Chelsea Rae

Chelsea Rae Jan 24

And if there's anything I'm guilty of
Then it was the fact that I always wear my heart on my sleeve.

In hopes you might catch a glimpse of it
and run the fabric between your fingers
before you leave.

I'm always going to be a little too much
and you,
too little, too late.

This is my pattern,
my wounding,
my fate.

I feel you fade and even though I shouldn't,

I wait.

ghosted

Chelsea Rae Dec 2024

Too Much to Handle

I am bursting at the seams
From all of my expansion
Spilling over the edge.
No one can hold me,
and I can't contain it.
I am always too much.
So much that somehow
I am never enough.

Chelsea Rae Jun 2024

As Far as the Sun

Something about the same sun shining on us both comforts me.

I close my eyes and smile briefly,
as I pretend the warmth is coming from you.

Even though you are as far away from me
as the sun and sky, somehow I feel you just the same.

I miss you.

Chelsea Rae Jan 2024

Behind Closed Lips

I'll clench my teeth until they break
Before I ever let it out.
I'll clamp it shut as they crack and shatter before I utter a word of the pain.
I'll bite through my tongue before you hear me say how bad it hurts.

I won't give that to you.
I won't give it to anyone.

Chelsea Rae Aug 2023

All or Nothing

I woke up to the fact that I've been compartmentalizing people.

Sectioning off different aspects of their personality and treating them like strangers.

As if they aren't just one and the same.

It's gotten me in trouble to fall in love with
The good you's and developing too much leniency for the bad you's.

Almost ignoring the bad altogether.

But sometimes we have to put it altogether to accurately make an assessment on someone's character and if we really love them,
And even if you really love them,
Is it safe for you to love them?

I can't hide from the whole anymore.

Its gotta be all or nothing.

#safe #love

Chelsea Rae Jun 2023

Inner Wounds

I tried to love you with everything I had.
My love stirred up the darkness,
Shined a light and
Woke up your demons..
They didn't want love from me..
And one day I realized
Its because they wanted love
From you.

#self #love #inner #child