorance of man

I love Mozart's 21st
I wish he had cheated death
I would call him friend
on the 10th of my birth


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

He wants to marry me
in all of my poverty
so I put my glad rags on
skipping to the words of the gun

He wants to marry me
then to take me to Blackheath
there he wants to beat me
beat me close to death

Let the bells ring out
for he wants me beaten
he wants me to bleed
crimson joy falling from my sweet mouth

He wants to hate me forever
so he gives me a ring of barbed wire
then he smiles like the Devil
and beats me up again


By Christos Andreas Kourtis aka NeonSolaris

151
1 I was small among my brothers,
and the youngest in my father’s house;
I tended my father’s sheep.

2 My hands made a harp;
my fingers fashioned a lyre.

3 And who will tell my Lord?
The Lord himself; it is he who hears.*

4 It was he who sent his messenger
and took me from my father’s sheep,
and anointed me with his anointing-oil.

5 My brothers were handsome and tall,
but the Lord was not pleased with them.

6 I went out to meet the Philistine,
and he cursed me by his idols.

7 But I drew his own sword;
I beheaded him, and took away disgrace from the people of Israel.