Chelsea Rae

Chelsea Rae May 2020

I'm just tired..
So so tired.

My soul is drenched with the heaviness awareness brings and things I can't unsee.

I just want to go home.

To my REAL home.

Where is the open armed loving embrace?
Where is the reward for continuing to stay alive?

I don't want to be here anymore.
I just want to do nothing.
To be nothing.

I want to quit. To stop.
I want it all to stop.

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Can You Spin On Repeat With Me?

I wish
I found
Anyone
Who could vibe with my crazy,
Untamed mind.

The possibilities are endless
If you're willing to go on an adventure
With my thoughts.

**** getting to know my demons
Because they hardly exist.

Take my hand and indulge in all of my
What if's.

And yes I am a broken record
That always spins.

I'm sorry for the unpredictable
Predictability.

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Strange Mind

So strange, to have memories of things
that I don't feel like was ever me
doing the remembering.

So strange,

To have memories
that feel like they belong
to a complete stranger.

Sometimes I wonder if you ever existed?

#change

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Drifting

Today feels like one of those days
Where you're tired of holding on.

Your arms afire and you just
                           Let go. . .

                Lay back and d r i f t .  .  .

                       Float on and on and on. . .

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Mmmm, Sunshine.

If I could have warm days outside

And a cool breeze,

With a doobie

And a hammock,

I'd be forever satisfied.

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Perfect Days

"And what would be your idea of a perfect day?" He asked.

"I am selfish. I could never be happy
With just a day but I crave the perfect life."

And then I thought,
You have to create your own perfect day, every day, to make a perfect life."

No such thing as perfect unless you decide it is so.

Chelsea Rae Apr 2020

Writing <3

Oh, the joy it brings

To witness and to write

Of all of life's

Beautiful things.